Starstruck Again

Kriya

I feel like there is a huge lump in my throat, a big one that too. I stare at the screen, waiting for the ad break to get over so I can hear what Mr Raging reporter has to say about Mr Cheater. The fact that he was being aired on prime time news was more than enough reason to guess that he fucked up big time.

I shouldn't be bothered about any of this. I have moved on and I've got nothing to do with him anymore, or so I believe. The ad break isn't over yet.

Kriya, walk away. You don't have to put yourself through this.

The self- convincing didn't work as the two minute time slot was over and here I am, waiting for my ex to be trashed at on the national television. I say trashed because the anchor looks outraged and absolutely ready to stain his public image. I have no idea what happened. I have blocked all possible notifications about him and cricket from my life. Let's get real, moving on was a tough job. Even the slightest mention of his name would bring me tears, perfectly capable of filling a swimming pool. Not like it doesn't bother me know but at least the urge to shed tears is completely under control.

"Remember the young seventeen-year-old bringing laurels to his IPL team? Remember the nineteen-year-old who played his first ODI and scored an unbeaten half-century?" the reporter is literally hollering.

Yes, I remember. What now?

He wasn't looking for an answer. It was a rhetorical question. He goes on, "Looks like the glorious career of Varun Malhotra has come to an end. After constantly performing poorly in the last few matches, it is highly doubtful that he will end up paying for India in the future. Is he the right choice? What guarantee can the management give that he will not embarrass our country on the international platform?"

Sorry but I am pretty sure this man right here doesn't even know how to play cricket properly. He is the kind of douchebag who used to play cricket with his  "bois" in the gully and considers himself perfectly capable to be able to open for India.

Wait, what? In a span of two months, so much happened and I had no clue? Literally from India's cricketing future, suddenly he deserves to be thrown out of the team? Media can really be ruthless and such instances are enough to establish that cricket is more than just a sport people in this country loves; it is an emotion and a religion for some. The outburst of anchor has made it quite evident if not anything else.

After the stupid rant, all the viewers (at least the ones in the room) seemed convinced because they were nodding their heads and agreeing to him all this time. A clip of a press conference plays and this time, I see him; Varun sitting with his coach and waiting to answer all the questions. The audio of the TV is merely a muffled sound as I can't seem to get my eyes off him. He looks different; no he looks pathetic. I have never ever seen Varun like this; not when I had a crush on him, not when I worked for him and not when I dated him. The disorientation on his perfectly sculpted face is so obvious, even a ten year old could tell that he needs a break. What the hell is going on?

I don't know why do I care 'cause this is none of my business but I do. It is odd how a part of me wants to cheer for him no matter what; just a tini-tiny part, that's it. Yeah, just when I thought I and my fragile little heart healed and were over him, that's exactly when I hear people talking shit about him and beat them up. Ridiculous is an understatement. I need to contact my uncertified 'how-to-move-on' instructor, Disha as soon as possible. This is not going to happen at all; I shouldn't even have a trace of affection for him and that's how it is supposed to be, I guess.

Before the discomfort in me reaches its brink, I take off in almost a jog and get the hell out of there. It's is getting really, really complicated in here and I need to something about this; no part of me should care if Varun is playing for the team or getting sacked tomorrow. Nothing, nada.

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A/N: Heyaa. I hope you are safe and doing well. On a serious note, I need to stop acting like I get a lot of read. Honestly it is nothing more than 1 or 2 views lol. Thanks for reading and voting. Ok bye:))