pinky promise, chris sturniolo.

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AN// i wanna update this as much as i can because i know there's not that many books about my boys yet and i want to write a matt one too, i'm not gonna rush but i want you guys to be able to read books about chris n stuff yk? plus this is the first book ive ever written that doesn't feel like a chore and i love it. hehe. also idk if i'm gonna put smut in here because i feel weird about it but i might just for like book purposes yk? -jj

ellas point of view

i was watching the boys new yt vid when matt texts me saying he's outside and to come, i was confused bcuz we didn't make plans.

i walk out in my slippers and get into the front seat. it's just matt? i normally hang out w all three of them.

"what" i say, he was just staring at me. "do u have a crush on chris?" he asks bluntly. tf?

"uh i don't know why?" i respond confused "because he really likes you and i know i'm not supposed to tell his secrets but i don't want this ruining our friend group because i love you and i wanna hang out with you without it being awkward and-" he rambles before i cut him off. "breathe matt" "i don't want you getting hurt but i also don't want my brother getting hurt and i can't pick sides. after seeing you with alex it makes my heart drop even thinking about you having a boyfriend ever again even if it is my brother. i never ever wanna see you cry like that again." he finishes venting then starts driving "fuck i want chicken nuggets" he says. i sit there stunned.

"okay um, i love you and you know that but there might not even be a chance of me and chris even dating matt." i say sadly. "why not?" he asks. looking over at me for a second. "i'll never be able to admit my feelings yknow?" i say

"what if i did it for you without you knowing?" he says "huh?"

"yknow what if i tell chris pretending like you don't know. that way you'll never know how he reacts." he says happy about his plan. "matt ur a fucking idiot" i laugh "cmon it's smart!" "you can try if u want." i reply.

we pull up to the drive through and one of my only friends isaiah is working, he always had a crush on nick. we pull up to the window and he giggles "so u never boned chris so ur fucking the other brother! i see i see" i gasp "bitch shut the fuck up" i laugh loudly, matt's laughing too.

matt pays for my chicken nuggets and i place my phone on the dash board and put on gravity falls, our fav show to watch together.

he drops me off at home and i lay down in my bed not ready for tmr. my mom comes in my room. "where have you been?" she asks. liquor running through her breath.

my mom and i never really got along, my dad lives in canada so it's not like i can just move in w him.

"with matt" i respond dryly. "have you been having sex?" she gets in my face. "mom your drunk please go to bed." i say turning my face from hers. she grabs my face and makes me look at her. "you fucking slut." she says bluntly and walks out of my room.

fucking bitch. i begin to cry, normally we have good days and she's my best friend i guess today was a bad day.

i call chris. "can i come over?" i try to hide that i'm upset "yea what's up?" he asks through the phone. "bad day." i say. "matt's coming."

i get up grab my bag and go out of my window and wait outside in the freezing cold. i see the headlights of the van pull up and i hop into the front seat. "are you okay?" he asks with concern. "yea, i just wanna go to bed. my moms drunk." i respond looking at my shoes. he nods and drives off.

we enter the house and i say goodnight to matt and head upstairs. you can obviously tell i've been crying. i walk into chris's room and sit on the bed "hey hey hey what's wrong?" he says placing his hand on my cheek "mom" i respond back.

"oh c'mere" he says and pulls me into a warm hug. "i'm tired" i whisper into his shoulder. "let's go to bed okay?" i nod and lay with him. he falls asleep but i can't. i get up and go into the kitchen to grab some food. i grab a banana and knock on nicks door "come in!" he says.

"hi bitch" i walk into his room "the fuck i didn't even know you were here" he says confused

"wanna make tik toks?" i smirk, he shoots up in excitement.

we shoot a couple tik toks giggling and make one for his spam talking about board games.

we sit down on the bed with smiles and play on our phones. "okay well i'm going to bed i'll talk to u in the morning yea?" i say standing up "k" he says his eyes glued to his phone. i walk out of his room and quietly go back upstairs.

i walk into chris's room and it's freezing. i go to the closet and grab a sweater putting it on my cold body.

"what're you doing?" i hear chris rasply ask "it's cold." i say "come" he says opening his arms. i climb into bed and snuggle into him. i'm trying to sleep but i'm still not tired.

chris is asleep and i'm just studying him. "god your perfect" i whisper, he smiles. "perfect huh?" welp i guess he wasn't asleep and now i'm embarrassed. "um" i say and turn my lips into a flat line. he laughs dryly and pulls me closer and kisses my forehead. "are we ever gonna talk about what's happening with us." i ask

"if you want, do u think that will help you sleep?" he asks sitting up, i sit up as well.

"do u think if we date that will ruin our friendship?" i ask. "if we date? no i don't think so." chris says. "i have a crush on u i think and it confuses me." i admit, he smiles.

"i have a crush on u i think too."