My Everything | 3

3~ Take All Of Me

✥𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐀𝐍✥

"Not today Ricky. Please." I walked away.

I ran my finger through my hair. Anger, frustration, sadness, agitation. All of the above itched my body. They all looked so exhausted, worn out. it was upsetting looking at them. It made me feel guilty too.

You did that to them, you caused their misery, their sadness, you did it all, it's all your fault.

It's...it's my fault?

I went back to my office, grabbing my phone and car keys I walk through the back entrance to my car. I open the door, sitting inside.

"I believe in you Roman. My fiancé. Keep your head held high. One day, when our hearts and minds reunite we will marry, we will hold hands, express the vows we write. Kiss under the moonlight...all of it."

"Ah!" I scream. I shout at the top of my lungs, yelling all the anger out. "Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!" I repeatedly bang the steering wheel, hitting my fist against the leather, feeling my knuckles turn numb.

"Why?! Why do you do this to me?!" I lean my head back, against the headrest, my chest rose, heaving back down even faster. I couldn't take any more of this pain, it was unbearable to handle.

It all was happening so fast all at once.

I...I needed a break.

I start my car, speeding out of the underground parking lot I make my way out of here, needing to clear my head, to go someplace that wasn't so...constricting.

I was hoping that where I was going to, she would...she would be there. I know she meant it when she said she wouldn't come back. She always stuck to her word, no matter how painful it may have been for her.

As I drove, getting further and further into the darkening night, my mind softly drowned itself.

Was all this my fault?

Should we have not gotten together in the first place?

Was this all a mistake?

Was this some sort of game?

She was better without me, I didn't need to come and destroy her life again. She didn't need to carry that sort of burden again, carry that pain again. She didn't des-

"Hey! Asshole! Focus on the road!" I jump from the loud hooting from the cars and yelling from behind. "Wha-what?" I look up to see the traffic light had changed to green.

I press my foot on the gas and continue to drive. I drag a hand down my face, feeling the muscles in my cheeks and jaw hard.

"Smell the flowers..." I inhaled deeply, "...Blow out the candles." I exhaled. I did that three more times, feeling my heartbeat slow down, the muscles in my body relaxing.

I remember when she use to mumble that to herself when she use to get so stressed. I never asked because I assumed it had something to do with her mother, which was someone she never liked to mention.

As I noticed myself getting closer I decided to park my car and walk the rest of the way, thinking some fresh air might do me some good right now. I find somewhere to park my car, jumping out I stuff the keys into my pocket, leaving my phone in the car I close the door behind me.

"Wow..." the moon illuminated my path, a soft glow lighting the dark woods. I walk inside, burying myself in the mountain of leaves, branches and trees. I stuff my hands into my pockets, feeling the slight breeze shiver my body.