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Chapter 7

TW: ANGST. SLIGHT NSFW PANICK ATTACKS. MENTION/ DESCRIPTION OF SELF HARM DADDY ISUE DREAM AGAIN.

why was clay so mad at this time in the morning.
I woke up to see that clay was already awake and getting ready for school.
He was getting changed and he was shirtless.
My eyes widened at the sight
"Oh. Good morning... uhh. Sorry I'm just getting ready for today." He greeted. Acting completely normal after yesterday.
I have come to find that clay is very good at hiding his emotions.
He would be a good actor.
"Good morning. It's fine." I say back, getting out of bed and collecting my clothes and headed into the bathroom.
I shut the door and pulled up the confidence to ask him about last night.
"Hey dream?" I speak up
"Yeah?" He replies
"Why were you angry yesterday?" I ask sheepishly.
"I got news about my dad. It's likely he will have to have a surgery on his liver and he could Uhh- He could die." He responded quietly.
I was now sat next to the bathroom door in my school uniform.
"He goes into surgery today. And I find out soon what happened to him..." he sighs
"Oh... I'm sorry to hear that." I say back.
I didn't know how to respond
I open the bathroom door and hug him tightly.
He hugs me back.
"Let's go get breakfast." I smile
We both head down for our food.
We got our food and he headed to go and sit with sapnap and his other friends. I headed the other way to sit on my own.
"Hey, come sit with us." He said, holding my wrist lightly
"Oh. Okay. Do they know about yknow.. us?" I ask shyly
"Uhh they will know. Today. Now. Come on sit down."
"Okay..." I sigh
We head to the table when I realised there weren't enough chairs for us all.
"Clay, there is not enough chairs..." I ask confused
"So? Just sit on my lap?" He said like it was normal.
"what?! No!" I giggle.
"Oh come on Gogy." He laughs
"Fine..." i roll my eyes.
We sit down and I sit on dreams lap. He wrapped his arms round my waist.
"Hey guys this is George. My boyfriend.." he says proudly. It makes me feel proud.
I look round the table to get a good look at the boys on the table.
One i had already met. It was Nick.
There was a boy with a hat on.
There was another brunet boy too
"Oh, hey! I'm Karl.." he said, shaking my hand.
"Hi" I smile
"That's
"Hey George, I'm Nick. We met the out her night yeah?" Nick asks.
"Yeah." I laugh, also shaking his hand.
"Also you can call me sapnap." He nods.
Then the final boy introduced himself...
"I'm Alex. Or Quackity. I prefer Quackity tho. So don't call me Alex. It's Quackity like the du-"
"Ok we get it! chill." Sapnap snaps
We all began laughing.
"nice to meet you all." I smile.
We are out food and talked.
I found out that Karl is really nice and so is sapnap. Quackity is crazy. But he's funny.
I don't know why I was so nervous before. I now have lots of friends
We began to walk to our lessons and we all split off leaving me and clay on our own.
"What lesson do you have now?" He asks
"History. you?" I reply
"Math... ugh it sucks so much!" He complains.
"I know!" I laugh back
All of a sudden, a person walked round the corner with Nikki and walked towards us.
"Hi are you clay?" The woman asked.
He face changed. He looked scared.
"Uhh. Yeah?" He asked.
"Okay great. if I could just talk to you for a moment that would be great..." she asks too nicely.
She was annoying me.
"Yeah, of course." He sighs
He gave me a quick hug.
I was extremely worried but decided it was probably about his dad and he will be okay.
He has been telling me that his dad is okay and not to worry.
But I don't want clay to leave me.
Ever...
I spent my history lesson zoned out. Overthinking about how I would cope if he left... I wouldn't.
My life would go to shit again.
My next 3 lessons were boring too.
No sign of clay anywhere.
My nails were sore from biting them.
it was getting time to go back to the dorms and still no clay.
I got into my dorm expecting him to be there
He wasn't. But a note was...
My Heart sank as I read it....
"George if I have to leave. I want you to know that I love you more than anyone and anything in the world. You made me so happy and feel welcome in a place I thought I'd hate-" I read
My eyes flooded with tears, they hit the paper in big groups.
Making clays near writing smudge.
My breathing began to stop and go very shallow.
"Thank you so much, I'm sorry. I love you..." it read.
My heart hurt.
My vision began to get blurry.
My legs got weak and a ended up sitting on the floor.
at the bottom of the tear stained paper it read
"Signed dream" in fancy letters
I sobbed with it in my hands.
why would he not say goodbye in person.
why did he have to go
why couldn't sally and will adopt him
I didn't know what to do.
I looked at my bedside table. Where I kept my blade...
I didn't want to but I did.
I relapsed.
I wanted him to come back so bad.
If he isn't there. Neither can I.
I kept asking myself why.
why me
why clay
why now
why not anyone else
why
WHY
that's when I heard the door knob turn....
Oh no

AHHHHHH OOOOOOO GOGY ANGST NOW DREAM
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