my step brother

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MONDAY:

I was dreading going to school today because I miss Harry so fucking much. I wanted to cry all day yesterday but I did and I hate that I miss him so much.

Anne came in my room and turned on my lights and said Abby its time to get up for school I groaned fuckkkk and yawned and stretched.

Ludo got up and jumped off my bed and trotted out of my room. Anne said good morning babe and closed my door. I reopened my eyes and sighed I only have 3 months of school left thank God.

I forced myself out of bed and headed into the bathroom I turned my head and looked at Harry's door and bit my lip. I walked into the bathroom and closed the door and took a deep breath.

I brushed my hair and teeth and also used the bathroom and walked back into my room. I went into Harry's room and stole his hoodie and sweat pants and sprayed his cologne on. I bit my lip at the thought of his smell. I went into my room and put my shoes on.

I grabbed my bag and phone and keys and wallet. I headed into the living room and yawned and told everyone bye and left. I haven't drove in a while I got in my car and locked it I buckled up and groaned fuckkkk. I turned on the car and started the radio I got out of the driveway and left the neighborhood.

A little while later I got to school and parked I got out and locked the car. I sighed and headed into school Lacey and Andy walked with me in the hall and into class. We all sat down i felt my breath hitch in my throat because I started thinking of harry. Andy said hey you ok I said no I miss him Lacey gave me a hug and kissed my cheek. I said thanks she smiled and said of course babe and I blushed and shook my head.

The bell rung and everyone sat down and the announcements came on and I sighed and rolled my eyes. A couple minutes later they ended our teacher took attendance then handed out worksheets. I sighed and started working on them I felt like my heart was going to explode I bit my lip and shook my head and continued working.

A little while later we all turned our papers in to our teacher I felt extremely exhausted. 30 minutes later I asked to go to the bathroom I got up and grabbed the hall pass I walked out of the classroom and walked to the bathroom.

I guess Lucy had to use the restroom as well. I used the restroom and walked back to class Lucy started laughing and said ha bitch he never wanted you I bet he's gonna fuck prettier girls than you.

I turned around and looked at her and shook my head. Lucy said your like so fucking ugly you should go kill yourself no one loves you. I felt my eyes watering and I ran to the classroom and took off the pass and walked to my desk.

Lucy has been bullying me since the first day I got here and I hate it so much. I just hope no one is home I kept hearing what Lucy said. I grabbed my bag and phone and purse and walked out of class and ran out of school crying.

I got in my car and locked it and started driving home I'm not a suicidal person but I was extremely depressed from everything in my life. I promised myself I would never cut but I couldn't take it anymore I wanted relief. I stopped at Walgreens I got razor blades tissues and snacks and continued heading home.

I got home and noticed every one was gone great I headed inside and locked the door. I immediately ran to my room and changed I went into the bathroom with the razor blade. I looked at my wrist and took a deep breath I slide the blade against my wrist I started crying and said no one will love you.

Two more cuts and blood started coming out I quickly grabbed tissues and the first aid kit. Strangely enough I started feeling much better and relaxed I finished in the bathroom and hid the blade and tissues and cleaned my face and threw on a hoodie.

A couple of hours later Gemma and Anne came home I chilled on the couch with Ludo. Anne said what are you doing here I said I didn't feel good they said ok. I smiled slightly and bit my lip we all ate lunch and talked about our day.

A little while later my dad came home and we all ate dinner and hung out as a family. I felt weird knowing I slight my wrist I sighed and continued eating. My dad said Abby why did you come home early I said I didn't feel good. He said ok and didn't press it any further I went to bed early for the night. I also set my alarm for tomorrow so I could wake up early and get ready.