Madnessa - More than just series Girlfriends - I Fall for love with girls

Chapter 4

Vanessa

I couldn't concentrate all the time. Roberto was already annoyed with me and I understood that completely. I was completely confused and screwed up even the simplest text. After literally HOURS my scene was finally done and Roberto called me and Mads to him.
"So either you have a stick in your ass or you are really tense. "said Mads teasingly.
I just looked at her and growled "Tense." Madelaine frowned in concern and took my hand. "What's wrong with you?" She asked carefully and I felt it want to surface. I shook my head vigorously and whispered, "Not here." Madeleine seemed to understand me because she was pulling me into the forest. She quickly wrote Roberto a message that we would be there later and then looked at me expectantly.
Something contracted inside me. If I should tell her this, I somehow dragged her into the mess with me. But when Mads took me in her arms and stroked my spine, my dam broke and all the tears broke. I had held back for the past few months without being able to stop them. Madelaine didn't say a word the whole time, she just let me cry. When I ran out of tears, I let myself go. Madelaine and I sagged to the floor together. Somehow Madelaine managed to pull me with her so she could lean against a tree. I sat between her legs and Mads stroked my arm. I was well aware that Mads was pulling beautiful spots into her white skirt, but she didn't seem to care at all, I was already in first place with her.

,, Mads ... we have to go to Roberto ... '' I said in a voice that trembled even more than I did at every goddamn math exam. But Mads shook her head. ,, What we have to do is that you finally let me get to you. '' My anger was boiling up again. Angry I jumped up and snapped ''you know what? I let you get close to me, not only psychologically but also PHYSICAL! A thousand times closer than when I let Michael get close to me! Damn we made out! Nobody knows about my scars, only you! Nobody knows about my sexuality, only you! Nobody knows that I was rejected as Zoe, only you! Nobody knows about my pregnancy, ONLY YOU! So don't say I won't let you get to me! Do you know why, that there should never be more physical in private between us? Because in the end you'd be cheating on me as much as Michael did! "I quickly hit my mouth with one. FUCK! I didn't want to tell her that! Now she's up to her neck in the shit inside.

Madelaine

I jumped to my feet in shock. ,, Nessa! Do you still live with this pig? From now on, YOU will live with me and Travis from now on! "I wanted to hug her but she took a step back and my heart contracted. I remembered what else she had said. She couldn't let it get so physically between us again because she was scared ... ,, Hey, Nessa, you can trust me. I will never cheat on you. You're coming to see Travis and me today. ''

Finally Nessa and I sat in Roberto's office. Vanessa had calmed down and agreed to live with us. Now the brunette held my hand convulsively while Roberto eyed us angrily. ,, Girls, thanks to you we're 50 minutes behind schedule! What was that supposed to mean? "He grumbled. Vanessa looked apologetically at Roberto and opened her mouth, but I was faster. "I'm so so sorry! I was stopped by Travis, so I stopped Vanessa too. I didn't think it would take that long. '' Vanessa kicked me under the table and Roberto fell into his chair with a snort. ,, Madelaine, I don't have to tell you that this is your first warning, does it? You know two happened at three. "He said calmly and I nodded. Vanessa wanted to say something, but I pulled her arm lightly under the table to make it clear that she should shut up. Sighing, Roberto continued, "We have finished the season. There will be a choni sex scene, then a break-up, then a comeback. '' He passed our scripts to us and we quickly left his office.

When we got to Vanessa's trailer she grabbed my shoulders and shook me. "ARE YOU INSANE PETSCH?" She shouted, "WHY DID YOU DO THAT.' 'I tore myself away from her,"So that you don't get the trouble! I want to prove to you that you mean everything to me and that I would do anything for you! "Vanessa had turned her back on me and was running through her hair. ,, With all love Nessa, we behave like an old couple! '' I tried to loosen up the mood. Vanessa turned back to me and I thought I saw a smile, "Just promise me you'll never do that again." I nodded, even if I didn't understand why I was so upset that she wouldn't let me she protected.

The whole day passed quickly and Vanessa, Travis and I were already sitting at our kitchen table and eating our pizza. It was Travis' idea to take a picture. "Vanessa feed Madelaine with the pizza, could be a sweet Madnessa picture.' 'He said. Vanessa quickly heals me a piece of pizza and I put it in my mouth. Vanessa put her hand lightly under my chin, but dropped it again as soon as Travis had taken the picture. ,, Sweet... '' he said, "You'd think there were feelings between you.' 'He laughed and sent us the picture and I got a guilty conscience. Travis couldn't have known he wasn't that wrong. There was something between Nessa and me, I just couldn't read what.
(Of course we uploaded the picture to Insta to make the Madnessa fans happy.)

