(Dragon Wars) Lost Hope

Chapter 21: Revenge

I breathed in quite a bit to my self, as this all did not feel right to me what so ever, at all, as to the fact as to just what it was that was even going on right at this very moment in time, all at the exact same time too, as I began to start to breath in quite a bit to my self, all at once, as I got my mind, and I got my focus off of all of the rest of that other stuff that I had in fact been thinking on long before now, once again.
I then began to start to get my eyes, and I began to start to get my mind more on to the fact that had to do with just what it was that was going on right at this very moment in time as well, which was of course the fact that we were back at the gathering place, though this spot that we were at was a lot different than the rest, as I knew that this was not where it was that we had our meetings at what so ever, all at the exact same time too.
I breathed in quite a bit heavily to my self, all at once, as I got my mind, and I got my focus off of all of the rest of that other stuff that I had in fact been thinking on long before now, as I felt like this was normal, but at the exact same time as well, I felt like this was not the time for me to be doing as such a thing like I was doing right at this very moment in time as well, as this felt like this was way too soon as to just what it was that we were even doing, all at the exact same time as well, once again.
I began to start to breath in quite a bit heavily, as I knew that I had always imagined dreaming about this day, all at the exact same time as well, but at the exact same time too, I kind of felt like this was not the way that I had ever imagined this ever happening, as I felt like my father was supposed to be with me right now, as he should be in his old age, and I should be in the prime of my life, as he was handing his leader ship down to me.
Though, that did not seem to be the case right now at all, what so ever, as to just what it was that was even going on right now, as I looked beside me, to see that my father was not there, but it was rather his best friend, Socra, that was there with me right at this very moment in time too, as I blinked my eyes a few times, all at once, as it did in fact pain me to see that it was not my father that was at my side at all right at this very moment in time too.
I blinked my eyes a few times to my self all at once, as I did my best to try to keep my self as calm as I felt like I possibly could, as I just seemed to stare at Socra for the time being, as I knew that I had appointed her as my deputy, all at the exact same time as well, as I felt like she was the only dragon that I could trust to make the right decision, all at the exact same time as well, since it was that I did not have kids of my own, and I felt like it would be a long time since it was that I did in fact have kids of my own.
If ever... I still felt kind of heart broken about the fact that I knew that I would never get to be with Aitoka, since it was that things seemed to be going the way that they were right at this very moment in time too, as I began to start to breath in quite a bit to my self all at once, as I did my best to try to keep my self as calm as I felt like I possibly could in the mean time, as I just began to start to nod to Socra, all at once.
Socra looked at me with quite a bit of a confused look on her face at first, as to just what it was that I was even doing right at this very moment in time as well, once again. How ever, in the end, I then all of the sudden began to start to notice that she had in fact began to start to nod back to me, all at once, which made me feel a little bit better at the very least. It was clear to me that she was in fact letting me know that she was in fact paying attention as to just what it was that I was about to go on ahead and say to her.
I was thankful for Socra, as I was glad that she was here with me right now, as I knew that I did not want to be alone in all of this at all right now, as I knew that I would not have a single clue as to just what it was that I was even doing, all at the exact same time as well. I began to start to breath in quite a bit heavily to my self all at once, as I then all of the sudden began to start to go right on ahead and speak to her, now that it was that I did in fact realize that she was in fact beginning to start to listen as to just what it was that I even had to say to her, all at the exact same time as well, once again.
"Thank you for being here with me... I just wish my father could have been here with me for this... This was not the way that things were supposed to go..." I said to her, as I blinked my eyes a few times to my self, all at once, as I got my mind, and I got my focus off of all of the rest of those other thoughts that I had in fact been thinking on before, all at the exact same time as well, as I dipped my head a bit low to the ground, all at the exact same time as well.
I wanted her to know that I was in fact grateful for her, but I also knew that I was in fact in quite a bit of some bain right at this very moment in time as well, as to just what it was that was even going on right at this very moment in time as well, as I was not all too sure as to just what it was that I should do at all right now, nor was I all too sure as to just what it was that I was even doing right at this very moment in time as well, once again.
