MY unfinished symphony

point of view

dream-

i keep going up to speak with tommy but i get nervous and can never do it.... i can't sleep... then i hear crying... i follow the noise to tommy's room... i should get someone else... i go to leave but the floor creaks....

"hello? *sniff* is someone there? *sniff sniff*". i sigh and walk in and shut the door behind me...  he freezes when he sees me at first but slightly relaxes after.... i walk over and sit next to him on his bed... "what's wrong..?" 

he wipes his tears... "w-why... do i miss him.... after all he did...?". at this i tense.... "i know this... i did it to u in exile.... im sorry... for everything... i should never have revived wilbur...."... he shivers and i hug him. 

"i did it, it's where the person tricks your brain, making it see you as family or friend when it is not and is actually bad for you....". tommy cries more... "i want to know....".

tommy looks up at me confused. "what?". he says tears still dripping... "tell me... your life story... i feel that even though i knew you i never took the time to know the real you..." i look away ashamed... 

tommy's story:

i was made in a lab... i can't remember much... just a white room with doctors wearing masks and needles and tubes and weird containers.... then i woke up in the woods... i heard someone singing and followed till i saw wilbur playing his guitar... i was 6 when i first met him... 

he took care of me till i turned 7 he had techno train me to fight and use weapons, and then he left with his girlfriend sally and had fundy with her, techno and phil left soon after on a adventure and left me... i found the dream smp and was starving so that's why i stole from you and george. then i had nightmares about the lab...

tubbo came, we found him in a box... but we became close friends... then wilbur came with his drug van, he gave me the discs and they helped calm me from my nightmares on the lab. but then you took them, i was made but i didn't hate you. 

Henry the cow died and then wilbur asked me to join his nation. him being a brother figure to me i couldn't say no... he trained me so much till i couldn't move... he kept telling me i was going to be a hero... 

then the war started, i didn't understand why you didn't want l'manburg to exist but overall i was blinded... i was 9, the control room eret betrayed us... my first death.. then the one on one bow fight with you i lost a life.... i couldn't bring myself to kill you...

i was trained to be loud and a fighter and never show weakness... i let everyone down, they hated me, so i gave you the disks to make them happy. then shlatt took over with quackity.... me and wilbur hid in a underground cavern, he would hurt me, yell at me, and was very toxic... 

he was going insane.... he let techno kill tubbo... i was angry and not thinking right... techno beat me almost to death in a pit... then we won and shlatt died right in front of me, i gathered everyone, then techno called me Theseus a Greek man who was a hero and had a nightmare of a life... 

wilbur blew the place i built with him, my childhood home, the place i lost two lives for and my discs for... my only home i ever had... i watched him get stabbed by philza... i never wanted to be president... and same with a hero...

i just wanted a home... a family.... a happy life... and to protect others... so i gave president ship to tubbo.... and then ranboo came, i wanted to prank george so we went and put up signs and stole things... i didn't think much of it cuz people destroy my things all the time...

it caught in fire because ranboo dropped his flint and steel.... i told him to leave and i stayed trying to put it out... i failed and went home.... then i was put on court i promised ranboo i would make sure he's safe... 

i could have pinned it on him or shared the blame but i took it all.... and tubbo, the only person i trusted... exiled me... you know exile... i knew what you were doing, i just didn't care anymore, i really wanted to die... 

then techno took me in and i felt home... but he wanted me to watch my home get destroyed all over again and made me do things i would never do... i regret betraying him every day.... i went with tubbo... because you never give up on those you love...

then techno destroyed it again i knew we wouldn't win but i couldn't let anyone get hurt or die, i push people away and be mean because anyone who i get close to betrays me or gets hurt because of me... 

me and tubbo never were the same, but then the final disk battle.... we won.. but i missed you.. and i am afraid and overall a ptsd and anxiety mess.... then i went to visit and make fun... i thought if i made fun i'd feel better, but i didn't, then i decided to visit one last time, a finale goodbye. 

i killed your cat.. because it hurt... that you could keep things you love when you took everything i loved... i was angry and got you mad and was beaten to death... in the void wilbur talked and would mock me and call me a villain...

then you revived me and life was a wreck there was no escape, if i die i have to suffer and in life i suffer, but yet i still wanted death so bad...

then wilbur came back and took me and you know the rest....

dream-

tommy said it all so casually as if it is a everyday normal thing. i hugged him and cried.. he did too until we both fell asleep.

sam-

*opens tommy's door* "hey tommy you awa-....".

i look to see dream sleeping and tommy next to him, both look so peaceful and relaxed... i close the door quietly and leave smiling..