Bella/POV
My hands are still shaking and I can't stop crying while I'm reading our agreement with my mommy again. Why is life seems to be this so unfair? Bakit sa dinami-dami ng pwedeng malasin sa mundo ako pa? I'm just a daughter here, who's wanting a genuine love from my mom.
Pero parang kahit ata sa panaginip ko hindi niya ako matatanggap. Bata pa lamang ako ang trato na ni mommy sa'kin ay parang basura. Pinapalo niya ako kapag may mga utos siyang hindi ko nagagawa o ginagawa agad. Minsan pinipigilan din siya ni Manang Fe, isa sa mga pinag kakatiwalaan na katulong ni mommy, at tinuturing na pangalawang nanay niya, ang tanging taong kahit paano may malasakit din sa akin, but mommy keep always saying na she's doing all those to me as a discipline lang naman daw, pero alam niyo ba? bilang na bilang na ang mga pasa ko sa katawan ko.
And to be honest? I am just nothing into this house. Wala naman kasi akong kwenta sa nanay ko eh— sa amo ko pala. At Itong kontratang hawak ko na'to ang magpapatunay kung ano bang klaseng tao ang nanay ko.
Everyone's adore her so much, they love her a lot, but little they don't know about her is she can use you in everything she wants to do for you, strike your back and kick you away as she will slowly make you feel that you are so worthless to be her daughter. After all, loving her is the most hardest thing to do. Kasi habang minamahal mo siya, dun mo rin mare-realize kung gaano ka katanga para mahalin ang walang pusong katulad niya. I am her daughter, at never kong naranasan na mahalin at pahalagahan ng isang katulad niya.
Paano pa kaya kung naging Alila niya na ako, 'di ba? Ay mali, kasi alila niya na pala ako simula pa nung una.
Until now, I can't stop asking my self. Until when will I hope that someday she'll gonna love me too? Ever since, she never love me. I once asked her why? but the only answer I will got from her is because 'I am, my father's child'.
But Until when will I pay for all the grudges and heartaches she has towards to my father? Hanggang kailan niya ako sisingilin sa kasalanang hindi ko naman ginawa? I did not asked her to Born me, pero araw-araw akong nag dudusa sa buhay na binigay niya sa akin, pero kahit na gan'un? even if she don't like me? She despise me a lot? Why's that I still love her. Hanggang kailan ko nga ba mamahalin ang isang katulad niya?
While I'm staring at the contract papers. I heard a loud shout, echoing into our entire house and It's my mom who's calling me. Shocks! She's now damn angry again! She must be seriously mad right now again, for sure.
Oh, well! Ano pa nga bang iba dun? Lagi naman siyang galit, or should I say, araw-araw naman siyang galit, sa'kin.
I immediately hide the Contract papers in my drawer and run out of my room to go as fast as I can to went near and to see mom.
When I saw her, can I just say that my mom is the most gorgeous, sophisticated and elegant woman that I know? Sa ganda at sexy ba naman ng mommy ko? sinong hindi maa-atract sa kanya? Hindi ba? If you don't, then better consult to a doctor. Baka manhid kana dzai! Or else my problema na sa mata mo, tee-hee!
But then looking at my mom's face right now is like ehhhh—ewan? She never smile infront of me eh. Nakikita ko lang siyang ngumingiti sa harap ng mga tita ko or mga friends and mga fans niya na din.
I will definitely recommend to her to always smile sana, kasi she's becoming more beautiful kapag naka-ngiti siya, kaso 'di naman kami close ni mommy. Although I admit that even if she's mad, still. She looks freaking Hot and Darn, Gorgeous! but then, looking at her by Now? I feel like she's more on—like a killer want to kill her victim already—and 'Uh, oh! I guess that victim is none other than but me!
"What are you staring at?!"she angirly said while raising her left eyebrow that got me back into my reverie. I gulped. My heart thumped fast again, I don't know basta! Maririnig ko lang 'yung boses niyang pa galit kinakabahan na ako ng sobra.
