The Lie In Your Promise

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A week later

Y/n POV

Its been a week since I last saw him. Strangely, he never came back again. But that's just what he does everytime, he never comes back. I continued with my classes and job. Eunha and I meet almost everyday. She's studying fashion. I'm glad she chose to do what she always loved.

She has a boyfriend now. He's so kind and loves her dearly. I'm glad she is happy.

Atleast one of us will have a happy story. I can't help but to feel bad the way she looks at me, with that look in her eyes that I hate the most. The emotion, pity.

I push away all these thoughts as I get me something to eat from refrigerator. I'm tired. Today was tiring. But I'm home now, away from all those judgemental stares.

Before I could heat my food, the doorbell rang. Who would it be? I'm not expecting anyone. Eunha? Maybe.

I put the plate of food on the kitchen counter and make my way towards the door that needed my attention at the moment. Opening the door, I froze at my place to see him standing there. At my door. What do he want? Why out of all the people is he here? Before I could shut the door on him, he welcomes himself inside, as if he knew what I was about to do.

??- "y/n"

He says. Upon seeing me not responding, he continues to speak.

??-" so you really came back. I'm glad that-"

Before he could say something more,I cut him off
"What are you doing here jin?" I wanted to sound strong but the sentence came out merely as a whisper.

He pauses for a moment and then speaks.

"I'm sorry".

"I'm sorry y/n for coming like that but I couldn't help myself after namjoon told me that you were back."

Namjoon. Huh. Why doesn't he leave me alone. Why would he go and announce my arrival to all when he probably didn't even wanted to see me in the first place!

"Y/n, i really need to talk to you."

"But I don't. Leave. Please."

" no.no.no please y/n, just hear me out this time. Please, I-i can't take it anymore. Especially seeing how what happened that day  affected you. Please"

Sigh. He won't leave. Not without saying what he needed to. I know him.

"Hm. L-lets sit down."

Its been about 5 minutes that he didn't said anything, just kept looking down at his hands.

Just as I was about to ask him to speak, he decided to break the silence.

"I came here to apologize y/n."

"For what?"

Finally he looks at me before continuing

"I had spent two years not acknowledging my mistake. I convinced myself that it wasn't my fault. I couldn't have done anything to help you or namjoon in that case."

"What are you saying jin" I said a little agitated upon  hearing his name.

" only if I would have spoken that day, maybe you wouldn't have suffered this much. Only if didn't chose to stay silent."

"Y/n, i kind of had an idea that namjoon would do something like that."

"W-what? y-you knew!" I ask him as the tears fell down.

" y-yes. The night before the wedding, he was restless. His behavior was odd. Nothing like the calm namjoon we know. But, but I thought maybe he was anxious about tomorrow. You know, its normal. So I didn't think of it much."

"But the next day, on the day when you were supposed to get married, I saw him leave. I-i wanted him to stop. I even asked him but he asked me not to tell. And valuing my friendship with him, i-i chose to keep quiet."

"Get out!"

"Huh?"

"I said leave right now. Jin. Just leave please."

"I can't believe you knew he would leave me like that. I-i was begging you that day to tell me. He broke me jin. And you helped him. M-my whole family, my parents turned against me. Blaming me. Making it look like it was my fault. When all I did was to fall prey to something so vicious that both of you planned. "

"N-no y/n I-i didn't-"

"Why?"

Huh?

"Why did he left?"

"I don't know. Only he can tell you that. I-i asked, we all did. But he never spoke about it to anyone. He won't tell me or anyone."

"He's changed y/n. "

"He's breaking. He's in pain. Last week when he saw you, I felt like, we could have our old joon back. But I was wrong. I-i hear him cry at night. Alone. He's in so much pain y/"

"He's in pain? Then what about me? You think him crying for a few days makes him in pain? I spent two years. Two whole years, waiting for him. Crying. Begging. He- he have no right to be in pain now."

"I-i I hate him. So so much."

"Please leave jin. Please. And don't ever come back."

With that he left, not saying anything else.

He's in pain.

No, I'm in pain. I'm the one suffering. He chose this pain for himself but I didn't. I never wanted it. Then why am I suffering. I hate him. So much.

I hate him.

Ayo readers!
So why do you think namjoon ran away that day?
Was jin right to help him?
Was it something y/n did that made nj to leave her?
Tell me your views.
And thanks for reading