As I stared at Socra for just a little bit longer, I saw the bigger red dragon begin to start to head a bit closer to me all at once, which I was a bit confused as to just what it was that she was even doing at first, until she then all of the sudden began to start to rub her head against my scales, all at once, as it was clear to me that she was trying to make me feel a little bit better, all at the exact same time as well, as I knew that she sure as hell did in fact feel the same sort of pain that I did right now, all at the exact same time too.
I knew that my father Peota had been there with her their entire life, through thick and thin, which was why I had in fact chose her, all at the exact same time as well, as I felt like I had in fact made the right decision on just what it was that I had done, as I was sure that she knew a lot more about how to be a leader than I did, I was quite sure of, all at the exact same time as well, as I knew that I really could use her help at a time such as the one that our tribe was in fact in right at this very moment in time too.
I just got my mind, and I got my focus off of all of that, all at once, as I began to start to breath in quite a bit of a soft sigh to my self all at once, as I got my mind, and I got my focus off of all of the rest of that other thoughts that I had in fact been thinking on long before now once again, as I just kind of shook my head quite a bit to my self all at once, as I then began to start to notice that Socra was now all of the sudden beginning to start to nod back to me, all at once.
I tilted my head a little bit at first, as I was in fact quite a bit lost as to just what it was that she was even doing in the very first place any ways, but in the end, I then all of the sudden began to start to realize as to the fact all at once, that she was in fact letting me know that she was in fact trying to speak to me, all at once, all at the exact same time as well.
I blinked my eyes a few times, for some odd reason, and for some stupid reason as well, as if I did not have a single clue as to just what it was that was even going on right at this very moment in time any ways, as if I did not have a single clue as to just what it was that she was getting at either. How ever, in the end, I did in fact go right on ahead and begin to start to wake my self up all of the sudden, as I then all of the sudden began to start to nod to her, all at once, to let her know that I was in fact paying attention as to just what it was that she even had to say to me, all at the exact same time too.
As soon as it was that I had in fact done as such a thing like that, that was when she went on ahead and went right on ahead and got straight to the point, which I was in fact grateful, and I was in fact thankful for, all at the exact same time as well, as she then all of the sudden did in fact begin to start to speak to me all of the sudden, as I did in fact begin to start to listen as to just what it was that she had to say to me, all at the exact same time as well, as soon as it was that she did in fact do as such a thing like that.
"Himla... Your father is here for you right now... Do not worry... Just go to the water... Drink..." She said to me, as she blinked her eyes a few times towards me all at once, all at the exact same time as well, as she then all of the sudden began to start to dip her head over to me, all at the exact same time as well, as it was clear to me that she was in fact trying to let me know that we needed to go on ahead and get all of this started.
I was not all too sure as to just what it was that I had in fact been thinking, but I began to start to get my mind, and I began to start to get my focus on the fact that I knew that she was in fact correct on just what it was that she had even said to me, all at the exact same time as well, as I blinked my eyes a few times, all at once, as I bit of a response back to her, as I knew as to just what it was that I was doing.
This was what it was that I had been told that all leaders did when ever it was that they did in fact take over the spot of the leader, all at the exact same time as well, as I blinked my eyes a few times to my self all at once, as I got my mind, and I got my focus off of all of the rest of those other thoughts that I had in fact been thinking on long before now once again, as I breathed in quite a bit to my self, all of the sudden.
I knew that if any dragon was to drink from the water, I had been told stories of just what it was that had happened to them, as some people had said that they had dropped dead, or that they were banished from this world. I was not all too sure as to just how much of that was in fact true, considering the fact that they had a few different stories of just how much it all really was, but I felt like it was no thing to joke about either way, none the less.
I blinked my eyes a few times, all at once, all at the exact same time as well, as I got my mind, and I got my focus off of all of the rest of that other stuff that I had in fact been thinking on long before now, as I then stopped my self right before it was that I had got to the water, and just before it was that I had in fact began to start to drink in to the water, all at the exact same time as well, as I hesitated, all at the exact same time too.
