2 MINUS 1 •JOSHUA

realised

Lunch Time

I, nao and Vernon were sitting and talking when Joshua and kait joined us

Shua: if you don't mind, can kait sit with us?
Nao: we do min-
Y/n: yes

Vernon and nao looked at me and i just gave them a smile assuring that I'll be okay

We were done with our lunch and we're heading to class, joshua whispered something to kait and she nodded. Soon Joshua came towards my direction

Shua: vernon, nao you both can head to class first, I need to talk something with y/n
Nao: you can just talk over here
Shua: sorry nao
Y/n: you both go ahead

They went and i and Joshua were left alone

Shua: is something wrong?
Y/n: not really
Shua: you seem off
Y/n: it's nothing, really
Shua: i just want to say I'm sorry i-
Y/n: i forgive you, I'll head towards the class
Shua: but-

Joshua's POV

Y/n has been ignoring me since the party day but why? Oh god i remember, she was there with me when we were peeking and she must have had seen everything, but why is she mad at me? Did I say something offensive? I just said that I don't have any feelings but-

Vernon: now you realised? Finally. Nao was right, we all men are dumb
Shua: oh god you scared me, what are you doing here?
Vernon: you didn't come so I came to see where you are
Shua: ahh
Vernon: but it's all good that you finally realised
Shua: what?
Vernon: you still didn't?
Shua: i don't know what you are talking about
Vernon: stupid, y/n has feelings for you, how can you be this dumb!- wait this is what nao told me, now I can feel how mad she was
Shua: what- what do you mean?
Vernon: didn't you feel her when she said, 'i love you'? She really meant it. The way you used to kiss her, talk sweet about her, was caring, everything.. she felt it. I feel bad for her, how she must have had felt when you said that you didn't mean any of it, the bell rang, let's go and one thing.. I am disappointed in you

What in the world?! Y/n liked me?! And I didn't even know?!! My life surely is a mess. I always felt something when she confessed her love but i always ignored it, she really meant it. Oh god what did I do! She liked me but i just used her, she must have had felt so hurt. I need to talk to her

After school

Shua: hey y/n can we talk
Y/n: sorry I have some work

Saying that she left.. I went home and called her at night but she didn't pick up

Friday 12.09pm
hey y/n, where did you go? I couldn't see you. I have a good news to convey

Now 08.19pm
Hey y/n
Are you free? I needed to talk
Please pick up my call
Look I'm sorry, just please don't ignore me. This is urgent.

I waited for hours but no reply. I can't bear to loose her. I can't live without her, I'm used to her now. I can't believe what I did to her

Next Day

I hurried to the class but couldn't find y/n

Shua: hey nao have you seen y/n
Nao: nope

The bell rang, still she didn't come. I waited for whole day but still she didn't come. Kait was worried for me but more than her, I'm worried for y/n, I'm such a cruel person

Next Day

Everyone was lined up in front of the bus for the  picnic. We soon were going to head in the bus, i was with Kate. Vernon with Nao, i still couldn't see y/n

Monitor: only one person is left, where is Kim y/n?
Y/n: here here!!!!

I saw her running, she came near, i approached her but then Kate holded me near her. Y/n glanced at me and then went to partner up with the monitor since she was the only person with no partner

We went in the bus and coincidently y/n was sitting beside our seat. The ride started, everyone was singing and cheering except one person which was y/n, she was sitting quietly. Out of nowhere Kait pecked my lips, i could feel y/n watching us. Kait please this is not the right time

Kait: I love you
Shua: I love you too sweetie

We reached our destination. The girls went to their dorm and boys to theirs respectively. Kait and I decided to meet at the back of the dorms since there was a hill and beautiful scene. We sat there holding eachother's hand

Kait: isn't it so beautiful?
Shua: hmm

She looked at me and then my lips, same did i. Within no time, our lips connected. Her lips were soft as always but.. but i didn't feel anything this time. The fast pace in heart, the eagerness to know more about how she tastes.. nothing... It was when i kissed y/n- do I like her? I stopped, kait was confused

Shua: Kait.. I'm sorry
Kait: for what?
Shua: i don't have those feelings i used to get when I was with you
Kait: you like y/n, don't you?
Shua: w- what? N- no I'm not sure
Kait: *sigh* i knew this would happen, listen to your heart. I'm happy if you are, I'll be heading back, take time and think

Saying that she left. I sat there alone, silence taking over the place, wind blowing. Whenever I was with y/n, i felt comfortable and full. Whenever I kissed her, i felt my heart racing, each and every touch with her was something pleasuring not in a sexual way but which I never felt before, her smile made my day, when she told me, 'i love you' i felt happy and contented. I- i really have feelings for her. Why didn't I realise it earlier?! Oh gosh men are seriously stupid