𝐁𝐑𝐎𝐊𝐄𝐍 𝐖𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 , carl grimes

No Control.

Ignoring the door completely, too tired to care.

Eyes closing, the comforting dark consuming me, Carl whispering his day in detail, not realizing I was fully asleep.

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Waking up, the sun reaching my face as it woke me up from the deep sleep I was previously in.

The big window in front of me displayed the Alexandria grounds and a couple of people working on their chores.

Yawning and checking my surroundings, a yarn blanket covering my body, on the couch i fell asleep in yesterday night.

Looking over at the couch beside me was quinn curled up in a thinner blanket wrapped up in herself,
Enid in the kitchen smiling at the resting girl, giggling at the sight of unsaid feelings.

"Falling in love?" I whispered to Enid while waving my fingers in her face.

Her pushing my fingers out of her face and throwing her head back, a smile creeping on her face "god, do you ever shut up" she laughed.

"Unfortunately, no" my smile getting bigger as the silence entered.

Leaving Enid's area to fold the blankets, nicely hanging the blanket off of the couch, saying quiet goodbyes to Enid, feeling the mix of hot and cold reach my body.

Walking over to my own house, knocking on the door, someone pulling me by my arm into the house, surprisingly the face to the hands were rick.

Furrowed eyebrows, confused on the aggression.

"Where were you yesterday night" he questioned.

"on the couch.. sleeping?" Sounding more confused then confident.

"What's with the investigation?" I quietly asked.

"Negan" he whispered almost like it was dangerous to say, like a curse of some sort.

My eyes going wide just at the name, for no reason always fucking with us, all that came out of my mouth was a scared "oh".

"We have to go on a run" he spoke more loudly, "just in case we get closed in" he explained to everyone.

"We can't, someone's gonna get injured and what about the babies, who'll stay with them" I panicked.

"Maggie, carol and Aaron" he told me.

Gulping hard just nodding excepting whatever Rick is suggesting.

Handing me a gun and a medium sized knife, immediately walking out going to gather everyone else up.

Looking at Aaron, mouth open, wanting to speak and protest to even going but nothing came out, eyes glossy, worrying about everything that could go wrong.

Aaron standing up pulling me into a hug, quieting down my fears and reassuring ricks plan.

Closing my eyes wishing I could stay here forever.

But the father-daughter moment getting interrupted by a knock on the open door.

Eyes moving towards Carl, he gave a small wave and and a now turning frown.

Leaving the hug, patting bea on the head giving her a smile.

Walking out into the now cold weather, sticking by Carl, nerves too high to leave his side.

Taking a deep breath before leaving the gates, Carl grabbing my hand interlocking it with his, a reassuring smile on his lips that speaks "everything will be fine".

Keeping my gun close in my other hand, staying in the back of the group, just in case.

Looking down at my shoes, deep in thought, not noticing Carl's hand left mine a little bit ago.

Bumping into the person in front of me, and having a repeating apology coming from my mouth until I looked up.

Acting quick putting my gun against his head "do not fucking move" I ordered.