Why Are We Afraid?

[Seven]

A week went by, of course nothing changed with my father.

Of course he still hits me, some days he doesn't but other days...he's always yelling about my mom and I.

Then, he looses control.

But, each morning, I get to escape. I walk outside greeted by the soft smile from Soobin.

He walks me to school each morning and from school each afternoon.

Maybe, this will work.

I just couldn't picture myself being happy again, even though it's only for a few hours of the day...it still feels like a dream.

After getting ready for school, I meet Soobin outside.

He shows me a smile as I walk over, "hey" I speak as he grabs my hand.

"Hey"

We start our walk, "you know, I was thinking...this weekend if your free we should do something" he starts.

I nod, "okay, yeah. Like what?" I smile. He shrugs, "I don't know" he laughs.

"Something fun, though" he smiles. I agree with him.

"Well, we have three days to decide".

//

The weekend came rather fast, it's Saturday night.

Yesterday, I talked to Soobin but he hasn't been responding all day.

I know he disappears but, I thought he would at least tell me now that we're together.

I shoot him one last text message before leaving out and heading over to his house.

As I approach the door, I see his mother leaving out.

"Oh, hey, Yeoni" she waves. I wave back, "your going to see Soobin?" She asks.

I nod, "if that's fine?" I question, of course she nods.

I walk through the empty house going to Soobin's bedroom, the door is shut and it's dead silent behind it.

"Hey, why haven't you been answering your phone?" I speak while pushing the door open.

I see Soobin sitting at the foot of his bed holding a bottle of pills in his hand, he's high.

"Soobin" I call. He looks up at me and it's like a reality check hit him due to his reaction.

"Yeoni" he practically jumps up. I furrow my brows, "you weren't answering because your too busy getting high? Is this what you've been doing all day?" I snatch the pill bottle out of his hand.

He immediately shakes his head, "Yeoni, just...please give me the bottle back" he reaches for them but I pull away.

"Why? I'm tired of sitting by and watching you slowly kill yourself soobin, I won't do that anymore!"

He scoffs, "listen, if you really cared about me, you'd do what I'm asking and give me those pills back!".

I narrow my eyes shaking my head, "I do care about you, which is why I'm not giving them back" I state.

"Please! Yeoni, just..." he pauses letting out a loud sigh, "just give them back".

I sigh, "your better than this Soobin, do you want to overdose again?" I raise my brows.

"Whatever, it's not like you care" he mumbles, "what? I do! Why can't you see that I care?" I shout.

"Because your taking the one thing that's keeping me stable right now!" He shouts back, throwing up his hands.