Sorry. || Seulrene

fever dream

seulgi's pov (in this scenario. you are the dear friend.)

Dear friend,
I am writing to you because I haven't for a while. I know I'm someday going to forget you but you won't be mad at me right? Anyways. There have been many many things you've missed. There's someone in my class let's just call her Baechu. All the years I've been depressed I've noticed I wasn't alone. I HAD a support system. That was my very amazing friend. Please don't try to figure out who she is because then you might figure out the vulnerability inside of me, and I really don't want you to do that. I mean nothing bad by this. Honestly. I just need to know that someone out there listens and understands my pain. I need to know that these people exist. You exist.

I think you of all people would understand that because I think you of all people understand me. Or else why would you be reading this? At least I hope you do because I trust you more than you expect me to. I am not somebody that you know a lot about because I stopped communicating. That's why sometimes I wish I could freeze the picture.

So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be. I try to think of my family as a reason for me being alive, especially after my sister stopped going to school one day last spring just to console me from these bullies and all these harsh people in my life.

Someone in my class told me I'm not responsible enough. I tried everything i can to help fix everyones problems , i just have a different way of dealing with people why can't they understand that?

It's not that I'm not responsible enough, they just don't trust me.

Clock is ticking that's for certain.

I wish you'd understand your value because I never could.