Was I really worthy of what it was that I was about to do? I was not all too sure, as I knew that my father did in fact sure think so, as that was why it was that he had assigned me the role of being the next leader in the very first place any ways, once again. I knew my father was very smart, and he was very wise, all at the exact same time as well, so I felt like I should put my trust, and I should put my faith in to him, all at the exact same time as well.
I breathed in quite a bit to my self all at the exact same time as well, as I then all of the sudden began to start to go right on ahead all of the sudden, and begin to start to drink in to the water, as it had quite a bit of a strange taste, all at the exact same time as well, which felt a bit weird to me, as I was not all too sure if it was a good taste, or if it was a bit of a nasty, and a bit of a rotten taste, all at the exact same time too.
I breathed in quite a bit to my self all at once, as I just got my mind, and I got my focus off of all of the rest of those other thoughts that I had in fact been thinking on long before now once again, as I just let the taste resignate for a little bit longer, until I then all of the sudden began to start to notice that things seemed to be the exact same as it had been just a few moments ago, once again.
I was quite a bit lost as to just what it was that was going on, as I blinked my eyes a few times. I was a little bit worried as to just what it was that it meant, as I wondered if this meant that I was not worthy of just what it was that was in fact going on right at this very moment in time, in the very first place any ways, once again, as I got my mind, and I got my focus off of all of the rest of those other thoughts that I had in fact been thinking on long before now, once again.
I quickly turned my head a bit over towards Socra all of the sudden, as I was a bit scared, and I was a bit worried as to just what it was that was even going on in the very first place any ways, as I then all of the sudden began to start to speak to her, as soon as it was that I had begun to start to turn my head over to her, all at the exact same time too, once again.
"Did I do some thing wrong? Nothing seems t-" I said, as I then all of the sudden stopped my self on just what it was that I had said, all at the exact same time as well, as I then all of the sudden began to start to notice that Socra was not with me any more at all, all at the exact same time as well, which would freak me out a bit, all at the exact same time as well, I felt like, if it was not due to the fact that I saw that there was about a hundred dragons that were all formed up in a circle around me right now, all at the exact same time as well, once again.
I blinked my eyes a few times, all at once, as I was quite a bit lost as to just what it was that was even going on right now in the very first place any ways, as I wondered where it was, and how it was that all of these dragons had even got to where it was that I was even at right at this very moment in time, once again, as it felt a bit strange, and it still felt quite a bit weird to me, all at the exact same time too, as I just began to start to breath in quite a bit to my self, all at once.
That was of course, until I then all of the sudden began to start to notice, all at the exact same time as well, as to just who it was that was at the front of all of this, as I notice that these dragons were quite a bit of a familiar sight for me to see, all at the exact same time as well, as I noticed that the dragons on the left and right side of me had seemed like it had been for ever since it was that I had in fact seen either of them, all at the exact same time too, once again.
The first one of course just so happened to be my grand father, as I knew that he had died of old age when ever it was that I had been very young, all at the exact same time as well, as I had remembered my father had always used to go over to him, and he had always gone to him for advice, as I had remembered that he had been the leader of the tribe before it was that my father had in fact taken over as the leader of our tribe.
I blinked my eyes a few times, all at once, as I was not all too sure as to just what it was that was even going on with me, as I felt a lot of some blur, and some mixed emotions as to just who it was that was on the other side of my father, as I saw that it was the deputy that had been before me, as she had been the one that had in fact trained me to be the next deputy, as I remember that she had died to some sickness, and she had died to some disease that the tribe had one year, at that, none the less.
It had hurt me greatly the day that she had died, all at the exact same time as well, as I knew that she had always been my biggest inspiration, and she had always been there for me, all at the exact same time too. I had a lot of different things that were going on in my head right now, now that it was that I had seen her face for the first time in such a long time, all at the exact same time too, as I kind of felt like I wanted a hug from her right now, but I kind of felt like as well, that now might not be the best time to be doing as such a thing like that, all at the exact same time as well, once again.
