BURN OUT - niko vilhelm

III. pathetic people

As I heard him saying that he would pay for me to "break his heart" I felt anger going through my whole body. I immediately turned back to face him.
"So you think I'm a fucking whore. A prostitute. How lovely. Good luck finding someone who's willing to tolerate how pathetic you are. Because you are. Can't pull a girl so you rather pay her just to act like she likes you." I said angrily with a louder voice but I wasn't shouting at him. Maybe I sounded a little harsh I wasn't even as mad as I seemed to be. I was just annoyed that he would think I'm that type of girl. Is it the way I'm dressed? I'm wearing a tight black cocktail dress that has black lace on the neckline but it's not a revealing dress at all and I even put on black tights so I wouldn't show that much skin.
"No! I'm sorry that's not what I meant. You look interesting, fun and you look like someone I would.." I interrupted him so he couldn't finish what he was trying to say.
"Fuck." I finished his sentence instead  to save him from the embarrassment of saying what we all know he would've said. He rolled his eyes and opened his mouth to speak again.
"That's not what I wanted to say but I would lie if I said I wouldn't sleep with someone who looks like you. You look like someone I would create in my head as the perfect girl before going to sleep. That's what I meant to say. And yes, guys make fake scenarios in their head before falling asleep too." He laughed a little and put his wavy hair behind his ears. He looked me dead in the eye. I took another sip from his cup while waiting for him to continue complimenting me or making excuses but he didn't say anything else until I opened my mouth to speak. " I'm sorry that I said I'd pay but it's true. I can't expect you to do such a big favour and get nothing in return but I don't know what else I could give you instead of money." He actually seemed nice but that doesn't change the fact that I will not waste my time on a joke. Because it would be a joke for me I couldn't even keep a straight face while trying to seduce him. A little smile appeared on my face while I was thinking about how funny that would be.
"Look I don't even know your name, I know nothing about you and I honestly think this wouldn't work. Try Tinder, your a musician, right? Girls are simps for musicians and you look great as well." I noticed how he smiled when I said the last few words. "I have to go, my friend is waiting for me." I continued.The smile has disappeared from his face, he almost looked sad.
"Could I at least give you my socials in case you change your mind?" He asked and took his phone out of his back pocket.
"I'm not on social media." I lied. I do have Instagram but I barely post plus I don't wanted him to know who I was. You can really figure out a person by looking at their posts and if he'd see mine he would instantly realise that I'm not a busy person, more like a messy one. I did want to see his Instagram though, but it wasn't worth the risk to give him mine.
"Oh, my number then?" I rolled my eyes at him. I totally forgot that before social media people exchanged numbers instead of usernames.
I let him give me his number but I didn't give him mine. I didn't want him to text or call me to bother me with this bullshit.
"It's Niko by the way. My name." He smiled and turned around but turned right back to take his drink from my hand which I was still holding. He smirked one again and finally started walking away.
I was trying to remember where I left my new friend. As I went outside I saw him making out with a curly blonde dude. Thank god he's gay i didn't want him to fall for me or make a move on me. I mean he looks hot but I really wasn't in the mood right now. I quietly walked up to them but I didn't want to interrupt so I just stood there without making a noise. Then I realised how funny it looks that they're kissing  and I'm lighting a cigarette next to them so I decided to speak up, let them know I'm there.
"Hey, sorry to interrupt." They pulled away from each other and looked at me. Manu smiled at me and I could tell he was still high. Unfortunately I wasn't anymore because I had to be serious while talking to that guy.
"Hi. You were gone forever I though you ditched me." He said while his eyes were barely open. I explained them that I caused a little accident in the restroom but I left out that part where a stranger basically asked me to be his girlfriend for money. I could tell that these two wanted to be alone so I said goodbye to them before exchanging socials with Manu. He made me promise that we'll keep in touch and hang out very soon.
I was walking home because I didn't feel like taking the bus. It started raining a little bit but I didn't mind at all. I love the rain but I hate people who say that they love it and then hide under their umbrellas. If you love it, why not enjoy it?  After about 40 minutes of walking I could already see the building I live in but I didn't want to call it a night yet so I decided to sit on a bench in the park in front of my apartment. It was 4:30 AM. I wasn't tired at all, I wanted to feel good before going to sleep so I rolled another blunt and finished it. It was pathetic. Sitting alone in a bench at 4:30 when others are already turning off their alarm clock because they're going to work soon. No, they are the pathetic ones. They wake up earlier than the sun does so they won't be late and face their bosses who they can't stand. Then they get home in the afternoon, tired,they go to bed so they can wake up in the morning . And they do this all over again, every day until they die. I don't want that kind of life.
After a few minutes of thinking about the big questions of life I walked back to my apartment. As I found the keyhole,I noticed a paper on my door. I used the flashlight on my phone to see what it said. I sighed as I read the words.
"Awesome." I whispered.