Louis's Sister

We all feel pain

I drive and drive for 40 minutes. With no communication , so they don't track me.

I just need to be alone, until I am perfect. I arrive at the semi big voyage house north of London.

Louis bought it for our family when we wanted to get away.

I get out with my bag and walk to the front door. I get the key from under the matt.

I opened and it looks how it did in the fall last year.

All big and cosy and cold. I drop my stuff and go to my room and cry.

They all hate me , they lied to me , they think I'm so fat and I can't take this.

My best friend hates me, my boyfriend hates me my brother everyone.

I cry until my heart hurts.

I get up and think about how life sucks. It gets worse.

I still haven't recovered from my parents dying and now all this... I can't .

I don't know what's happening to me psychology all I know is I'm not my self.

I'm tired of life. Being judged. Being too fat.Famous brother. Boyfriend.

Life is suppose to be great and a adventure, I don't like mine. I go get change in workout clothes.

I step on the scale. I'm 70 pounds ugh so fat I need 60.

I'm 21 and 60 pounds sounds amazing.

Niall will like me better and I can work on modeling.

I get in shorts and in Niall's hoddie. And my Nikes on.

I go to the basement and start doing 15 miles on the bike which isn't hard.

I start to sweat a lot and I can't drink much water. Then after that I run.

I decided to run 13 miles until my body is hurt. I begin to start and I feel great.

I feel like I'm getting less fat. I run and I feel dizzy but I can't let that me now workout hard.

As I run my eyes begin to close and I see blurry.

Then I fall on the metal part. I feel blood on my hands.

I black out.

Niall POV

"Guys we need to find her now" Louis says.

"Where is her favorite place to go to" Zayn asks.

"Brasil, but I don't think she would go to a place where people would see her" Louis says.

"She would go somewhere where no one really recognizes her" I say.

"let's drive to the airport and look for her in Paris, she talks about escaping to there" Louis says.

"Okay let's go" we all say. Eleanor,Tara and Olivia stay at home.

(Remember this book takes place in 2014 so Louis and Eleanor are still together :) )

As we drive we talk "why would she do this to her self" Zayn asks.

"Well in psychology class we learned how the brain can trick the person" says Liam.

"What do you mean" Zayn asks.

"Well the brain makes the person seem heavy and fat and when they look in the mirror they see fat not hoe skinny they are"

"Also different chemical fluids go around, she thought she was fat and depressed and couldn't tell anyone" Liam says.

"Wow, smartass" says Louis. As we drive I begin to think about what I will say to her.