Something About You

39 : Be Honest

I woke up to nobody next to me. Again.

Everything she had done lately confused me. Just last night, I was about to break down because she wasn't home at the hour she should be, but also, when I was about to sleep, she brought me to her warm embrace, making me feel wanted again.

I stared blankly at the ceiling, letting the time to pass while my mind was critically thinking of the possibilities of Rosé cheating on me. Maybe she did that because she felt guilty but this morning she no longer felt that way, so she left me alone and went to the co...

"I made breakfast!"

I flinched when I heard Rosé's voice entering the room. She was walking carefully with a tray in her hand and on top of it, I could only see something red and a cup. Most likely to be a cup of coffee. I got up from my back to peek what she brought.

She put the tray on the table before she sat on the bed next to me. It was awkward for me to look at her in the eyes as I had seen her twice yesterday without her knowing it, and they were unfavorable moments for me.

"I came home late last night and you were already asleep. I feel bad as I already told you I would bring some food home. You didn't have dinner yesterday, did you?"

"I did. And it's fine. Why didn't you answer my call, anyway?"

"I'm still sorry. You called? I didn't notice it." she didn't seem like she was trying to hide anything.

"I called more than once, Rosé." I tested her.

She was still calm. Her hands reached for my arms and her thumbs rubbed against my skin before she took a sharp deep breath, only to exhale it softly. I froze my body as I was not sure if she was going to be mad or something else.

"I'm sorry. Can we make up?" she asked.

"I'm not mad, Rosé."

"Why can't you look me in the eyes?"

"Why were you so busy yesterday?"

Her lips shut tight when I threw the question.

Fuck.

I was never that brave to argue with her but what happened yesterday really messed up my mind. I just couldn't let myself assume it was nothing when she's behaving like this.

I was confused. It bothered me so much that I couldn't stop myself from thinking what I lacked and where did I go wrong.

"What are you saying, Sunyoung?"

I shook my head as I thought I was just being too dramatic. She could've left me again early in the morning if she was actually cheating. But, I should be grateful that she decided to stay and prepare the breakfast.

"Nevermind. I'm just wondering why." and if she wanted to tell me about it, she would.

She sighed before her lips upturned into a half-hearted smile. Her hands roamed slowly roamed my neck before her she held my cheeks and leaned in to place a soft kiss on my lips. I froze for a moment but eventually kissed her back.

"I will be quite busy from now on because of the comeback. I'm sorry if you feel like I've been ignoring you. I'll try to make some time with you when I'm free again, okay?"

She didn't bring anything up about meeting Nahee and I'm not sure if it was truly unimportant or she was trying to hide it. But I should stop overthinking about it. I need to trust her.

I nodded before I rested my head over her shoulder. I felt so anxious for no reason and it was not good for us. She seemed to understand how I felt, gently caressing my back to ease my worries.

How could I think someone as her cheated? She literally pampered me the best she could. She had always cared a lot and likely to give all of her without me asking for it.

"Rosé, let's have breakfast."

"Mhm, alright. Which one?"

I was too late to notice her hands were already underneath my shirt, trailing underneath my chest.

We're back to this again.

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"Stop! It tickles." I quickly distanced myself from Rosé, moving to another end of the couch when she started to scratch my sole with her nails.

"That's your tickle spot? I have none." she lay on her back and chuckled when she saw my panicked face.

I scrunched my nose, doubting what she just said. I came closer to her and tried to tickle her neck but she just looked at me, smirking confidently it did not tickle her at all.

"Come on, you're holding back your laugh, aren't you?"

She shook her head but her eyes were looking somewehere else. I followed her gaze, which lead to my exposed cleavage as the oversized shirt I wore hanged down. I got up from my crawling position and mocked a disgusted face. "Ew, what were you looking at?"

"Don't be mad, you showed it yourself." she laughed before she got up too and took her phone on the table.

I noticed she was typing something and smiled to herself. I wondered who it was and once again, I was hit by the thoughts of her being with Nahee.

I was not sure why my insecurities peaked when it came to Nahee. I had only met her for a few times and she was undeniable pretty, maybe prettier than me and older than me. I sighed at the thoughts I've been competing with unnies all this time.

It remained as a mystery why Rosé met her twice yesterday and how Rosé didn't bring it up even Rosé was aware that I knew Nahee too.

She shifted closer to me with her phone in hand. "Sunyoung,"

"Yes?"

She scooted closer, wrapping me with her arms and it looked like she wanted me to see her phone. "You're aware of my group's comeback, right?"

"Mhm.. what about it?"

"I feel sorry to tell you this. I'll have to leave again for a couple days. To LA. I know you feel so distanced from me these days." she showed me her schedule sent by her manager.

"Really? For how long?"

"I'm not sure. But as soon as the work is done, let's spend time together, alright? I really wanna apologize for being so busy lately."

"You don't have to apologize. As long as you're not keeping any secret and being honest with me, there's nothing wrong with it." I took the risk by highlighting the words secret and honest, just in case she finally decided to tell me what she was doing behind me.

She was good enough to keep a straight face when she heard that sentence coming out from my mouth. She acted as if it had no hidden meaning, smiled, which actually melted my curiousness and doubts away.