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Aiko awoke in a start. He was sweating, small droplets running down his cheeks. He was crying a bit.. This was why he hated sleeping- he always had nightmares!! That and he could just be doing more useful things with his time. He would normally like to talk to his boyfriend at night. But as of recently, Liam hasn't been treating him all that good- Though that was normal, right? Of course it was!! It was the best relationship he had ever been in... Sure, it came with insults and slander- but he was completely fine, right? He loved Liam unconditionally. He scratched his cat, Oliver, behind the ear.
Aiko rubbed his head, his hand tearing through his brown hair, ruffling it up. He opened his laptop and pulled up the app Snapchat. Because, why not? He pulled up the user 'xlameliamx' the display name showed a name of Aiko's choosing: 'lovelyliam' it was a play off of Liam's username because Aiko didn't like his boyfriend referring to himself as 'lame.' He found it clever but Liam just found it stupid, though, now that Aiko thought about it... Maybe it was stupid? He saw that Liam had chatted him twice. Once about 45 minutes ago, the second time 8 minutes ago.
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lovelyliam:
7:09AM
hey, can i have a pic of u?
7:46AM
get off ur lazy a$$ and send me my pic!
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Aiko quickly typed a response, his username was 'LoserBoyxx' he slowly exhaled, hoping Liam wasn't mad at him. He didn't want his boyfriend and probably the only one who cared for him being angry at him!! Though, he did have anger issues so he understood. They both had anger issues, though Aiko bottled it up easier. Aiko had learned of the years to be patient with Liam, after all, he loved him, a lot.
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lovelyliam:
7:09AM
hey, can i have a pic of u?
7:46AM
get off ur lazy a$$ and give me my pic!
Me:
7:54AM
Sorry, I've been asleep for a few hours- I have bed head and I don't want to show you what I look like- Sorry!
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Aiko leaned back in his bed, taking his attention off of the computer, he wanted to get out of this, but he heard a bing! He knew that Liam had just responded- If Aiko didn't answer quickly, Liam might stop talking to him for a while, so Aiko immediately bolted up, ignoring any part of his body wanting to lie down and scanned the screen until his eyes fixated on Liam's response.
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lovelyliam:
7:55AM
Okay:
1. i always immediately respond and then u leave me for an hour waiting- not cool-
2. But looooooveee i wanna show my friends a pic of ur beautiful faceeeeeee-
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I felt sick, I hated any thought of others seeing my face, I got massive pangs of dysphoria just from looking at it myself- A boy should look like a boy- I'm pretty sure even Liam didn't think of me as a boy. I think he wants me to be a girl, I wish I could be right for him..
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Me:
7:57AM
1. You always leave me on read- don't say that-
2. You know I'm uncomfortable with your random friends seeing pictures of me-
lovelyliam:
7:57AM
okay fine but give me 1 bc i wanna see ur beautiful face?
Me:
7:59AM
Promise you won't show anyone?
lovelyliam:
7:59AM
yeah ig
Me:
8:01AM
-photo sent-
lovelyliam:
8:01AM
-screenshotted-
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Aiko closed Snapchat in rage and groaned loudly. Liam had obviously just screen shotted the photo he had sent him. He was gonna send it to all his friends and the worst part is they would never have known how much he had told him he was uncomfortable with it. Aiko wanted to break up with Liam right then and there.. Wait never mind- he was probably just being a good boyfriend and saving the photo, even if he had never done that before- maybe? Aiko didn't wanna assume he was a bad person!! They had been dating for 4 months now? Aiko lost track of time- or he didn't care enough to remember. Aiko found himself to be a terrible boyfriend- he should go apologize to Liam right now!! Then he heard a familiar yell.
Aiko's Dad: Sakura!!
It was Aiko's dead name- he wasn't out to any of his parents, yet. They never realized even with his haircut, the trans flags on his wall, and the letters addressed to Aiko. His dead name made him hate himself and spiraled him into a tunnel of self doubt and hatred. And major dysphoria.
Aiko: What?!
Aiko's yell back only seemed to agitate his father more, maybe he was in a bad mood, he called back to him, telling him that he needed to come down stairs. Aiko, being obedient, followed her orders. If he was in a bad mood, it would only get worse and worse. And Aiko did NOT want that- He walked down the stairs of the attic, the room he had turned into his permanent residence to get out of sharing a room with his annoying sister. He crossed boundaries with his sister, who was sitting outside of her room, seemingly trying to soak up all the wifi in the house from right outside her room so she could connect to the charging port- He glared at her and spit out his tongue, she did the same gesture right back at him. She was so annoying.
His dad was sitting at the dining room, it seemed he had prepared him breakfast. He didn't want to eat, he would just throw it all up later due to his aggressively evil eating disorder- But he sat down in front of the plate he had prepared and picked at it, slowly.
Aiko: What do you want?
Dad: Sakura, please walk down to the town and buy us some fresh fruit and milk, we're all out!! Also, eat your food-
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A Primrose Promise.
Romance--- Brief Preview: Aiko Tsukado is a 17 year boy of Japanese origin. He's 5'2 and he lives in the vast city of Tokyo, a small guy in a big world. One day, he stumbles across this tall boy with a big heart and a sweet soul. His name was Haru Yamatoyo...