Vanessa

Travis had given me the space in his bed and I was really grateful to him for that. Voluntarily, if I hadn't stayed on a coach with Mads again, the coach in Mads trailer was uncomfortable but the Coach of Madelaine and Travis felt like a board. Of course, Madelaine could have slept in bed if I was on the coach, but honestly, anyone who knew Madelaine knew very well that she could never have left a friend alone with pain. Well, unless she had to go to the toilet, because with all my love, she wanted to drag me there herself, but this woman also had something like privacy. I was just standing in front of her HUGE mirror and looking at my latest cuts on my back. They were created earlier. I was allowed to go to the bathroom alone, more or less, Mads stood in front of it like a watchdog. So she would be afraid that someone might attack me. Just as attentive was my best friend, she could move just as quietly. That's why I had half a heart attack when I saw her face in the mirror. I jumped up and stared at her in shock. "Mads ... I ... I can explain it ..." Madelaine shook her head, "I swear to God Morgan, if you want to explain yourself now, I'll kick your ass so much that you land on the moon and even there I will come to understand? I do not judge you, but please tell me when you cut yourself up again ... '' Tears are reflected in her loving eyes and I also had tears in my eyes. ,, Earlier when I was on the toilet. '' I whispered honestly. "I see, we can talk if you want, Travis went out for a drink with some friends ...' 'Said Mads, nodding. I saw her wrestling with herself, so she didn't know what to do either. I also took the decision from her and took her in my arms and she hugged me tightly. "Mads. The only thing I need right now is closeness. I can't anymore, I broke up with Michael and I annoying you and Travis . Look, he's sleeping on the sofa Mads. '' I said. Mads shook his head energetically ,,No, he does it voluntarily, nobody forces him. '' I looked at her sadly and shook my head ,, I am alone Madelaine, pregnant and mentally and physically alone. ''

Madelaine took my face in both hands and looked deep into my eyes ,, I'm always there. '' Then she pressed her lips against my forehead and thus confirmed her promise. I looked at her with tears in my eyes. ,, We are going to sleep now Vanessa... '' she whispered and brushed a brown streak from my face. She pretended it was the most natural thing in the world. ,, Mads, I doubt I can sleep. '' I said. Mads pulled me to the bed and made it clear to me that I should lie down. I obeyed and she put the blanket over me. My best friend took a seat next to me and stroked my arm. Amazingly, I actually fell asleep.
My sleep didn't last long - in the middle of the night I woke up screaming. ,, Vanessa, Vanessa, Vanessa, hey, all good, I'm here, that was just a dream, nothing happens to you. '' I opened my eyes and looked into Madelaine's worried face. "I ... I need air!" I said and ran to the balcony. Panicked, I clung to the railing and still had the feeling of falling over. When arms closed around my waist and I felt her face on my shoulder, I felt a little more secure. ,, Come in with me. '' Madelaine asked me, but I just shook my head. "I have to sleep outside, otherwise I won't sleep anymore." "I see." Said Madelaine, "But then I'll stay outside with you." She went in quickly and came with one just seconds later Thick blanket back. She took my hand and pulled me to the couch on which we sat together. I sat hissing her legs and Madelaine had spread the blanket over us. I snuggled up against her chest and Madelaine stroked my arm lovingly. ,, Tell about your dream. '' Mads asked me and the words just flowed out of me. "I had the baby and when I left the hospital there was no one left. The entire cast and my family and friends were gone. You and Travis ran off to Germany, the only thing I got from you was a piece of paper that said '' We're sorry, but we don't want the baby and you in our lives anymore. ''. Then a hole opened under me, my child was torn away from me and I was alone in the dark ... I was alone and I'm afraid of being alone forever in life, too. '' I said. ,, Hey.... '' Whispered Madelaine and I turned my face to her, "You are not alone. Not as long as I can be in your life, my darling. '' ,, I ask you to always stay in my life. '' I said and put my head against her chest. Tired, I closed my eyes and thought I felt Madelaine's lips on mine for a moment, but I must have only imagined that.