50 Shades of Ashton Irwin

Chapter 33

*Ashton's PoV*
I decide on taking the long way home considering Kodie's state, so she can calm down and sober up a bit, even with it still raining and it being cold. I heard it helps sober you up. Half home, she starts to wriggle around in my arms, attempting to pull herself closer to my body, to gain some sort of warmth. Knowing this was no act in trusting me or regaining that bond we had with each other and was just a simple ' I need to get warm so I'm gonna do what ever' act I put her down onto her feet, pull my arms out of the sockets of my jacket and hand her the clothing.

Thinking she will happily take it and wrap it round herself, she just stares at it. Having barely any patience left i forceful put her arms through the holes and wrap it around her shivering body. she puts up a fight when I'm trying to help her?

"Stop it I don't want nothing from you! Get off of me !" She shouts, slurring her words.

"Listen lets get you home so you get getting off those wet clothes and get you something to eat so your not sick tomorrow yeah?"

"Fine just don't touch me, look at me, talk to me, be near me, nothing! Got it?" She fires.

"Yeah." I answer back silently, showing my defeated voice.

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We finally arrive home 20 minutes later, even though it is a 5-10 minute walk, with Kodie scoffing a chicken kebab down her mouth. Like seriously if I weren't in love with this girl, I would be turned off and gone, but I love her and have done wrong by her so from her drunken eating I don't care im staying by her side no matter what, despite the fact she hates me, I'll be there.

As soon as we step through the front door the all guys (meaning the girls as well) run to Kodie smothering her into a group hug. I've got to say I'm kind of jealous like I want to be the one hugging her close, keeping her warm in my arms, yet knowing I'm the one who's created this situation to cause this great divide between everyone I have to except it.

Deciding its best for me to just leave them alone I disappear up into my bedroom, leaving everyone to take care of my girl. it should be my job but she don't want me anywhere near her so her wish is my command...

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*Lauren's PoV*

Kodie has been home for about an hour now, currently asleep across the boy's laps, who are also asleep, whilst previously watching an old episode of The Walking Dead. I glance over to the sight before me. The boys all love her like a sister, protecting her, loving her and being there for her. They are the same with Courtney and I too. She lays across their bodies that are sitting on the settee, perched in slight tucked up position. The lads all have their hands on Kodie-arms, legs and mid back, making sure she down fall off onto the floor.

I smile.

I think back to the first day we met in Starbucks, whilst we was on our shift. Kodie was so reluctant to go over and meet them and hand them their drinks, being too shy, due to her fall on the milk, whilst staring at Ashton. Ashton is her type she goes for: tall, funny, dark hair, great personality, loving... Why did he have to screw up? They are perfect for each other. I've known Kodie for 4 years now and not once have I ever witnessed the look of hurt so strong come across in her actions before, leading me to imagine how she's going to take this and I'm not so sure if she will be okay- for a while that is.

She likes to portray that it won't her her or bother her, but deep down Courtney and I know that it is slowing tearing her apart, seeing as how close she has become with Ashton. You can tell she loves him, even if she has a policy of when to tell a guy that she loves them, she loves him, without a doubt. Otherwise she wouldn't of ran off like that, scared us all, and exploded like that.

Is there something she's not telling us?

I focus my gaze back onto my friend. Where's Ashton?

I make my way to his room, tapping lightly on the door. Hearing a silent 'yeah?' I open the door to be displayed with an overly emotional Ashton Irwin that looked like death.

"Why do you look like that?" I ask with an ice cold tone.

"Because I'm upset and emotional that I fucked everything up with the girl I love, with a dumb action, with an even dumber girl, who I knew was bad news from the start, yet I still wound up in bed with her! So thats the reason why I look like this!" He snaps, waving his hands up and down his body signalling his appearance even more.

"What I was meant to say is 'why are you the one crying?!'" I raise my voice slightly.

"As I said I love her and I fucked it all up. I've lost her. She isn't going to trust me anymore! How could I of been so stupid! I'm not leaving her though not like Dylan did! Nope. Nuh uh. Am I fuck." He starts babbling.

Dylan?

"Who's Dylan?"

"Ah shit! Fuck. No one. Okay? Just forget I said anything. Okay. If you want to know you can ask Kodie."

Hmmmm.

"Anyway, why did you do it?"

"I don't know... It just happened."

"That's not a good enough answer Ashton! Nothing ever 'just happens' nothing! So I'm not leaving until I get a decent and reasonable answer to why you fucked over my mate with a whore."

That's how my night was spent listening to Ashton tell me how Brandi was his Ex girlfriend that he broke up with because of her unfaithfulness with other guys and how she has always managed to pull a cover over his eyes,stopping him from seeing what's right and wrong. He explained the countless arguments he had with the lads over her and her lies, though he couldn't see them, all he could see was a perfect angel, who he 'loved', how the boys never liked her from the start,seeing as she tried getting with Calum first but got rejected so she clung onto Ashton, digging her nails into him, deep.

Since hearing that should I forgive him for what he's done? Or not?