edge ; knj

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one

this was supposed to be the best week of my entire life, but then everything went dreadfully wrong. truthfully, things had gone dreadfully wrong way before those incidents happened, but i never noticed.

"are you sure you're sick? do you not want to dance with me? are you really so sick you can't dance?" yerin asked, probably for the fiftieth time.

"i feel like throwing up the food we just ate," i said in a calm voice, but still loud enough so she could hear me over the music.

it was sunday night, the day before our last week of school, and the student council opted we throw a party similar to prom. except for, this time around, us students were encouraged to wear something that represented ourselves throughout our years at hugok high school. the kids who played sports wore their jerseys. i wasn't sure how to dress. i thought about wearing a shirt with a SNU (seoul national university) logo on it because i had basically focused so hard in order to get accepted into the school. in the end, yerin insisted we dress as prom kind and queen (which we were). yerin was my girlfriend. she had long, straight brown hair, with pretty brown eyes to match. yerin was one of the prettiest girls at school. if not, the prettiest. everybody loved her.

"you can probably still dance. come on, namjoon!" she said, grabbing onto my hand. my stomach lurched. she leaned up against me. her perfume was making my stomach worse. i felt like i was suffocating. and it wasn't just in this moment. i'd actually felt that way for two years, two months, and five days (the amount of time since i started dating yerin).

taeran appeared out of nowhere, and handed me a cold can of soda. my best friend tae ran, he was always there for me. unfortunately, his girlfriend, kisun, was at his side. i nodded a thanks to him, as yerin continued to pet my hand.

"just go find someone else to dance with if this jerk doesn't want to dance with you," kisun said, tapping yerin on the shoulder. kisun and yerin were best friends. kisun would always side with yerin.

"come on, namjoon! i really like this song they're playing." yerin began to whine again, "come on, namjoon, you like this song too."

"stop wasting your time," kisun said to yerin quietly before she dragged taeran with her to the dance floor.

just then im jiwon strode over to the table we were sitting at and said, "hey yerin, if you need someone to dance with, you know i'm here."

im jiwon had been my competitor in everything since forever. i don't remember why we hate each other or since when, but we've always just hated each other. one benefit of dating yerin was knowing that she was jiwon's ideal type.

"actually, i would love to dance with you right now," yerin said, glancing over at me quickly, before turning back to jiwon. "namjoon's ruining my night by being a party pooper."

"namjoon, do you mind?" jiwon asked pompously as he gave his hand to yerin. he didn't wait for me to answer his question.

as i watched the various couples on the dance floor, i and tried my hardest not to barf. it was especially difficult when i looked over at yerin and jiwon.

suddenly, i felt a tap on my shoulder. i turned around and it was haeun, a girl in my class. i wondered what she could possibly need from me at this moment.

"you alone?" she asked, smiling. was she smiling? it seemed like more of a smirk to me.

i thought about my answer. yes, i was alone, but no, i had a date. "yeah, i'm alone for now," i replied.

"why?" she had already sat down next to me. she leaned forward, exposing her chest. i tried to look away. it was getting harder to breathe in here. i once again felt suffocated. "where's yerin," she looked around, then back at me.

"she's dancing with jiwon." i shrugged.then, haeun leaned even closer towards me, touching my face.

"well, if you want to have some fun," she said, "i'm here. we can leave, do whatever you want." she brought her face closer to mine. she was about to kiss me, just until someone gasped.

it was yerin.

haeun quickly pulled herself away from me. she stood up, faced me, and bit her lip before running away.

yerin was still standing there with her mouth wide open. tears were already pooling in here eyes. "you don't love me!" she cried.

i saw taeran and kisun run up behind yerin.

"yerin. . " i started to say, "don't you want to hear what i have to say first? it's not what it looks like."

"haeun was about to kiss you and you were letting her!"

was i going to let her kiss me? i wasn't sure.

"so you're gonna break up with me over that one incident? two years, two months and five days down the drain?"

"well, i guess you never really loved me." she said, shaking her head and looking down.

the conversation was making me even more nauseated than i already was. "how can you say that?" i said quietly.

"it's over then." yerin said, sounding small.

"wow, thank god for that," i answered. the topic was stupid. the conversation was stupid.

yerin gasped. "thank god?" she shrieked, "thank god our relationship is over?"

"wha. . . .? no, i thought your were talking about the argument we just ha-"

"doesn't matter anymore, namjoon, you've ruined this night, and my entire life!" she shouted as she threw her arms in the air. "kim namjoon, you are heartless."

"i wouldn't do this to you," jiwon said, standing next to taeran. i couldn't hold it down anymore. i barfed.

"NAMJOON!!!" yerin screeched.

"gotta blast!" jiwon said, briskly retreating

.it probably wasn't the greatest time to throw up, but then again, when is there a good time to do that?

taeran was trying not to laugh. yerin just stood there with a petrified look on her face. "i'm sorry," i told her. "i'll pay for it, i'll pay for your dress."

despite the fact that i had made a big mess, i felt so much better.

yerin started to scream. "i hate you, kim namjoon!"

kisun escorted yerin to the bathroom and a couple other girls went with them.

gossip spreads like wildfire in high school. probably even quicker. "namjoon was so drunk he puked," i heard a couple people saying.

"what the hell just happened?" i groaned. "what kind of nightmare is this?"

"i don't know, man," taeran said, slapping my shoulder, "you should've just apologized."

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author's note: HI MY LOVES I AM BACK WITH A NEW STORY!!!!!!!! AND ITS WITH MY BIAS, NAMJOON THIS TIME OMG THIS IS MY FIRST TIME EVER TO WRITE ABOUT NAMJOON SO I AM EXCITED AF ! omg, some of you guys were here when i was still jimin biased, can you all believe? anyways, i am so so excited for this story, i have the plot well thought through and i am genuinely excited for this baby (shout out becca, thanks for helping out boo) anyways, i hope you guys are excited as i am! i love you!!! - ash  

p.s. @ the gotta blast part, omg i don't know about you, but i I laughed so hard i just had to add that in here lmao