Hope is the Thing with Feathers

is it true, dear Sue

When I woke up, sue wasn't there, i looked around the room but there was no sight of her "sue?" I called out. But there was no answer. Maybe she didn't want this anymore....I went over to the side of the bed and took my clothes on again, I went out of the bedroom and saw her at the kitchen making food "good morning beautiful" she said smiled at me leaning backwards on the kitchen counter. "I thought you left for a second" I said smiling walking forwards her.

I pushed her lightly backwards to the kitchen corner and cupped her face in my hands "you're so beautiful" I kissed her lips and she giggled "you know" she said "you're acting like such a top but you're the biggest bottom ever to exiting Emily" she laughed and kissed me "yeah okay okay, but let's talk about something else uh?" She smiled at me "what are you making I asked trying to look over her shoulder. "Eggs and bacon" she said while she turned around so now I was hugging her from behind.

The door opened a little and Clint's hand was over his eyes "you guys have clothes on right?" We both laughed and at the same time said "yes" he came in and saw that sue was cooking "okay Hannah I have to say it's a long time ago I have seen you cooking all by yourself" and gave her a side hug "yeah well if you make the table I will gladly give you some" and then not even 2 minutes later, the dining table was made and ready for the food. Clint sad on one of the chairs, sitting like a child screaming inside of him self for food

Finally the food was ready, and we were eating and having small talk. "I was thinking if you guys wanted to go out on a mission with me? But mostly Kate, Hannah you can stay at home and be safe" he said smiling like a proud dad talking to his two daughters "I'm always down for a mission Clint and you know that, I mean I'm your partner right?" He nodded "we are partners yes" we smiled at each other, and from the corner of my eye I could see Sue smiling at us "you guys, if I'm coming with. I need to be a part of the gang just for a while" Clint looked at her, with a serious face. "Hannah that's only if you can stay safe while helping us, it's not a big mission, but I'm not putting you out there without anything to protect yourself. Got it?" She nodded and it was like they had a secret look because they both giggled. "But Clint where is the mission taking place?" He cleared his throat and said "Amherst, Massachusetts" my brain shut down right when he said that, but I could hear sue coking on her food "wait, Amherst? Why would you have a mission there?" Sue asked him sounds nervous. He looked at us both with a expression of why are acting so weird "why are you guys acting like a town is the scariest thing you have heard?" Non of us said anything, and was just starring at the floor. He talked again "okay well, kingpin in there, and has something going on that shouldn't be happening" I look at him "drug related?" I asked "probably" he said

2 hours later and Clint was in his own motel room again, so we were just on the bed laying next to each other "are we really going back" sue then put her head on my shoulder "I guess we are, maybe it's not that bad. We could go back to where everything happened. From the times in you and your families house and mine" I looked at her with a smile "sue we are family, you married my brother..." she then looked sad and I could feel the sadness too, we both knew this trip would be very emotional but we were going so Clint had help with him, there wouldn't be a chance for him if he was alone over there.

2 days went fast, but they weren't the same after we found out about the trip, Sue was acting weird and was a little distant from me. But I understand why, it's weird to go back to were it all happened and where we should to live hundreds of years ago. I was also scared, I'm scared as hell to how it will feel to be there. And how the town looks like. But enough overthinking, I was at couch watching tv and Sue was in the bed on her phone. I wanna go over to her and just cuddle her but I don't know if she wants space from me, or if she is waiting for me to come to her. I really wanted to talk to Clint about the problem but I couldn't. I got up and took on winter clothes on "Uh Sue I'm gonna take lucky out on a walk" she look away from the phone and then at me "weren't you out on a walk like an hour ago?" I looked around the motel room cause I didn't know what to say "just call me if you need anything okay?" She look at her phone again "yeah sure"

I went out the door and Clint came out of his room too "did we just come out at the same time?" I said a little shocked "I guess we did" he chuckled "now see that's why we're partners" he made a weird face with a smile at me "yeah right Kate, we're are you going by the way?" I could feel the sadness again but tried to hide it "oh you know just taking lucky out for a walk, what about you were are you going" I asked while we went into the elevator "just to walk outside a little, mind if I join you guys?" I pushed the bottom to the lobby "of course not!" We both giggled.

We were at Times Square park, and lucky was just running around playing with a ball in the mouth. So we sat on a bench "hey Kate, I can feel and see on you something is wrong. You know you can always talk with me okay?" I looked down on my hands "yeah I know, it's nothing big, it's just hard on me and Su- Hannah, but nothing special" fuck! I hope he did notice "oh Kate." He took my hand in his "that's how relationships work and are, there are ups and downs and it's always gonna be like that, you guys are young. But I just know that you guys can talk it out okay? I know Hannah, she will be a little away from people till they say something or if she has had enough she will talk to you" I could feel tears in my eyes, I just wish I could tell him everything, the truth. He saw the tears and pulled me into a hug "it's okay"