Falling In Love With You

Chapter -6

After freshening up and changing into his pajamas Pallavan laid down in his king sized bed. He thought after the exhausting events of the past twenty four hours ,he would sleep like  a baby the moment his head hits the pillows, but to his surprise his mind was occupied with the thoughts of his wife and that surprise paved way for annoyance and anger at himself and on Vasudha too for making him loose his emotional balance and peace of mind .
    " Damnation Pallava! Why the hell did you propose to marry her? What exactly happened to you there?. All you had to do was fucking expose that siren of woman. You should have wrenched her mask off to expose her true colors for the whole world to see. But you didn't do it , no you couldn't do it .  This isn't you . Why the hell did you waver? What is it that you were thinking....Haan Right ! You were thinking about kissing her senseless and you wanted her to  moan your name in her throes of  passion . And ... Oh ! You wanted her to abandon all  her restraints and writhe beneath you ! YOU wanted to make love to her for God's sake Pallava..!"
         The thought of making love to his wife jolted him to sit upright. The notion of connecting himself body and soul to a woman has never crossed his mind after the catastrophe that happened in his life all those years ago, and getting emotionally attached to someone had  always left him with a bitter taste in his heart ...until now. He couldn't fathom the reason for the strange calmness  that settled in the depths of his heart when he tied the knot around Vasudha's neck. So many...many thoughts , so much at stake. So much emotions involved.
       Pallavan couldn't understand the tangent of his thoughts ....after all she had done , going to  such an extent that no one knew what really hit them, his heart was yearning to hold her and to protect her from the dark world that forced her to take such a huge step.
      May be it was her  unwavered character that made him waver  and the sheer strength with which she controlled her emotions even at the most critical moment , her  whole plan getting jeopardized  in front her when he proposed marriage to her .
         " No no , keep your emotions in control Pallava...! Something... something should be done. I cannot go on with these ridiculous notions of bedding my wife and thinking about having a 'happily ever after' with her by my side for the years to come. It simply cannot happen . It's a good thing you projected the image of a guy trying to come in terms with the marriage , with your 'little' speech tonight. Now it is time for you to play the doting husband part while discerning her every move Pallava! ... I thought she would outright reject my proposal but... man! If she proceeded with the marriage ,then she must have devised a back-up plan to accomplish her elaborate scheme.  Now it would be fun to shatter all her plans and to see her break into bits and pieces. Then I'll teach her a lesson...a lesson, that would make her realise that she shouldn't have messed with someone's emotions , shouldn't have  hoodwinked the people who loved her and still loves her ..."
 

   With this resolve Pallavan went back to sleep .