Hello my old friend
You're here with me once again
It's good to hear your voice
It's still good to see you
I'm not okay
I'm hurting and I don't know why
Cold icy steal
Gentle on my skin
The blade slides across my body
Pain dripping away
With the blood down my arms
I can breathe again
An overwhelming world slowly fading away
Pain I can control
I'm sorry that it's this way
I just needed a release
I didn't mean to cause you pain
I only want to control mine
A world so crazy
Spinning round my head
I feel like I'm going to explode
Images like flashes from the paparazzi
Words of stone bruising my mind
I don't know how to communicate the pain
Drowning my sorrows in the bottom of a bottle
Knocking another one back
Drink it till it's gone
Or pour it down the drain
My head spinning
I don't know who I am
I only know who I wanna be
I can't be her
I can't control what's in my head
Which way to go
Where to look
Who to run to
A voice so small
Breaking down
Screaming for help
Not knowing if anyone can even hear
I bang my head on the wall
Scream out loud
The only way I know
Pain I can control
A release from the things I can't
I'm sorry I did it again
I can't always be strong
