𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐈𝐓𝐘

HEY MINI ME

18 years ago

"we go in on three okay?" malik stated.

"one... two... three!" me and jj busted the door down, immediately shooting everybody in the front room.

"imma check upstairs." jj told me and i nodded.

i looked over and saw malik kick one of the dead bodies.

"you got blood on my nike tech bitch!" he mugged and i laughed.

"im checking the kitchen.. you know for any bombs or whatever." he told me, but i already knew his fat ass was checking the fridge.

i decided to check this weird room that seemed to call my name.

when i opened the door, i gasped seeing sekani already dead.

i screamed in pain, heartbroken that my husband was dead.

jj and malik ran towards me and gasped seeing what i saw.

once they left to give me space, i stared at his limp body in disbelief.

that was until his eyes popped open.

"help me"

I shot up from my bed, with tears running down my cheeks.

It was that same dream I had over and over again. But this time it was different, he wasn't dead.

But it had to be just a dream, because I wasn't pregnant with Atari and we were married already.

I wiped the access tears and crust from my eyes and stretched, getting out of my bed to start my day.

Lately i've been neutral, nothing too important happened.

Just me and my businesses and watching Atari glow with that lil boy she been hanging around.

She tells me that they're just best friends but I think otherwise, I know love when I see it.

After my shower and other hygiene things, I slipped on a light blue jumpsuit I got from my clothing line.

Tari was at J's house for the weekend, she told me that the girl that came over the other day, Tae, Ken, and Jae was having a sleepover.

I was heading over to my dad's house to speak with him or whatever he wanted since he called me talking about 'i need to see my daughter'.

After getting breakfast and a starbucks drink i've been obsessed with for the past week, I was finally going to Q's big ass house.

He still has money from when he sold drugs and had other places running, im guessing he got the money clean.

Knocking on the door I waited until he opened it.

"Hey mini me." He smiled, chewing on a stick of beef jerky.

I snorted and walked in, him closing the door behind me.

"Wow this is pretty clean for you." I stated looking around.

His living room was huge, not compared to mine but it was huge. It had white marble floor with a hint of gold, white furniture, white everything almost.

"Yea I gotta maid and shit. You can sit down you know." He said from his chair.

I sat down on the sectional couch he had, the awkward tension in the air was thick.

"Sooo.. how's my grandchild doing?"

"Good, ever since she met this boy she's been smiling and glowing. Her friends take part in that too." I answered.

"Why you so tense? Damn it ain't like imma shoot you and get my lick back." He laughed.

My face fell seeing that was the most funniest thing in the world he said, seemed like.

"It was never that funny."

"Loosen up Ta'mia, you acting like ya mom. All serious and moody. You used to be fun what happened?"

is he serious??

"First of all, never speak on my mother. You lost that right when you decided to beat on her and trick everybody into thinking you were dead. Second, all of that 'fun' left when Sekani died." I stated with a straight face, staring at my nails.

this reminds me to schedule a nail appointment

"I never asked you how you felt about him dying. Being that y'all was all bonnie and clyde and shit, how you feel?" He asked.

maybe we should talk about it.. i've never had the chance to actually vent

"I miss him. Everyday. He was my best friend, it feels like apart of myself is gone without him here. The first few months when Tari was born were the hardest.. I felt like I was a horrible mother, I still do. I felt like I should've been the one that died instead of him. I'm all fucked up in the head but Kani? He probably would've noticed when she started falling into depression. I'm so deep into work that I can't even recognize when my own daughter is crying out for help.. man it should've been me." I vented, tears rolling down my face.

Q got up and sat next to me, laying my head on his shoulder.

"You can't blame yourself for not seeing that Marie, stop being so hard on yourself. You're a great mother, a damn good single one too. I notice how distant you and Tari are, try being in her life more if she allows you to. I know what it feels like to miss out on my kid's lives and the next time I see them they're grown." He preached.

"You fucked that up yourself Q."

"Hey. This isn't about me, it's about you and mourning your baby daddy." He told me.

"Whatever."

"But back to what I was saying, you are a strong, independent, beautiful black woman and you deserve more happiness. Cut yourself some slack Mia, my advice to you is that you can try to be best friends with Atari. You never know what y'all crazy asses might have in common." He shrugged.

I sniffed and nodded my head, thinking about it.

i've always wanted to be my baby girl's best friend

"Now get off me, this new Versace and yo snot getting all over it." He shrugged me off before getting off checking his shoulder.

I rolled my eyes, wiping my nose with tissue that was on the coffee table.

"Well it was nice catching up with you I guess." I announced.

"Damn you leaving already?"

"Yea I got a nail appointment to attend. See ya G." I waved, walking to the front door but couldn't get far because he snatched me back.

"Have some hospitality Marie! Gone leave and not give me a hug, you niggas these days are weird." He smacked his lips hugging me.

I just chuckled and hugged him back.

it felt nice i guess

After he gave me a sprite and a breath mint because I quote on quote needed to "feel something", I was on my way to my nail appointment.

"Some wing stop would be mad good right now." I mumbled.

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