how much i love you

sorry i cared

i don't know if i messed up or if you did.
i tried everything i could. i wanted to make you happy.
what was i supposed to learn from this?
that i get attached to easy?
that i make mistakes?
all i know is that i made the worse mistake.
a mistake of loving you.
and i'll tell you it was the best mistake i made.
but it made me feel worthless.
i loved you, and i got hurt.
how am i supposed to do?
sit here and hurt?
confront you, even though i was told why?
should i here it from you?
i fucked up.
and i know i did.
but what should i say?
sorry?
i'm sorry that i felt safe in your arms?
sorry that i hoped?
sorry that i wanted to feel loved?
sorry for that one night.
sorry for think that we were a good idea.
i'm sorry for thinking that life was giving me a break.
i'm sorry that i ever loved you.

sorry austin.