🥀𝓐𝓬𝓽 𝓛𝓲𝓴𝓮 𝓨𝓸𝓾 𝓛𝓸𝓿𝓮 𝓜𝓮🥀 𝓜 𝓐 𝓘 𝓡 𝓘🥀

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¡Kairi¡
°Thursday°

I think the gods above were looking out for me today, after such an embarrassing moment yesterday, because here I was at home, three hours late from school, and if you're already late, there is absolutely no point in going in. And, with my luck, especially with my luck, there was no reason to go.

I texted the boys, telling them about the alarm I forgot to set, and layed back down. I decided on not letting my heart hurt, when there wasn't a text from a certain person. I was tired. I know I put myself into this predicament, and I won't let myself down for it, but I'm just so tired of being hurt.

Everything goes in my favor, and then suddenly it's not, and it's like slamming into a brick wall. And I hate how mattia was with Jenna, of all people. It could've been anyone else, literally anyone else, but no, once again not in my favor, and it sucked seeing her there.

I don't give a flying fuck if they were studying, it just felt like mattia was using her against me. Or maybe I'm just being stupid again. But, he knows how I feel about her, he knows, and I know he knows, and maybe I'm just being paranoid, and over thinking things.
I always do.

Plus, I have no right to loathe in my own self pity, not now, not when I was the cheater. Will mattia even forgive me for that? I broke his family apart, and the same day, I cheated. Maybe he should just break up with me. I am a terrible person. I am the world's worst best friend. Fuck, I am the world's worst boyfriend! And we haven't even been together for that long!

I grabbed my phone, and decided on just watching youtube before I maybe start crying, who knows, do I even deserve to cry? I'm hurt, but maybe not as hurt as mattia is.

I covered myself up in my covers, and played a video of someone playing dead by deadlight, I could just distract myself for right now, until I have to go and figure out how to fix everything. The video was pretty good, to be honest, it was so good, I could honestly hear knocks and creaks around my room. Which was weird considering I didn't have a speaker on, but who am I to complain about crisp audio...

"surprise visits to my house, now ditching school, what's going on inside your head, Kai?" a voice emerged from behind me, and if I didn't figure it out who's voice it was, I would've already karate chopped them in the throat.
(flashback to the non-existent killer in Kais house)

I turned around and looked at the boy in front of me, and I just stared. I didn't know what to say. Gosh, what can I say that I already haven't said before? Maybe I can put my pride to the side for a second, and cry for forgiveness. I just wanted it to be normal again, to be blunt.

"mattia..." I sat up, "mattia. I-I don't want to say I'm sorry, because honestly, that doesn't make up for everything I put you through. I thought about it a lot, you know, because you've lost a lot for me, and things just went-you know how they went," know that I'm talking to him, I felt...ashamed.

In myself, for the most part. In the way I was thinking about it. In everything.

"I never, never thought of hurting you, mattia. But like how can I say that when I did, how can I feel stupid, and sad, when that's probably how you felt when I did-that. I am sorry, and if there was a better word for sorry, then I'm that too. You're probably better off with someone else, mattia, honestly. " I finished off, looking away from him.

It can hurt less if I put the suggestion on the table, right? If he does take it, and leave, it would've been my fault, cause I was the one who suggested it.

"Mon amour, I know. I know you're sorry, I know you would never do anything to hurt me, intentionally at least," he smiled, jumping over me, to lay next to me. "I heard you talking to Gian. I'm sorry for not letting you talk and explain yourself. I'm stupid for thinking you would kiss someone after wearing something so cute and sexy for me."

I choked after hearing the last sentence, "mattia are you dumb?! How can you say that at a time like this! You are unbelievable!" I covered my face, to cover the blush that had no business to show up. "what? I was just stating the obvious. I was too worried to even tell you how beautiful you were in the skirt. Couldn't stop thinking about how you looked, Very very beautiful. Makes me wanna-" "I think I've heard enough." I cut him off, placing a hand on his mouth.

He laughed, removing my hand, sitting up to place his lips on mine. And holy shit, I missed this feeling very much. I just missed his presence, like this. This as in, my boyfriend, my stupid boyfriend, and not my stupid best friend.

"now that that's out of the way," he sighed contently putting his arms above his head, "I think I have explaining to do too. Especially when Alejandro came asking me what I was doing with miss Jenna. And, if you want to blame anyone, you can blame the teacher Mrs. I need toothpaste. She's a bitch Kai, I'm not even passing her class, I don't know why she thought I would be a good tutor."

I laughed, he had a point. She did need toothpaste, and she really proved that when she's yelling right in your face. "I thought so. I told Alejandro not to worry about it, but you know how he is. He'll get his panties in a bunch if he doesn't hear it all." mattia agreed with a small nod, wrapping his arms around my waist,and I really wasn't used to this.

I don't think I will, like ever. He just made butterflies erupt everytime he looked at me, but when he touches or kisses me, that was a whole different story.

"you should come over. Gian won't stop asking for you, he said you're a better fifa partner than me, and I would be offended, but I love you, so I won't be offended too much." i smiled for what seemed like the hundredth time in the span of five minutes, but I don't think mattia realized just how much he made me feel so happy and good.

"ill go over, he's pretty good actually,and I enjoy his company, he's like a mini you. Just meaner, fuck, way meaner." mattia laughed, burying his head in the pillows. "okay, cool. I would now ask to cuddle and sleep with my amazing boyfriend, please."

Laying down, I pulled the covers over us, and I don't think life could get better than this.

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Wowie,, aw mairi aww
they made up can we get an aww fr 🤞
I think I'll let mairi rest and have their beautiful relationship for a bit, it's hard coming up with drama
let alone it happening sm in jst 30 chap.
what was I mf thinking with all this drama shit fr
LMAO FR tho-we'll get more mairi now

Stay gold🖤