Fluid

Chapter 3

The Field
The same day

Krys drove me to her house, we talked about everything and I met her parents.

"I wanted to ask you something at the field." Krys seemed really nervous. I knew what she was going to ask. Krys grabbed a blanket and we walked to the field.

"So I wanted to tell you that I'm gender fluid and pansexual. And my only best friend called me an abomination and threatened to tell the gang. That's why I don't think we should talk to each other. I'm sorry." My eyes started to water.

"I am female to male. But I usually tell people I am a lesbian because they assume I am a female. And we should keep talking to each other. Do you really want to be controlled by fear? One day people like us won't be afraid to be who they are, the problem is that that today isn't that day." She pulled me into a hug and wiped my tear with the back of her hand.

"I don't want you to get hurt. I have seen what they do and they get away with it. I feel so safe with you. I have never felt anything like that with anyone else before. I don't want to live in fear, but this is the world we live in. We can't change it."

"But we can see each other in secret. I think I have fallen for you Jamie. It sounds like you have fallen for me too." She grabbed my hand and laughed.

"I think I have. I also think we are going to fast and not using enough caution."

"I think that you think too much, Jamie." She looked at me with soft eyes.

"I think you are right," I giggled. I was trying to push all scary thoughts out of my head. I line from my favorite play played over and over in my head, These violent delights have violent ends.

"There you go, thinking again" Krys chuckled.

"Is this far enough into the field?" I didn't notice how far into the field we were. The tall golden-brown grass was up to my calf.

"Right here, where the trail ends." Krys put the blanket down and invited me to sit. We faced the sun. The sun was an palette of hues. Yellow and white light peeking through the clouds. The yellow orb that is the sun was surrounded by oranges, blues, purples, pinks, and spotted with white, fluffy clouds.

"The sky is beautiful today isn't it?"

"Nothing compared to your eyes." Krys sat back and I did the same. She put her hand on top of mine.

"My eyes are brown." I looked at her unimpressed.

"They look a beautiful hazel to me. You know you are amazing."

"You don't have a way with words do you?" I turned my head to look at her.

"I am trying. Please excuse me for not bringing a copy of Romeo and Juliet or a thesaurus. So about what I was going to ask you..." Krys' voice trailed out as she spoke.

"Go on, ask."

"Will you go out with me? I know we just met, but just feel like I have known you forever."

"Yes. Doing nothing with you makes me feel completely happy. But we have to show affection only in private. We should meet here when ever we can." Krys guided me into a kiss. Our lips embraced and I tried to remember every detail. Krys' skin felt smooth and her arms muscular.

"See you at SAGE, right?" I was disappointed Krys broke the kiss. I turned on my phone and saw it was 5:30.

"Yeah. I will text you later. Will you take me home?" I asked, almost ready to pinch myself to check it want all just a dream.

"Oh course, my lady." Krys tried to sound like a British butler. We got to her house and I got in my car and left.

I almost wanted to count every heart beat that I pumped with out her next to me, so next time I see her I can make sure we get that many back. Because every heart beat, breath, and moment not spent with her, felt like it was wasted. As long as I have a significant other and one parent that loves and supports me, I think I will be fine.

From this point on I will be only writing important parts, I will write in the beginning of each chapter how much time has passed.