I'll Love You No Matter What // dreamnotfound

Pajamas Pyjamas (ch. 5)

Here's a photo I took like 15 minutes ago (2/27/22 5:45 pm)

TW's: Gender/body dysphoria and unsafe binding

George POV

As I walked through the crowded halls for the 4th time that day my mind wandered off to dream again. He seemed to be taking over my brain with thoughts of him instead of anything else to the point I was worried I would accidentally bump into someone. Luckily it didn't happen during the long journey through the halls to my next class. It wasn't like I knew where I was going, I had a general idea of where the class was. At least I thought I did but who knows.

The 10 minutes given for us to make it to our classes went by fast but luckily this time I made it in time to get a seat in the back. As I looked around I noticed neither of my brothers had gotten here yet. Maybe they were skipping today, although that doesn't seem like something either of them would do. Before I could think of any other ideas on why they might not be here both of them walked in one after the other.

My brothers purposefully sat as far away from me and each other as possible, even going as far as to sit in the front row to do so. I didn't mind though, I was glad that I didn't have to sit near them. I watched both of them sit down and grab some notebook or something out of their backpacks at almost the exact same time. 

The teacher then introduced herself as Mrs. Baker, explaining a little bit about herself before continuing on. "This class has a mix of juniors and seniors, please be nice to each other." She talked a little bit more about the class which was quite boring.

She started on taking attendance, calling out names and then marking them as here or not here. "George?" she asked, startling me slightly as I was zoned out thinking about Dream again.

"Here." I responded quieter than expected but she still heard me so I didn't mind much. 

"Jackson?"

"Here." Jackson was quick to reply, surprisingly loud. 

"Anddddd... Jason?" She looked slightly confused as she said his name for some reason.

"Here." Jason took slightly longer to reply and was definitely quieter. 

The teacher looked up after a second or two, looking even more confused than before. "Are you guys triplets? Or do you have the same last name?" 

My brother Jackson spoke up before I could, which I didn't mind anyway. "No, me and Jason are twin and he's our brother, he's a year younger." Him calling me his brother made me happy even though it happens often now. Everyone has been referring me to as a boy today and even things as small as that make me happy. 

I had completely forgotten what we had been talking about until the teacher spoke up once again. "Oh ok, well you have most of your family in this class then huh?" All three of us nodded in sync. 

The rest of the day went by faster now that I had one of my least favorite classes over with and before I knew it, I was walking back into my house. I slipped my shoes off in the entryway and set them on the shoe rack. As I started to walk up the stairs my mom called me back down, probably wanting to talk to me. Instead of pretending like I didn't hear it like I normally do I decided I would actually go talk to her. It's not that I don't like being with her, I just would rather lock myself up in my room for hours at a time. (I wear a mask with a smile for hours at a timeeee)

My mom struck up a conversation with me immediately after I sat at the kitchen counter. Apparently my brothers had also been asked to talk with my mom since they were sat at the counter on the other side of me. 

It was silent for a few minutes while my mom started cooking something for us. "How was your first day of school?" 

It didn't take me long to think of a response, it was the same everyday and it had become a habit. "It was fine." Not surprisingly my brothers stayed silent, just staring at their phones while I did all the talking. I guess they have some sort of free pass or something since they're almost adults.

She didn't question me further on my answer already knowing what I would say if she did and instead asked another question. "Did you make any friends?"

"Kinda." I wasn't really sure if they were considered friends yet so I kept it short.

My mother looked at my brothers expectantly and they caught on pretty fast, putting their phones away and looking up. "No." They responded at the same time.

"Can I go upstairs now? I'm tired." She nodded her head at me as I stood up from the counter. The walk to my room from the kitchen wasn't long I was just very tired from the first day. Apparently having a lot of anxiety and being stressed all day makes you tired, not that I'm that surprised. 

When I made it to my room I picked out some warm pajamas (I thought it was spelled pyjamas but its saying that it's wrong???) and made my way to the bathroom. 

I quickly looked in the mirror before throwing the pajamas I picked out onto the floor and turning on the shower. As I waited for the water to heat up and the mirror to become foggy I sat on the floor and scrolled through twitter. It felt like it was taking forever but it was probably due to my binder beginning to dig into my sides. I had been wearing it for 9 hours already.

My body definitely wasn't used to this, it was before when I did this all the time but since then I had started properly following binder safety rules. There were still some marks on my sides from having a small binder and overwearing my binder. 

Once the mirror fogged up I changed out of my clothes and got into the warm shower. 

After I finished showering and putting on my pajamas I laid down in my bed and scrolled through different social medias to pass time before I was called down for dinner.

A/N

word count: 1071

So I think I'm back now, sorry for the long break this took me forever to write, as you can see. I started this like the week after my last post and then stopped writing and wrote at the end of February and then I finished writing today/yesterday. Also again, reading, voting, following, and commenting really helps and I appreciate it a lot!!! Thank you so much for 500 reads!!!

3/13/22 11:55 am