Brutal love

Chapter 6

It's been 2 weeks since the accident and I could say that life couldn't get worse. I have these sudden panic attacks, sudden anxiety and just a deep rumbling of my thought. The thoughts are weird and vague. Not even about the incident but about how worse my future might get. Its worse when I'm at school. I see Emily and the others and no matter what I do to hide from them or the pain, it just doesn't seem to fade.

But on the brighter side, Emily, Zane and the others have stopped bothering me. Not as much as they did. Though that didn't matter because the second I see their shadows lurking in the hall I'm just a pathetic spirit trying to hold onto the red string of hope.

To top my 2 weeks of anguish filled life, my dad had called me and my supposedly dear friend to the family dinner. And I told him that calling my friend in a family dinner would be awkward much less why should I call him? I told him he was busy but dad asked me for his number so that he 'himself could call and invite him' and obviously I do not keep Zane's number in my phone. Yes I failed, utterly, I admit.

Dad said, since Zane has been my friend and that he has never seen him, it would be a good thing to have him there at the dinner. But for real, Zane wasn't needed, much less in a family dinner. Not even in a normal discussion but my dad wasn't agreeing. And right now I'm on my way to 'talk' to Zane.

I've been searching him for the past 10 minutes in this gigantic school, passing doors after doors and still not finding him. I'm reaching the end of the hall and yeah I see him in the last classroom. But he's with Emily so I don't barge in and just wait outside, I'm about to leave because Emily might not really want to see me here waiting to talk to her boyfriend. But she speaks.

"Zane, why are you standing for her, and and why are you stopping us from doing anything to her?" She speaks with frustration almost about to vent everything thats on her mind.

"It's not like that Emily, she isn't even relevant in your life" and I do think that they are very much talking about me. "No because all I think is that you deeply care about her, you know every single thing about her! I can't even say that you are a bully to her by the amount of things you know about her, you keep saying I was about to kill her and you didn't want me to go in lifetime prison but then you are-" she stops and tries to breath and I could feel the wrath coming from her, she was so pissed and annoyed.

I take my cue to leave because if I stay alittle longer I'm afraid she will say I'm worth killing to keep her from being bored.

I wait in the entrance for him, I think he'll come. Without his girl I'm hoping. And I wait for 10 minutes, everyone is already gone but I'm standing like an idiot in this cold.

"What are you doing here?" I hear him speak and I turn around to face him and tell him to ridiculously come to some family dinner. I can't believe I'm going to like actually ask him to come.

"H-hey, mmhm I" I took a deep breath and let the embarrassing words come out "My dad has called you for dinner" did I ask? No. Am I going to be rejected? Yes. Do I wanna vanish? Yes.

"I have better things to do, and I can't play 'friends' all the time. Didn't you tell your dad?"

" yeah, I mean I told him but it's totally okay if you can't come"

He walked away and so did I. I wouldn't say I'm shocked to hear the response I heard. This is Zane I am talking about, he especially won't give a damn about a pest like me much less want to come to dinner with me. He probably has gazillions of work to do at home. Party, hook-up with girlfriend, get drunk or a decent can include helping his dad. He is an A student after all.

I was relieved he wasn't coming, this way I could tell my dad that Zane himself denied, less work for me. I reached home and started getting ready for the early dinner invite.