Game of hearts - Kth

Deja Vu

I felt his skin coming to contact with mine. I was trying so hard not to freak out previously when he touched my skin. I dont know for hoe long am I gonna keep this up without melt inside his arms. I need to be strong and conceal my thoughts from him, yet every time he calls my name it feels like my heart will stop its ordinary beating. 

He is slowly destroying me. I am already in the bad mood and he makes it even harder by making me think about him that much. I stared at his hand on my wrist and then locked eyes with him. 

T: You didn't tell me your score... 

He gave me on of his charming, angelic smiles and I got lost in his eyes once again. It was a hard dive this time, that actually got me daydreaming. 

T: Is it an A+? What am I saying... Of course it is... 

He had that genuine smile on. He was way too happy for me about a score I didn't even got. I was embarrassed about my actual grade. 

Y/n: Actually... 

T: Yes?

He slowly let go of my hand but without stopping the intense eye contact. Lately, every time we stare at each other it feels... nice. Its not like we dont like each other. To be honest, its the exact opposite. That's why I am super perplexed about my reactions. Should I let him know that I... like him? Or pretend I still hate him? Should I put an end to this thing? What If he doesn't care about this though and is unbothered about these things? Will I go crazy? Am I already going crazy? Probably...

T: Shortcake... Are you sleeping with your eyes open? Whats your grade? 

He smiled even happier than before. 

Y/n: I took a D... 

And then silence... he stared at me quite perplexed while his and slowly let go of me. He seemed do confused that [rpbably thought I was lying and started laughing.

T: Hey Stop joking around. Whats the score? 

Y/n: I... I am not joking... 

I stared down quite disappointed on myself. How can I be such a failure. Almost an F? Namjoon will kill me. I feel like I am such a failure. Where was my mind the day I was taking that test. I mean I was so worried about Taehyung that didn't pay attention to what I was writing down eventually. 

T: Wait... What? How? 

Y/n: I... I dont know... 

That was truly embarrassing. 

T: Hey, No. Dont be sad over a grade... 

He said but I just couldnt act like his words. I just needed to realise what just happened and punish myself with feelings of insecurity and then pressure myself to the limit until I score my next A! 

Y/n: I... I am not... 

I faked a smile. Taegyung was scanning m face in his attempt to realise If It was fake or not. He probably understood it way too soon so I decided to get out of there before he says anything else.

Y/n: Look Tae... I have something really important to do.... Talk to you later... 

I caressed his arms and then turned my back to him. 

T: Y/n... 

I barely heard his voice while walking away from him. I never turned around. I couldnt... I was preparing myself from death so hearing Taehyung telling me everything is gonna be fine, surely wouldn't help me.

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Cafeteria:

Minho was staring at me with a jaw ready to touch the table. Everyone is super disappointed in me I guess. Apart from Tae who doesn't think D is a failure maybe because he is used on failing every exam.