The Lie In Your Promise

Still here

Standing at the bridge, looking at the beautiful river beneath me, I once again got lost in my own emotions. The water flows continuously. It never stops, it just keep flowing away from me, following its own pace, just like he did.

Not caring about the stars that now decorates the sky above me, I continue to stare at the neverending blue under me. Everything reminds me of him. No matter how much I want to forget him. Its like the whole universe is against it.
They say you cherish the memories forever. But what if I don't even want to remember him in my memories. What if I want to free myself from this suffering that he and everyone else is unaware of? Just like that thinking about him wets my once dry eyes again. They were constantly moist and heavy unable to bare the burden of those memories. After he was gone, it was then that I realized that my joy, my happiness, my dreams, everything was connected with him. He left. And never looked back. But here I am. Still standing there. Hoping that maybe, just maybe God will end my suffering and he will come back.

I feel pathetic for thinking that way.

He left, but his memories won't. I wish these memories were as unfaithful as him and leave me too. I hate him for what he did to me. For what he did to us. For how he continue to move on with his life.

And I hate myself for letting him ruin me.

Just before I could get more lost in my thoughts, my phone rang.

Y/n POV

Aunt Jane.

I quickly wipe my tears and take a few breaths to calm down myself. After i was sure that my voice won't tremble over the phone, I pick up the call.

Aunt- y/n, honey where are you? Are you still at work?

Y/n- no, aunt Jane. Actually I was just leaving from work. I'll be home in 20.

Aunt- oh okay darling. Come home safely.

Y/n- yes ma'am.

I try to smile as if she could see me over the phone. Hanging up, I take a final look at the water and start going back home.

It became like a ritual, for me to stop here at this bridge in the city, Stare, and try to cry away his memories.

Time skip- at home

Y/n- I'm home!
I shout as cheerful as ever.

" honey, freshen up and then come downstairs for dinner", I hear my aunt shouting from the kitchen.

"Be right back" i say.

After changing out of my work cloths and freshening up, I head downstairs.

There she is. On the dining table, waiting for her niece.

Before I could say anything, she greets me.

" you must be starving y/n after working hard all day long. I bet that arrogant boss of yours would have not given you a small break to eat" she says.

"He isn't even that bad aunt." I keep it short not wanting to indulge in details.

Aunt- sure. As if you will ever blame the person causing you problems rather than yourself. You know what I mean right?

"I do"

" you should eat more. As an adult, you really need some more food down your system. You are losing weight y/n. Eat more." She tells me.

" I'm just not that hungry. I snacked on a bagel on my way back home." I lied.

" okay. But you know, I can see through your lies."

Thats it. No other word was spoken during rest of the meal.

After doing the dishes, I turn around to leave the kitchen when I see aunt standing at the doorframe.

"I've failed y/n" she starts. Tears well up in her eyes.

Before I could ask her anything, she continues to speak.

" 2 years ago, when your parents sent you here to me, I was confident you'd get over whatever the feelings you had for that guy. I thought a change of atmosphere was all that you needed. So I asked your parents to send you here, to italy."

" y-you knew?" I tried to speak without sounding weak. All this time she knew. She knew everything and here I was trying to act all strong to hide the fact that day by day I was breaking more.

She ignores my question and continue to speak.

" y/n, my child, forget him. You thought I wouldn't hear you crying at night? The dried tears in your eyes? How you refuse to move on in life when he didn't even cared about your existence?"

" your brother called this morning y/n"

"W-What!"

" yes, and he wants you to continue your studies. Finish your masters and have a real job and settle down in life."

"I-I can't. I can't do it. I'm sorr-"

"ENOUGH! Y/N, ITS TIME FOR YOU TO FUVKING MOVE ON! WHY DON'T YOU REALIZE!!! YOU ARE NOT ONLY RUINING YOUR OWN LIFE BUT EVERYONE ELSE'S AS WELL WHO CARE ABOUT YOU."

This was the first time she shouted at me like that. But she was right. I was wrong. It was because of me that he left. It was me who ruined everyone's happiness.

"But you don't understand aunt. How can I-"

She cuts me off.

"Y/n. Your brother believes all your lies. He thinks you are better. He trusts you. Don't forget it was he who was there with you when even your parents were not."

"Do it for him. For me. I beg you. Please." She says.

She's right. I'm just being selfish. All my life I've caused everyone to suffer around me. I've taken away more then I've ever given.

"Okay" was all I could say before locking myself in my room. Plopping on my bed and crying was all that I could do. No matter how strong I try to be, it is never enough to stop those warm water droplets falling from my eyes. My pillow holds all my breakdowns. It knows how much I still miss him.

Even after two years, he holds the same power over me. And now I have no choice but to pretend to be alright once again and finally move on with my life.

Tired, I finally fell asleep. Unaware of the chaos that destiny was about to cause in my life.

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