I began to start to breath in quite a bit to my self all at once, as I got my mind, and I got my focus off of all of the rest of that other stuff, all at the exact same time too, as I then all of the sudden began to start to turn my head to the dragon that was in the middle of all of this, once again, as I saw that was of course my father, all at the exact same time as well, as I saw that he did in fact have quite a bit of a sad smile on his face too, as it was clear that he had quite a bit of some mixed emotions such as I did right at this very moment in time as well, as it was clear to me that he was not all too sure as to just what it was that he should do.
How ever, in the end, luckily enough for me, all at once, he did in fact begin to start to go on ahead and nod to me all of the sudden, to let me know that he was in fact about to speak to me, all at the exact same time as well. I was not all too sure as to just what it was that I should do at first if I was not going to lie to my self either, as I then all of the sudden began to start to gulp quite a bit heavily to my self all at the exact same time as well.
I was around a bunch of heavenly, and a bunch of special dragons, and I knew it, all at the exact same time as well, as I felt like I needed to be humble right now, and I needed to keep my self as calm as I felt like I possibly could, all at the exact same time as well, as I then all of the sudden began to start to nod back to my father, all at the exact same time too, to let him know that I was in fact paying attention as to just what it was that he was even about to say to me, all at the exact same time as well.
I breathed in quite a bit to my self all at once, as I then all of the sudden began to start to hear my father start to speak to me, all at the exact same time as well, once again, as I did my best to try to keep my self as calm as possible, as this all felt so surreal to me, if I was not going to lie to my self, but in the end how ever, I did in fact begin to start to hear my father begin to speak to me, all at the exact same time as well, as I did in fact begin to start to listen as to just what it was that he even had to say to me, all at the exact same time as well, at that.
"I know you scared and you are worried son... There is no need to be... We will always be there for you... This is your time to shine Himla... Your tribe needs you more than ever right now..." He said to me, as he looked at me with a smile, all at the exact same time as well, though I saw that he had quite a bit of some pain on his face, all at the exact same time as well, as to just what it was that he had even said to me in the very first place any ways, once again, at that, never the less.
I breathed in quite a bit heavily to my self all at once, as I did my best to try to keep my self as calm as I felt like I possibly could, all at the exact same time too, as I got my mind, and I got my focus off of all of the rest of those other thoughts that I had in fact been thinking on long before hand, as I then all of the sudden just began to start to breath in quite a bit heavily to my self all at the exact same time as well, as I shivered at the thought of just what this all meant for me.
I was scared, and I was quite a bit panicked if I was not going to lie to my self right now, as I kind of felt like I was not ready for all of this at all, all at the exact same time as well, as for one thing, I did not think it was going to be this early in my life that I was going to have to take over as the leader of my tribe, but I also did not think that it was going to be under the current circumstances that it was supposed to be under, all at the exact same time as well right now, none the less.
I began to start to blink my eyes a few times, as I did in fact feel like I needed to be calm, and I did in fact need to be strong right at this very moment in time as well, as I knew that my father had in fact taught me better than that, as to just what it was that I was even doing right now, in the very first place any ways, once again. I breathed in quite a bit to my self all at once, once again, as I just began to start to all of the sudden get my mind, and get my focus off of all of the rest of that other stuff that I had in fact been thinking on long before hand.
That was of course as to the fact that I had in fact been thinking on the fact that I knew that now was my time, and that now I needed to step up, and I needed to lead my tribe, just as it was that my father had in fact just said to me a few moments ago, as I began to start to breath in quite a bit to my self all at once, as I then began to start to get my mind, and I began to start to get my focus on to that all of the sudden, all at the exact same time as well, once again.
As I stared at my father for just a few moments time, I then all of the sudden cracked a bit of a sad smile on my face all of the sudden, as I then all of the sudden, all at the exact same time as well, began to start to go on ahead and begin to start to nod back to my father all at the exact same time as well, as a little bit of some sort of response back to my father all at the exact same time as well, to let him know that I was in fact about to go right on ahead and start to speak to him, all at the exact same time as well.
