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4. A good advice....

4. good advice created chaos but is it worth sorting it out?

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I am astonished by her abilities. She is so simple yet so unusual.
And she knows what I'm going through. That's the main part.
"Uh...." I halt for a second to gain the strength to tell her something that even my mind isn't sure about, something my mind is processing continuously and still not coming to a proper conclusion.

"Don't restrain. Just release it all out." She says still looking up at the sky now slowly filling up with small clouds. The sun is now being interrupted by the clouds. And it relieves me somehow because I don't like the bright pricking sun sharpening arrows of its gleam right into my eyes. It irritates the hell out of me. It seems like the Sun is smirking while heating the air this much and it enjoys seeing us miserable like this.

" I'm just confused by an issue. If someone hates your existence and you feel the same but still you feel weird towards them, you catch them doing something which they're not supposed to do as an enemy or your hater. I don't know, I'm just perplexed by everything happening around me and it's been like this for two years. I've been noticing it and now it's too much obvious."
I spit out everything I had on my mind and look at Mahi now looking at me in the eyes directly. She has a subtle look in her beautiful brown eyes and she throws the cigarette to the ground and crushed it under the sneakers once again. She relaxes slightly back keeping both her hands on her sides.

I wait for a reply or anything she has to offer. After the silence of some seconds, she lets out a sigh and faces me with an amusing look.
Does she look amused? By what? Cause of my problem? It can't be.

She speaks up erasing all of my thoughts. " I see that you have some crazy things happening with you. But sometimes, some people come into your life unexpectedly and just take you by surprise. You didn't wish for them in the first place but they're not here for nothing. They have a purpose in your life and sometimes you can't explain what you see in a person but it's a weird feeling. And it takes more time for the mind to understand what the heart already knows. If you're confused, it's alright, some words cannot be explained better than eyes. You'll be more than surprised to understand what is unknown to you."

I am confused yet satisfied by her words. It feels like everything was making sense till she was speaking and now it stopped as soon as she did. Her words generated a flow of questions in my mind which are impossible to answer but it seems like those words themselves are the answer. What She said everything was true and eye-opening to me. I'll have to think about this deeply in silence and alone. I take a look at her, only to find her busy in her hushed talks with the sky. Maybe I am not the one with the superpowers to hear this super-secret conversation. I don't know. So, I take my leave silently without disturbing her solitary yet accompanied work.

I take a step out from the area of entrance and find nobody around me. Nobody? No one's in the ground. I tilt my head a bit, enough to take a look at the basketball court but no one. Not even in the play area. No one is around me. I'm alone here.
Has God planned to take me this way? Alone? Is he going to come out from the bushes all of a sudden and startle because yah! Let me tell you, I'm not that easy to be startled or someone to flinch easily.

The bushes move a little bit and I jump enough to make my head reach the basketball hoop and I may make a goal. Wow! What a tough girl I am!
Whatever.
Just then, a sparrow comes out of there and flies away. Hush!
But how's God going to look alike? Like a guy in underwear, popularly known as Superman, our protector, and knight of the world. I miss those children's movies and the innocence. How I used to play with Barbie all day and wanted all my things in pink. Oh, my lovely days.! I miss you.
I want to drown in that world now and- Wait. I'm distracted. But what's he gonna look like? The wind's getting crazy. Is it my end? Do I have to end my life at this youthful age? I haven't even had se- NO.! You Don't think like that otherwise even holy water wouldn't be able to wash your sinful thoughts.

But I haven't fulfilled my wishes in that cute wallpaper like a Bucket list. Oh my god. I should scream. Someone would definitely come and save me. I'm sure. Abhay. Wait.
Why am I thinking that he would save me.? If anything, he would push me into the hands of the devil. But I should go to heaven. I haven't done anything. I'm a virg- What the hell are you thinking? Again and again.

Suddenly, out of the blue, a hand is placed on my shoulder and I jump and suddenly hug the same person. Warm hands surround me while I'm trembling with the fear of dying without even having the fun of life. Oh, my holy thoughts. It's not even stopping. The hand rub my back slowly and I calm down required the warmth and comfort it's providing. When I take my head out of the muscly chest, I glance up at the person only to find the most a worried Abhay standing there with me in his arms. What the heck?

I quickly push out of the arms holding me so softly and give him a disgusting look. He half-smiles and stands there unaffected by anything that happened just now. Does he smile? I must have dreamt. I'm too much in delusion to think like that. I should go home and sit to gather my thoughts.

"What are you doing?" What is going on in his mind?

"What?"

"What are you doing here and that too with me?"

"I should ask you that. Recess is over and you're standing here all blank in this empty ground startling on someone's presence."

"I-I....." I didn't know what to say. It's all too much. What should I tell him?

That hey Abhay, I couldn't arrange my thoughts and it was driving me crazy and you would be too surprised to know, they were all about you. How you look at me and how I feel about you and stuff you know!

Fuck no.

A tweak of fingers in front of my face drags me out of my stupid thoughts and I glare at the person.

"Now, what are you imagining? Do I turn you on that much? That you enter into the fantastical world whenever you see me? "

"The hell you want? And you still haven't answered my question. What are you doing here?" I ask sternly.

"Nothing. Just fill-up the water bottle. And then I came across someone being scared out of their daylights and I thought it'd be a charity for free. So I'm here. Do you get that point in your dumb head?"
He said poking his fingers on the right side of my head. I angrily shoo his fingers out and he took a step back, now taking in my angry silhouette.

"Don't touch me and I'm better than you whether scared or not." I gritted under my teeth not meaning anything but still threatening him enough.

He remains unresponsive and turns around to move to the class. I watch his image fade out and let out a heavy sigh before leaving to attend my class, knowing clearly what Mrs. Sharma is going to do with me. I ain't no saint though.

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How're you liking the book this far? Let me know anything that comes to your mind.
And Radha is really out of her mind. She hates Abhay but still has weird feelings for him. And Abhay is never going to shut up with his naughty words and always finds a chance to accuse her of the dirty thoughts.

Let's see what happens though.

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