Scarred ✔

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"You don't want to do this," I said slowly, in the most loving voice that I could muster, raising my arms.

I stared in horror at the glinting knife in her hands and her raised arm. My heart ached in pain to see her tear-soaked face with so much hurt in them, her entire body shaking like crazy.

She didn't say anything on my comment, just stared at the knife in her hand with a scary expression.

"But I want to," she said in a voice so calm, that it terrified me.

"No," I said firmly, shaking my head and taking a step towards her. "You don't."

"Why shouldn't I?" she whispered, her grip on the knife visibly tightening. "Why? It's so easy to end all the pain. All the suffering."

"You won't do it," I said, my voice cracking and a knot tightened in my stomach. "You won't. For me. Don't do it. I want you. I need you."

I knew she wanted to hear this. She wanted to feel loved.

I needed to show her love.

"I love you," I whispered, ignoring the hammering of my heart as I prayed for her to drop the knife in her hand.

"That's not enough," she said in a low voice, and it pained me to see the slashes on her arms.

It pained me so much that it felt like a stab in my heart.

"I love you, baby," I whispered gently, taking another slow step towards her, and then her expression changed.

My pulse quickened as I saw the knife slip through her trembling fingers and landed on the ground with a loud noise. In a flash, I was beside her, my girlfriend, as her knees gave away, and caught her in my arms, preventing her from falling on the ground.

A sob escaped her mouth as she clutched onto me and fisted my t-shirt tightly, her hands still trembling.

I felt lightheaded as she almost passed out in my arms, eyes rolling to the back of her head.

Just before she could faint, I barely heard her whisper softly, in a broken voice. "Please, don't leave me."

I gulped, stroking her hair, and felt my heart clench with pity and sadness. "I won't."

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