ʟᴏꜱᴛ ʟᴏᴠᴇ

34.

Ariya

"Mhm." I mumbled while rolling onto my side. I felt an arm, Rylan probably snuck in again.

With my eyes still closed I ran my hand over Rylan's head.

That's not Rylan's hair.

I opened my eyes to see a sleeping Khyson.

"Fuck!" I crawled back as my Back hit the backboard and I slapped a hand over my mouth at my dirty language. I could feel the tears arising in my eyes as he shrugged his eyes open upon seeing me.

"Oh my god. Oh my god!" I breathed.

"Ariya, Ariya look at me."

"Oh my god, this was a mistake, a terrible mistake, oh gosh, William, I-" I repeatedly slapped my chest in hopes to calm the hitch in my throat.

"Ariya-"

"I screwed up, I screwed up, Khyson." I rambled before staring down at my exposed chest before grabbing the sheet and standing up. I wrapped myself up before seeing his exposed body.

"Get your clothes on!" I yelled.

"Fuck, okay, okay." He scrambled up while trying to locate all of his articles.

"I screwed up, this is not okay, god what happened to me?" I groaned.

"You need to leave before William comes back with, Rylan!" I whisper yelled.

"Why are you whispering!?" He whispered yelled.

"I don't know!? Okay!?" I whispered.

"God, you couldn't have been any rougher!?" I looked at myself in my full body mirror. The splay of hickey around my body plus the small bruise on my hips.

"I got carried away, okay!"

"I can't do this, oh my god." I could feel my chest restricting as I turned around a rested my head onto the wall.

This wasn't supposed to happen.

I wasn't supposed to let him make me weak.

"Ariya, it's okay." I felt his hand on my bare shoulder.

"No! I'm sorry." I sighed.

"Please just leave, Khyson. Please." I begged. He stared at me in the eyes with his feet planted to the hard wood.

"Ariya, this-"

"This means nothing, okay. It will never happen again." I demanded with scared expression on my face.

"Look me in the eyes and tell me it meant nothing."

I stared him in the eyes and bit my lip, running my tongue over the cut I had bitten last night.

"This meant nothing, I'm happy.. you're happy. I'm in a loving relationship. I appreciate your present to Rylan, and what you did for me last night, but that was it, this is it, you need to leave now, im sorry." My voice cracked at those two last words as I wiped the one tear that cascaded down my cheek.