Today I've realized, i can't pretend being someone I'm not or liking things i hate just for the sake of seeing you smile. I'm sorry to say, children are not something I expect, and marriage it's not a thing I pray. I know you want those things one day, so perhaps, we're not going anywhere.
I'm thankful for you, for showing me how much i should live and love, especially myself, but i can't keep being someone I'm not or liking other things any more. I don't crave a life away from the city or the comfort of domesticity.
I've been a fool, dreaming of you. Thinking we have a future, not realizing how different those futures might look for you and me.
I'm sorry to say, i don't see myself raising children or walking down the aisle, things i know you really long for, so with my heart shrinking in my chest, i have to say i hope you'll do really well with whoever catches your heart and knows to treasure it as well... With tears streaming down my face, as I sit here i say i really hope you'll be always happy and fulfilled.
All my best wishes would always go to you, and i hope you'll be able to make your dreams come true, even if that means I'm out of your life, even if it means I'll cry every night. I'm well aware, there might be someone out there as well for me, but right now, i don't think I can allow myself to feel again.
- D
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Broken thoughts of a lonely heart
PoesíaThis is a word dump, just a way for me to drain my feelings and not drown in them. To whoever this is, really hope you never come across this... Still love you, you're the love of my life and it's a shame i just realize that ... don't know how many...
