Dangerous Affection | ONHOLD

Chapter 22

I tried knocking the floor at hindi nga ako nagkamali. There is a way under here. Iniangat ko ito bago ipasok ang sarili. As I slid down, hindi ko inasahan na isa pala itong passage way palabas. Palabas ng bahay.

I popped out at the back of the building. I found a vehicle waiting outside so I assumed that it was the one I was looking for.. Kinakabahan ako aminin ko man o hindi. Kung sino man ang nasa loob nito ay maari kong ikasakit o maari kong ikasaya. But I have been handling pain for so many years  I'm sure I could take it.

Marahan akong kumatok sa bintana, and when I heared a click saying it was already open. I gulped and heaved a sigh before opening it. With closed eyes I slipped myself in the car. Sinubukan kong pakiramdaman ang kasama ko dito ngunit mas pinangunahan ako ng kaba.

"Open your eyes love and look at me" my eyes instantly opened as I heard that voice. That very familiar voice. I scanned the person in front of me, maaring pinaglalaruan nanaman ako ng isip ko, dahil nakikita ko si Nadine ngayon sa harapan ko.

I tried cupping her face but my hands does not have the strength to be disappointed again. Halos manlaki ang mga mata ko nang siya na mismo ang maglapit ng kamay ko sa mukha niya.

I'm not dreaming right? Please tell me I'm not dreaming! And if I am please just don't wake me up! Damn it! The woman of my life is before my eyes!

"Totoo ka diba? You're not fragments of my brain? Please love tell me you're real" A tear scaped her eyes but I wiped it immediately

"I'm sorry if it took me this long to see you aso." she said as she cupped my face and kissed ny tears. I closed my eyes to savor the moment but I opened them immediately, afraid that maybe when I close my eyes for a second she will be gone AGAIN.

"I missed you so damn much amazona. Please don't leave me again"

"I - I can't"

"What do you mean you can't?!"

"Hindi pa ligtas James, and I advice you to keep this between us. I want you and everyone else to stop searching for me Please"

"Ano bang sinasabi mo?! You're basically telling us to forget about you!"

"Dahil iyon naman talaga ang dapat! Ang alam ng lahat patay na ako and I want it to keep it that way!"

"Hindi kaba naawa sakin?! Samin?! Sa mga magulang mo?! Sa kakambal mo?! Sa anak natin Nadine!! Bakit mo ba ginagawa toh?! We're doing our best to bring everything back pero bakit parang kabaliktaran non ang nais mo?"

"It's complicated James, and I don't want to loose anyone from you—"

"Kaya isasakripisyo mo nanaman ang sarili mo?! You don't know how much it hurt me knowing that you saved me back then but that also caused me your lives! Ang sakit! Sobrang sakit na halos patayin ko nadin yung sarili ko! Tapos ngayon gusto mo kalimutan ka nalang namin?! Ginagago mo ba ako?! " I busted out angrily, ngunit mabilis iyong nawala nang makita kong tumulo ang mga luha niya

" Nahihirapan din naman ako. Unlike you, you have everyone here to support you. Pero ako James ako lang mag-isa! Sa tingin mo ba madali din sakin na iwan kayo?! Na hayaan na makuha ng masasamang loob ang anak natin?! Ang magtago sa dilim at subaybayan lang kayong lahat?! Ang makita kayong nasasaktan padin?! Ilang beses ko nang ginustong  bumalik! Pero hindi pwede eh. Hindi pa pwede"

"But we can do this kung magkasama tayo. Come back to me, to us. Sama-sama nating lulutasin ang gulong ito. Just please come back" halos mag makaawa kong sabi pero isang iling lamang ang isinukli nito. Mariin akong pumikit bago hawakn ang kamay nito.

"Just—Just please tell me where you're staying. Para alam ko kung ligtas ka ba o hindi"

"You— You don't have to know. I'm safe. I'm perfectly safe aso. Don't worry"