Basketball player ● cakeツ

✦ eight ✦

[hemmings]

Last night was amazing, actually, not really to be honest. Calum was drunk, fell asleep on top of me while mumbling about his childhood.

It felt wrong, to be holding a boy and letting him fall asleep in my arms, but I couldn't bring myself to say no. I can't speak to Calum the way I speak to other people and it irks me because now I'm questioning if I'm gay or not, I'm pretty sure I'm not.

Maybe I need to bang another girl to get my mind in the right place.

"Morning." I heard a small raspy voice speak, I looked over to see Calum's eyes open with a small smile playing on his lips. He looked so adorable, why do I always think this way?

The day when I whispered basorexia still runs through my mind over and over again and I can't get it out of my mind, I always have basorexia around Calum and it bugs me.

"I should go home now." I told the hungover tan boy as I slowly got up, my joints cracking into place. "Why..?" He huffed while sitting up, "Ow, my fucking head." He sighed while rubbing his head.

Poor Calum, I should get him some aspirin. No, I need to leave to get things straight.

"I'll see you later." I mumbled under my breath as I grabbed my things. He looked sad, and mostly hung over but still adorable.

"Okay, what did I do last night? I didn't really want to ask you, don't remember." He stuttered somewhere between those lines, and I just felt bad.

I didn't want to tell him, we had a good friendship going on, and maybe I don't want it going any further. Because now I'm questioning if I'm gay or not and it's driving me insane.

"Bye Calum." I sighed before leaving his house.

[hood]

Why did Luke leave? I think I did something wrong and now I've been acting like a girl on her period. I ordered myself a large pizza, hoping I wouldn't have to share until Michael came by.

"Hey Cal, Ooh, Pizza!" He yelled while sitting next to me and taking a piece of pizza. I scoffed while biting into my pizza, "So, how was last night?" He wiggled his eyebrows.

What? "What the fuck do you mean?" I giggled a bit, I had no idea what he was talking about. "You and Luke, you left together." He confirmed, wow, really? I don't remember a thing to be honest. "I don't remember." I laughed a bit before watching the movie.

"I need to tell you something." Michael sighed, putting his pizza on the card board box. I furrowed my eyebrows and looked at him, "Shoot." I smiled. "I've l-" before he could speak any longer Ashton busted into my room, scaring me horrendously.

"What the fuck Ashton!" I yelled, swatting his arm. "I'm funny." He grabbed a piece of pizza. What the fuck is with everyone touching my food?

I looked over at Michael, he was fumbling with his fingers looking like he was thinking real hard. It bugged me. Then I looked at Ashton, he had a huge smile plastered on his face.

He's so adorable, and I mean that as friends because Ashton is literately my inspiration. He just enjoys life. Okay, shut up Calum your being dramatic.

"Luke is — uhm, having another party." I heard Ashton say and smirking as he looked at his phone screen. I rolled my eyes, the last thing I want to hear was his name. "Cool." Was all I said, I didn't want to go to his fucking party. That'd suck.

I'd probably have an awkward conversation, he'd blow me off, not that way oh my god my mind is in the gutter. I mean, he'd tell me off and walk away. I'd probably end up spilling a drink on him — this time on purpose and I would act all sassy.

"We should go." Ashton said bluntly, seriously? "By we you mean, you." I rolled my eyes, eating another piece of pizza. "Oh cmon Calum you've probably been locked in your room all day watching Netflix." He laughed, scoffing.

"I came out of my room!" I retorted. "When?" He raised his brow and crossed his arms. "To pay the pizza. Duh." Ashton looked like he tried to hold in his laugh and it made me want to punch him in the face.

"We are going to that party, get up." He slapped the back of my head and I quickly grabbed his finger, bending it.

No reaction, fucking hulk!

"I don't know if that's a good idea." Michael huffed, while playing with the hem on his shirt. "Exactly." I told ashton, sassy like.

"We are going." He physically grabbed me. I finally gave in after an hour of arguing and ended up at Luke's house, not wanting to enter it.

People were outside and music was blasting through the speakers, I honestly wanted to be honest. Ashton left to get drinks and I don't know where the hell Michael went.

"Here." I heard Ashton mumble, handing me a drink. I don't plan to get drunk to night, just have a couple. My head still hurts from the other party. I'm such a light weight.

I took the drank and chugged it down then sat on the crowded couch, looking around for familiar people. Then that's when my eyes landed on the blue eyed fuck boy, Luke Hemmings himself.

I wanted to leave, I just felt a sting in my eye. Why was I getting upset? He was with a girl, she was blonde and almost had clothes on. She was all over him and I can see, I could just see how miserable he is.

I looked away, then quickly glanced back again. They were heading up the stairs, and I couldn't feel my fucking face for some odd reason. I wanted to punch that slut in the face and I wanted Luke to myself.

I need to piss.

"I'm going to the bathroom," I told Ashton as I went up the stairs, I opened the bathroom door and my mouth dropped at the sight, I'm dumb as fuck. I should have never came up here, I should have never came to this party. I couldn't take my eyes off the pair.

Luke and that slut were all over each other. Kissing each other's necks, feeling each other I honestly can't stand Luke. They didn't notice me before I left.

I was so relieved. I didn't tell Ashton I left, I'm so glad I'm going home and away from this jerks house. I opened my door and went upstairs, stumbling a bit from the stinging in my eyes. I laid in my comfy bed and sighed softly to myself before a tear prickled. Why was I crying?

Because of Luke fucking Hemmings.

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✧ hi losers and friends hru, I update a lot im soz but ok I will tell you that Cake didn't bang, they fell asleep in each other's arms which I thought was cute so stfu don't judge me also Calum and Mikey... OoH!!!! jk no malum lmao only Malum fluff actually no MALUM fluff!! More cake fluff and arguement and kissing will come idk ok

Can someone go on a laptop and do the character thingy for me, just message me that'd be gr8 and you'd get a dedication

ok idk this story isn't popular but still it may become one day and I have dreams so stfu ily guys bye

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