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yerin wouldn't leave my thoughts and i couldn't fall asleep. i felt so guilty. i wasn't guilty over the fact that I hadn't apologized to yerin or that I had broken up with her, but rather, I felt guilty because I didn't feel guilty.
truth is, I had wanted to break up with yerin. after you look past her looks, there wasn't anything much. and plus, a lo distance relationship seemed like a disaster. I would be going to SNU and yerin was leaving to go study fashion abroad.
it was pretty late, but there was a knock on my door. it was mom. "I saw your light was still on," she said. She sat in the edge of my bed. "Oh, i just wanted to remind you to tell yerin's parents they're invited to your graduation party too."
I nodded. There was no way in hell I could tell her what happened between me and yerin. She loved yerin. Mom stayed at me in that "mom" say. "Namjoon, you're about to graduate, and soon you'll be leaving for SNU, it's so hard to believe. Do well and be careful, okay?"
"I will," I promised her. She kissed my forehead and got up to leave.
It was past midnight. I played some music quietly and took out a pencil and my notebook. Poems? Lyrics? I wasn't sure what to call them, but I enjoyed writing. I thought about college. No matter how prepared I was academically, I physically and mentally was not. I was scared. I knew college was going to be the biggest part of my life after high school, but I just didn't see myself inside a college.
taeran . . i was definitely going to miss him. he and kisun were going to the same university together. now that yerin was out of my life, I was thinking I could get taeran to cut things with kisun, so that the two of us could hang out.
without yerin, I could have so much more free time this summer. without yerin, I could do whatever- even date other girls. without yerin, i was free.
Yes, summer without yerin was going to be a great thing, I had finally concluded.
the more I thought about it, the better my world looked. I was certain I was heading into the best week of my life.
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edge ; knj
Fanfictionin which an unfortunate, fortunate girl and a not-so-lonely lonely boy make the acquaintance of each other at an old laundromat. a friendship that started with cigarettes, a chocolate bar, and some secrets, how far could their curiosities take them?
