Unplanned Mistake

Chapter 7

One and a half years later.

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Danielle's pov-

It was long forgotten memories, I assumed, Xavier never talked to me, Brandon stayed at his side, and Lavender is successful now.

If I would have known earlier I wouldn't do things that could ruin our friendship and as a family. How dumb I was for thinking that, this was the only way to have Xavier when all I did was ruin him and Lavender.

I was all consumed by envy and hate for that lovely girl. Dumb me.

After the talk with Brandon, I flew to another country. I knew running away from it won't and will never change a single thing. Scared and not ready to confront him. Almost a year has gone by so fast, I still carried the feeling with me, guilt and shame.

Somehow, Brandon made me realize that my jealousy and anger was the reason why we all have changed now. He is right, I shouldn't let that feeling have me yet I let it into my heart.

What I did that night was something that I could never erase from my memory. It will stay there, but I'm happy that it will remind me of my mistake, and not let jealousy and anger easily control me. I have learned to control that though.

And for the first time too, after all these years I tried to make peace with it. I know I don't deserve it but hey I need to live my life too.

And after these years of running away from everything and everyone, I decided to confront the people I have hurt. I didn't expect them to forgive me, but they should hear it from me, right? Being the one who ruined everything, I hope they still want to talk to me.

Opening the door of my car, I got out and took my feet to the elevator of Xavier company. What would his reaction be? Will he forgive? All these thoughts constantly haunt me, I muster the courage to still meet and talk to him.

What's in the past maybe should stay there but I don't think I can breathe the next day with this guilt. I ruined two people, the one that is so close to me and the one who has a bright future with this guy.

"Hello," I greeted his assistant, Ellie, she never fails to wear a smile on her face, really. She greeted me back.

"Is Mr Knight here?" She nods her head, signing that Xavier is here. "I would like to meet him?" I continued, then she knocked on the Xavier door, and two minutes later she came out from the Xavier office, opening the door for me to enter.

There he is, facing the door and looking outside the window. I heard him sighing. I'm the first to say, "I am here to talk about something." I said not moving an inch from where I am standing.

He is still the same person wearing the same attire, I miss him, as a friend. Still the same Xavier, cold to anyone. I was wondering how Lavender made this guy break the barriers of his coldness? Lucky, Xavier to have her, and so her.

"Talk," he replied, short.

"I know you know about what I did, and I am sorry." That's all I could say, I feel numb. He sneers from his seat.

"That's all?" He questioned, "how much did you pay that guy to sleep with Lavender?" he paused, mentioning the lavender name.

Sleep? That word seems foreign to me. Only to have him, I paid another person to sleep with Lavender.

"I'm truly sorry for what I did, Xavier. And he didn't sleep with him. I just paid him to a-act as they did."

"Oh, really?" He questioned again, still back facing me.

"I'm sorry."

"You should be," finally turning his chair to face me, "you know how much I love that girl, yet, the one I trust as my family is the one who destroys everything." my mouth glued, doesn't know that to say.

"I thought you were as my...my family, Danielle, but why did you have to do that?" He ran his hand through his hair, "it was long forgotten, Ms Patrick, I already forgot it and you too should do the same. I don't hold grudges." He utters, seems so easy to hear but hard to say and do. He is Xavier, the guy with mood swings and stubbornness but the nicest guy to live on earth.

"I'm sorry, Xavier. And congrats on your wedding." I beam and leave. He may have said that I know for sure forgiving and forgetting is not easy.

Was I lucky to know Xavier? Indeed I'm, he helps me a lot in my struggles and I took the first to ruin everything. I still blame myself. And I live to remember it and change it. I don't deserve it but in my last talk with Brandon before I flew he said that I still can change, I keep that word and change.

It was not easy, but I did my very best to change, to change what still can be changed. I can't make them be together again but I earn their forgiveness. At least with that, I can breathe well.

So many things happened after I left this country, Xavier rarely talked to me, Brandon stayed by his side, and Lavender was a successful person now. And soon, Xavier is getting married.

I smile, everyone seems happy and I wish for it to stay that way though everything has changed. I too don't deserve to wish for their happiness when it's me who destroys their key to happiness. Xavier may have said to forget it but could I truly do so?

Earning forgiveness from them, yet the fact that it lives freely in my thoughts. Forever, it will stay with me.

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my very first short story is about to end soon😢 truthfully, I had mixed emotion writing this ;)