AFFLICTION

44 ~ [Unexpected And Anticipated]

LEERA POV

"Won't you even come back to Georgia to celebrate Christmas with us, sweetheart?" My mother asked over the phone call anticipating I would say yes.
"I don't know yet, mum. Levi and Aria wants me to visit New York in christmas too and here I'm stuffed alone in California. Its been almost a month and I'm frustrated of this solitary life. I'm so desperate to meet everyone of you but I'm so busy that I don't even know if I'll be able to celebrate Christmas with you guys" I frowned in sadness.

"Sweetheart, don't be sad. It's all fine trust me. If you can't come here we'll visit there. But this Christmas we'll spent together" my heart lighted up with rejoice.
"Really! When are you guys visiting me??" My voice echoed with excitement.

"Depends on your father dear" my heart blended in hopelessness, making me give off a despairing little shrug. My dad is always too busy even if he tries his best to makeout time for me most of the time he just couldn't and that's always what has been happening since childhood.
"Oohh.... " my smile stretched downwards.
"Ah Leera! I said we'll spend this christmas together that's it. You don't worry" mother assured.

"It's getting late. Don't stay up too long. Goodnight my baby" Mom's voice could itself radiate light of hope and love. It's just too enchanting and pleasing to me just like any other child in this world would feel the exact same about their mother.

"You know I ain't your baby anymore. Your lovely daughter Elle is your baby and you love her more than me" I whined jokingly.
"Come on Leera. You are grown up now. Stop enving your sister. I love you two equally" She half laughed and continued "okay goodnight now, my beloved daughter"

"Huh where is my kiss? You always give kisses to Elle before she sleeps" I muttered frowning, complaining like a child cause I always love being childish with her. She instantly blew me a lot of kisses over the phone and small laughter merged out my mouth.

"Now sleep!" She affirmed strictly this time.
"Okay okay! Thanks my fairy. Love you. Tell dad and Elle I miss them" I said clinging to my blanket, laying on my bed.
"Your fairy loves you more. Your dad and Elle can't wait to see you again" she replied and I could already feel the pain suffocating me once again.

"I'll see you guys soon. Goodnight mum"
"Goodnight. Dont stay up late, it's bad for your health and you are already passing through a tiring stage of life" It was an advise but sounded more like a command the way she spoke. I hummed in response and then our one hour conversation finally came to an end.

A part of me felt alive again and another part felt as if something is throttling me with agony.
Never in my life I felt this susceptible and unprotected, staying all by my own.

It's been a month in california but even after that I couldn't adapt properly here. It was different in New York. I had my acquaintances along with friends there but I literally have no one here. Everytime I tried to befriend someone or get aquitanced to someone I couldn't the way I could before only because of one fear which was, what if they had to endure from something that they weren't supposed to only because of me?

His words echoed in my head over and over. "You will think twice before speaking to any person here, to befriend anyone in this city, to go anywhere, to even take any step for anything."

My soul lacked the peace that it craved.

Thinking about everything the ache afflicted me again, I struggled off everything forcefully from my head and closed my eyes.

...............

Grabbing my bag and white apron I was about to open the main door of my house when I heard a dog barking. Opening it I saw a cute puppy infront of my door. It was median in size and black-tan in colour. By the amount of knowledge I had about dogs because I love pets so freaking much, I knew it was pomeranian. Too cute and adorable.