A Friendship To Keep (une amitié à garder)

ARGUMENT

Georges expressed a void of emotions in his thundering consciousness. He did know that that's what's gonna happen but it is still a surprise for him for Father Trennes to have the urge to directly say the truth. Georges was feeling his chest getting heavier, carrying a weight of anger. He's trying to restrain himself so he clutched his fist in a very tight grip. You can see his eyes getting serious, smaller and bolder. His eyebrows remain as he kept a straight eye to Father Trennes as if he's looking to his soul. Georges keep a straight body but with a broken heart. His mind cannot comprehend what he's feeling. A mind of disappointment, he looked at Father Trennes for a long time in silence. The environment where they're in remained its quietness as the two tried to fathom the truth that makes Georges' acceptance even harder. In Father Trennes' eyes, his soul was showing an empty space, leaving only worry and fear. His remorse was obvious to the eyes of a grown up Georges. Father Trennes' breath's became slower but his heart is pumping like it's getting ready to explode. He's ashamed of what he did back the but at the end of the day, it is the right thing to reveal the truth, that was once hidden. Father Trennes looked down on the ground he's standing. Father Trennes gulped and tried to act closer near Georges again. As he walk bowing down, he noticed that Georges didn't stepped back. There are no signs of movement or footsteps' sounds as he move towards him. When Father Trennes saw that their shoes were only a meter apart, he stopped. He glanced to the ground and while doing, a drop of tear fell noticeable. Father Trennes was stiffed. He stopped glancing in the ground and he looked up to Georges. He saw a face of war and demolitions. It seems like the heaven and hell are fighting through his eyes. Georges looked up to the sky, avoiding his tears to fall down. His eyes are keeping it up together as it became stiff. His hands are still clutching so tightly. His chest became heavier and heavier. A restraint is still seen absolutely evident. Georges thought that his restraint wouldn't do anything. It wouldn't stop his emotions and the fact that he's with the one that caused it. His chest is constricting so hard and he thought of letting it out. He has no other choice but to run away or burst out. Running away is a difficult choice, a tough choice, as he's gonna cope with his madness by himself. While looking at the sky above, he took a heavy breath. Georges let go of his clutched hands and opened it widely. He looked at Father Trennes with burning eyes. He managed to glare at him for a moment. Georges became intimidating to Father Trennes. As someone who's older than a child for decades, it's not a problem for them to become intimidating, but for Father Trennes, and Georges, he sought fear and guilt that made him undeniably vulnerable.

Coming from the quietness, Georges couldn't help it anymore and he shouted with rage,
"YOU!" The word was loudly delivered that even of a place hidden, the anger heard from his voice was clearly heard from the whole campus. Good thing that no one close to them is around. Georges continued raging with anger. "Father Trennes, YOU... You are the root of every bad things that happened and now...
I am the only one taking the consequences, taking ALL the consequences." He said. Specific words were emphasized by him through a deafening shout.

When Father Trennes heard those words, he was startled. He stopped a breath and just stared at Georges' hell. It's his first time being scared with a kid, but atleast this time, it isn't the fear from a child, but it's the fear from the truth. Father Trennes continued his heavy breathings and is now, restraining his emotions, as what he noticed Georges did earlier. He's feeling a deep well of shame, guilt as the water filling it and madness as the last touch. Father Trennes couldn't get angry with him as he knows that Georges suffers the worse. Though, there is still a room for madness because of how Georges acted to him. Father Trennes said in his mind that grief comes naturally, that he needed to understand it and now, he is taking his own consequence. Father Trennes was still shocked of what Georges said but he can't deny what he did, time had passed, together with his witless actions. While living the truth, a thought came to his mind. It's not Father Trennes' fault that Alexandre died, it's Georges' choices that led to a tragic end. Now, Father Trennes is fighting a debate with Georges in his mind. The atmosphere remained silent still but with both of their heads having explosive thoughts. Father Trennes knows what he is doing and he holds the truth, the secrets and the untolds. He realized that in that moment, it is not the right time to correct someone, but rather, to give sympathy.

Father Trennes came close to the small chair near the hut and he sat. He did his best to stay calm and restrain his feeling for the child deprived of love. He sat there and looked at Georges. He offered Georges to sit next to him in front, with the other chair. Georges was irresponsive and expectedly said, "No Father". Georges stared at Father Trennes' original position earlier and he suddenly shed tears. He's constantly wiping his eyes and face with his arms trying to remove the marks of sadness, and even the sadness itself. Father Trennes did understand Georges, but not in a bigger aspect. He sat on the chair, with a bended body leaning forward. He rubbed his knees in a circular motion as if he's in a confession. Father Trennes, on the other hand, was stomping his feet as if he's nervous. He looked at the outside corner of the hut and avoided Georges' eyes. After, he let his lips say the words. He is not looking into Georges but his phrases are obviously direct to Georges. Father Trennes quoted these words while looking afar:

"Georges, I know... you are the one who's most affected by his death. You suffered the most. You didn't gave him a helping hand when he's passing through the light."
"You had great times with Alexandre, right? You grasped and seized those beautiful moments, considering the laws of school, and the religion. How overwhelming Georges, my grief wouldn't even comprehend yours."

Georges heard everything and began to flinch. He wept loudly for a moment. Clutching again his hands. Father Trennes knew that what he said was kind of offending to Georges but he thought of one things. His thought was brought to words. He said, "I'm sorry for the blunt dictate, but my child, Georges, moving on is not cutting off and disregarding the truth. Moving on is acceptance of what was real, and what is real."