I was not all too sure as to just what it was that I should say at first, if I was not going to lie to my self either, as I stared at my father for just a little bit longer, all at once, as I saw him stare at me with an even bigger smile than it was that he had on his face a few moments before hand, all at the exact same time as well, as in the end, he then all of the sudden began to start to go right on ahead and nod back to me, to let me know at the very least, that he was in fact paying attention to me, all at the exact same time too.
Once it was that I had seen my father do as such a thing like that, that was when it then all of the sudden came to my mind, and it began to start to give me quite a bit of some new found strength all at the exact same time too, as I blinked my eyes quite a bit to my self all at the exact same time as well, as I now all of the sudden began to start to realize, and I began to start to know as to just what it was that I should say to my father in the very first place any ways, as I then all of the sudden did in fact begin to start to speak to him, all at the exact same time as well, never the less.
"Thank you father... I could not have done it with out all of your help... I will be strong for you all... I will make sure that the tribe is safe..." I said to them all, as I did my best to try to keep my self as calm as I felt like I possibly could, after just what it was that I had even said to him in the very first place any ways, at that, never the less, as I began to start to breath in quite a bit heavily to my self, all at once, as I got my mind, and I got my focus off of all of the rest of that other stuff that I had in fact been thinking on long before now.
I stood there for quite a bit of some time, as I stared at my father, as I was a bit worried that I had not said the right thing, even if it was that I saw that the other 2 dragons that were beside him right now seemed to think that it was all fine, as I saw that the both of them did in fact have smiles on their faces right at this very moment in time as well, once again. My father did not seem to share the same smiles like he had a few moments before hand once again.
I wondered if that was due to the fact that it some times felt like my father knew me better than I even knew my self, all at the exact same time as well, as I wondered if he felt like I had messed up with some thing that I had in fact just said to him, all at the exact same time as well, once again, which I was not all too sure as to just what it was that it could be, if I was going to be for real with my self too, as I knew that I had felt like I had been truthful with what it was that I had said.
I stared at my father for just a bit more time how ever, as I kind of felt like I could not help but to be a bit worried, and a bit scared about all of this, all at the exact same time as well, all at the exact same time too, as I got my mind, and I got my focus off of all of the rest of those other thoughts that I had in fact been thinking on long before hand, once again, as I then all of the sudden began to start to get my mind, and I began to start to get my focus off of all of the rest of that other stuff.
As I began to start to dip my head a bit to low to the ground all at once, that was when I then all of the sudden began to start to seem to hear the voice of my father all at once, as it seemed like he was now all of the sudden beginning to start to speak back to me, all at the exact same time too, as I blinked my eyes quite a bit of a few times to my self all at once, none the less, as I then all of the sudden began to start to lift my head up to my father all of the sudden.
I still was a bit worried, and I still was not all too sure as to just what it was that was even going on right now in the very first place any ways, if I was in fact going to be for real with my self as well, but in the end, I then all of the sudden began to start to see my father begin to start to nod to me, as it was clear that he was trying to make sure that I was in fact paying attention to him right now, as it was clear that he was being serious with what it was that was even going on right now.
Of course, I knew that he was being serious, so that was not really much of a problem for me, as I had simply just been a bit worried about all of this, all at the exact same time as well. I was simply just a bit scared that I was not worthy for all of this, just as I had been earlier. I began to start to breath in quite a bit to my self all at once how ever, as I then all of the sudden began to start to nod back to my father, all at the exact same time as well, to let him know that I was in fact paying attention as to just what it was that he even had to say to me, all at the exact same time too, once again.
My father then all of the sudden did in fact begin to start to go right on ahead and start to speak to me, as I could not help but to notice that he had a dead serious look on his face right now, as it was clear that he was about to be for real with what it was that he was about to say to me, all at the exact same time too, as I then all of the sudden began to start to listen as to just what it was that he even had to say to me in the very first place any ways, as soon as it was that he had in fact began to start to speak to me.
"Himla... Don't just do this for revenge..."