Game of hearts - Kth

Again and Again

Afternoon: 

I had no tears left in me to pour out. Suddenly I felt so dry and unable to cry. I took a long sigh, wiped my face so I had no evidence of tears and decided to deceive my bed, Finally! I haven't eaten all day, I didnt see my brother... I literally spent an entire day in bed crying... 

So now I knew what I actually had to do. 

Talk to my brother. I mean, he must be so eager and worried about me. I decided to tell him the whole truth even though I hate to talk about it. Maybe I should just tell him parts of the truth  so he wont be worried - But still will that make me feel any better? No, so why would I even try.

The house seemed empty maybe because of the silence I experienced when I exited my room. Did my brother leave? 

I walked down the stairs to realise that the kitchen was an empty place, and leaving me with one last spot to look. I then invade the living room only to find Namjoon sitting on the couch, twirling his thumbs and staring at the floor pretty depressed. He didnt notice I am here cause he was probably thinking about something intensely.

Y/nn: H-Hey... 

He snapped his head towards me ike he was waiting for me. I tried to hide how surprised I felt. 

Namjoon: You are here!

Y/n: Yeah, I am... 

I fake a smile and decide to sit right next to him.Namjoon now turned his entire body towards me. 

Namjoon: I was waiting for you... 

Y/n: Wait, for how long have you been here? 

I giggle in the realisation. 

Namjoon: Not too long... 

Y/n: Oh... 

Namjoon: Six hours... 

Y/n: Yeah definitely not too long.

I joke again and my older brother approaches me.  His one hand lands on the two of mine and holds them. 

Namjoon: I was willing to wait way more than 6 hours...

Y/n: Thank god I walked out before your birthday then... 

I jerked around again. 

Namjoon: You are better, aren't you? 

Y/n: Kinda...

And then silence. I knew by his eyes that I had to talk now. It was my time to explain everything and thats what I tried to do actually. 

Y/n: I love Kim Taehyung... 

I blurred out only to leave a shocked Namjoon on the sofa. He was still unable to believe thatches sentence came out of my mouth;. 

Namjoon: O-Okay... I... Y- well.. Are you joking? 

He was in a lack of words. I only nod and close my eyes, not being ablate look at him after the confession. And when I thought there were no tears left it actually felt like there were.

Namjoon: You were with him the days you were gone, weren't you? 

He figured out everything. Thats when the first tear slid down on my cheeks. 

Y/n: I- I am sorry... 

I almost sob so before tat Namjoon pulled me inside his arms and my tears fell only when I felt his comfort. 

Namjoon: Its okay, Hey dont cry... We are gonna get through everything together... 

He whispered to my ear as a way to make me feel slightly better. It kinda helped at first but everything almost faded away as soon as we both heard someone knocking the door. We had to break the physical contact so we can stare into each other's eyes.