The Lie In Your Promise

Take me back

Y/n POV

"Y/n, you need to move on. I know you loved him but you just can't waste your life like this. Either talk to him or stop thinking about him like this"

"Eunha, out of all the people, I thought you knew how much I loved him and that I am trying. Do you think I want to be this miserable?"

"I understand y/n-

"No. You don't. Do you understand tears rolling down your cheeks at 2 am?"

"Do you understand permanent sadness? Do you understand the hollow feeling you get when you know that you'll always be alone?"

"Do you really think you understand?"

Sigh.

I shouldn't have shouted at her like that. She was just worried about me. Everyone is. I hate what I've become now. Shouting and crying is all that I seem to do.

I took a day off today and spent it not doing anything but just staying in bed and thinking about last night when I had an argument with eunha. I'm such a terrible friend.

Tearing myself away from the bed, I decide to make myself a cup of coffee.

Hot coffee on a cold day like this is nice. Its nice to feel warmth. I go to the balcony to have a look at the evening sky but instead of the sky, someone else catches my attention.

Namjoon POV

I know it is childish and cliché for me to do something like this but I will if it means she forgives me.

There i stood, infront of her small apartment building, holding a placard in my hand and a white rose in other.

Y/n POV

"I'm sorry love"
Scoff.
So he thinks that I would forgive him for all the misery he put me through?

Is he the same guy that I once loved?

The namjoon i loved wouldn't even hurt a tiny creature. But how he ended up hurting me?

I turn around and get inside. He will go away. Its not like he can keep up with this facade of his for too long.

NAMJOON POV

It seems she read my words but did not accepted my apology as she just went away like I was not the person she once loved.

No matter how hard it will be darling but I'm not leaving this time.

I stood there for 3 more hours before going back to the dorms. I'll come back tomorrow and will keep coming back until you tell me to stay.

Y/N POV

DAY 1

As I was coming back from work, I saw him. Standing with the same board as yesterday, holding the same white rose.
I look at the time. 6:30 p.m.?

Ignoring him i continue to move towards my apartment. He will go away soon. I'm sure. It's cold, he can't stand here for long.

It was surprising how he didn't came forward to talk or even said a word. He just looked at me. I could feel his eyes on me. But thats it. He didn't do anything else.

DAY 2

He's here today as well. I wonder how long will it take for him to quit this time. Because he have to. I'm finally being able to survive without him so he'll never get that apology. Never.

Day 15

Sometimes I feel bad for him. I mean when I'm here in my apartment, all warm, he's out there in the freezing cold weather.
But he deserves that and its not like I'm keeping him there.
He can leave if he wants to.

Day 16

Its been 15 days since he keeps coming like this. He just stands there, at the same spot with the same things and the same look in his eyes.

"Stop coming here like this. Your fans might recognize you. I don't want anymore problems in my life"
I said to him before passing by.

"Don't worry y/n, they won't. And I don't really care if they do but I'm not leaving "
Seeing him being so persistent i decided to leave and ignore him like always.

NAMJOON POV

its again time to leave.

"She talked to me today"

I announced with a smile on my face as soon as I entered the dorm. The guys were shocked.

"Oh my god hyung! She did? " the youngest asked being happy for his hyung.

"What did she say joon?"- jin

"Nothing much but just as I was losing my hope, she talks to me suddenly. Im so happy hyung."

DAY 21

I'm sick of seeing him standing there all day long. Why can't he leave me alone. He's just being stubborn.

It was Sunday today so he knew I would be home all day long. That is why he decided to come early and won't leave.

I take a peek at him from my window to see him the same. The only difference was that he was not holding a white rose this time, but a red one.

I decided to ignore him and get my assignment done. Halfway through the assignment and it started raining.
Sigh
Finally he will leave now.

Time skip

I look at the time on my phone. 5:30 p.m.
Oh, so I worked all day. I stood up to make some coffee for myself.

I could hear the rain falling even harder than before while I was waiting for the brew.

Holding the filled cup, I go back to my room.

'He won't be here now right?'

'I mean its raining, he wouldn't stand outside like a stubborn kid'

Dammit.

I put away the coffee on the table and go to the balcony just to make sure he's not outside. But-

There he was. Shivering in cold. His whole body wet from the rain, clothes sticking to his body.

He holds up the placard as soon as his eyes met mine.

NAMJOON POV

I'm so fucking cold right now. But this is nothing compared to what she felt all these years.

Before I could think more about her, she finally came out to her balcony.
I smiled at her as I held my apology board. She stood there for a good minute, looking at the board and then at me. I felt my heart race as I stared back at her eyes.

B-but she left again. She left not looking back.

I sat back on the bench, defeated.
Will I not have her again? Did I lost her?forever?

Suddenly I felt the drops of water stop hitting my body. Did it stop?
I look up only to see her holding an umbrella over me.

I smiled looking at her hand holding the umbrella. Y/n. My y/n. She came.

"Come inside, let's talk namjoon"

Her words cuts me off of my trance and just like a lost puppy, I followed her to her appartement.