What a nightmare

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1. Mental health; non existent i am hanging on by a thread rn ngl, but here we are. lets goooooooo

2. Imma try a different format, tell me if u like it or nahh

3. Umm.... Hi

Your pov. 

TW. physical abuse

TW, mentions of sexual abuse

TW, non consensual touching 

I was nervous showing dream around my town, it made me nervous and uneasy. I didnt trust him much still, but I was lying if i said I didnt find him attractive. Which he was, even though id never seen under the mask. Oh if i could just rip it off without fucking dying I would, but i cant.

I was nervous showing him around my house I expected it to be dirty with cobwebs everywhere, but it wasn't it was nice and tidy and it was sparkling from the ceiling to floor. I saw a note stuck to the refrigerator when I walked through my kitchen on the note was said in bold writing '' hey I kept your room clean because I knew that one day you'd come back and I love you - Niki'

I smile at the note, I'm glad that somebody is missing me I feel tears in my eyes and I try my very best to keep them there the last thing I need is to cry in front of dream. 'this is where I used to live' I said emphasizing the word used to because I wanted him to feel guilt. I knew that he wouldn't feel guilt at least not as much as I wanted him to feel but I wanted him to feel something I wanted him to know how much he ruined my life and how much this was all messed up and how this is probably all his fault I mentally remind myself to thank Niki for all that she's done for me. 'it's a really beautiful house' is Aldrin from saying at that moment I'm so mad at him that I could slap him across the face, but I don't I keep my calm and walk up the stairs, he follows me. 'this is my bedroom' I say everything is the same as it was when I left it, 'you can take a few things with you when we leave' he says and I know he's trying his best to try and make me feel better but it's not working, 'thank you' I whispered quietly, it meant a lot that I was able to keep a little piece of home, I saw it as I closed the door to the bedroom ' I don't live here anymore so there's no point showing you around', at this point I could hear guilt in his voice when he says 'of course yeah wanna show me more?' I shake my head 'there isn't anything more to show to be honest when are the elections?' Dream checks his watch 'they are very soon' he says and we walk out of my house. as we walk out I realize that I am not the same person that I was when I lived here the girl who lived there is gone it's not like she died but it isn't like she morphed into the person that I am now it's just like she lived and then she changed but she didn't really change she is who I am but I am not her.

as we were walking I realized how much I missed this place and even though the mansion is falling with all its huge doors and its rooms and its volume and it's music and it's parties I missed the quiet cottage life. and I was never getting it back. gosh I hate did and if anyone asked me 'do you hate dream?' from the bottom of my heart I would answer yes but at the same time I don't how can I hate a man who's trying to get us home back and now I'm torn between two sides of the story the handsome Green Man or well my brother. and I hate this more than anything else in the world.

when we get to the election and being forced to sit with sapnap and George and dream isn't anywhere to be seen. Each person is presenting and I watch when it's time for Tommy and Wilbur I watch and I see join peoples faces I'm sure that this is the one that's going to win I see George being uneasy his leg bouncing up and down it was the moment when he sighed and put his head in his hands when I realized that something is really wrong.

the moment one schlatt walks opened the stage I realized something because behind them stands the man who every one calls Dream.

panic rushes through my entire body I don't believe this I can't believe this this isn't true I'm repeating myself this isn't true. I look at George who just shakes his head, when I look at Sapnap, he doesn't look back. I stare right at Dream, hoping for him to notice me, begging for him too. Hoping for him to stop whatever he's doing. I start to stand up, 'Stop Y/N' Sapnap says quietly, 'You'll only make matters worse'.

I dont listen to him, i cant listen to him, i stand up and slowly make my way to Wilbur and Tommy. I could feel Dream's eyes trailing me, but I didnt care, when beside Wilbur and Tommy, i start talking 'What the hell?' I whisper-yell. 'I dont know' Wilbur says. We are behind the wall to the stage cant be seen from where we stand.  'What the FUCK does that green fucking idiot think hes Fucking doing?' Tommy says louder than we and Wilbur, who shushes him. 'We don't know' I tell Tommy, Gosh why did I wear such a short dress? I was freezing. 'I'll have to leave at the end of the day' I say to them both, 'There is no way I'll be allowed to stay' I start crying and the tears stain my lilac and baby blue dress, George picked it out as he said it matched my, 'aesthetic' though I have many of those.

'Please don't cry, Y/N' wilbur says softly wrapping me in a hug, 'I'm fine' I whisper. 'This isn't fair on me' I say my words muffled by Will's jacket, 'I'm being useless' I say sadly, 'No, you can fight now' Tommy says, 'you have been trained by Technoblade AND Dream, two best fighters ever'

I dont answer because I know its true, but Im not doing anything with my skills, we step out of the corner of the wall just in time to hear Shlatt saying, 'THANK YOU, THANK YOU EVERYONE, and the first thing I do as the New President of L'manberg is to exile TOMMYINNIT AND WILBURSOOT'

everyone was quiet until some of Jshlatt's people including Quackity started to march towards us. 'Run' I say, to Wilbur, 'Keep Tommy safe, Will, Go underground, and go now' Distraction never failed me, so I started running the other way from where I sent Will and Tommy screaming, 'RUNNNNN TOMMY, RUNNNN WILL', as expected the guards ran after me i ran into a tower and smiling to myself as they followed me, 'Naughty little girl' i heard, and I froze, Shlatt had also followed me, 'You almost had me there you know', my heartbeat started racing, 'Lets finish what we started at the dance shall we?' he asked me leaning closer to me, 'Please stop' i whispered, as he got closer to me, His hands stroked me hair, 'Your so pretty you know, its a shame really-' 

And that is when he fell, leaving a very distressed me sitting on the floor, dress up to my knees and messed up hair. I couldnt move, Dream stood above me with his sword out, he must have hit Shlatt in the back of the head. 'Come here' he said softly, but my feet wouldnt move, so he carried me, to his horse and then to HIS house.

I didnt speak to him, I dont think i ever would, not if I could help it, and he didnt try and get me too, I saw the mansion come into view, when we stopped I climbed off the horse myself, slapping away his hands, I walked straight into my room and slammed it shut in his face.