~T. YAMAGUCHI'S POV~I am currently infront of my mirror rehearsing how to come out to my parents. I'm probably doing it a little too late, considering I already have a boyfriend (Tsukki) for 2 months now. But it's ok, I've finally gathered all my confidence and I'm ready to do it.
I walk down the stairs to the living room, finding both my parents there watching some soapie I dont know. Once I finally make it there, the confidence I had just built for the last half hour was starting to crumble.
"Umm mom" I coughed out, "dad?" Why can't I speak like a normal person right now oh my gosh!
"Oh yes Tadashi, do you need anything" Mom asked with a small smile. Oh she's in a good mood, I can use that to my advantage.
"Well I just wanted to tell you something" I said, my voice wavering.
"Go on then" Dad encouraged now giving me his full attention.
"Im" I took a deep breath as the word got stuck in my throat, "I'm bisexual" I said really fast as I shut my eyes real tight waiting for an answer
"Oh, ok. Is that all you wanted to say?" Dad asked
"Yes it is" I answered opening up my eyes again.
"Ok then" he replied and looked back at the TV, his attention back on overdramatic soapie that's playing.
I was so relieved that he didn't really seem to care, but in a good way. I just know that if he was against it ,that would NOT have been his reaction, but he took it as just some new information that he just keeps in his brain. I'm really glad. I started smiling so wide ...until...
" TADAKO, how are you going to allow our kid to be a f****t, he cant even decide if he likes men or women!!!" Mom literally screams out.
"Well Himari, I don't really care who our son likes as long as he's happy with that person." Dad said calmly while his eyes were still on the TV
Mom looked at me before she spoke, "Tadashi, to your room right now and I want you to sit and think about everything wrong you have just done, and come apologize for being crazy tomorrow morning."
I just nodded, not wanting my mom to be angry. I went upstairs but not into my room. Instead I went into my brother's. I saw him there laying on his bed and I immediately jumped onto him and snuggled with him.
"'Dashi? What's wrong, I heard mom screaming earlier, does it have anything to do with you?" He asked with concern laced through his voice.
I tried talking but it was muffled by his chest, so I had to move from my all too comfortable position to a just 1% less comfortable position."I may or may not have come out as bisexual just a few minutes ago" I said so quietly, he almost couldn't hear. Almost.
"Oh, did mom not like that or something?" My older brother asked, still very worried.
"She called me the f-slur and called me crazy." I said, tears welling up at what actually happened a few minutes ago.
"Oh, I'm so sorry 'Dashi." He said and he started hugging and cuddling me while I sniffled. It was really quiet (except for my sniffling ofcourse) and a breeze from the open window hit us. I was really starting to relax.
"Umm, 'Dashi can you keep a secret" he asked looking down at me. All I did was nod, encouraging him to go on.
"Well, I wanted to come out to mom and dad too, but now I'm too scared after what happened with you...so can I just come out to you?"I looked up at him and smiled, nodding. We rearranged ourselves into a sitting position on the bed, both our legs crossed.
"Um well, I'm a girl. Before you say anything, I mean that I myself am a girl and I dont like the body I was born in" he- I mean she sighed trying to get her composure. "I'm transgender"
Silence
"Oh so you want me to call you as "she", "girl" and stuff like that from now on?" I asked trying to understand better.
"Yeah, I dont really want to change my name. I still find some real comfort in the name and don't wanna leave it, y'know?" He- she asked.
I still need to start getting used to that, but I'll get it eventually.
"Yeah, ok." I smiled at her and we went back to cuddling and and soon I heard a
BANG
I noticeably flinched at the sound. Over it I could hear my mom screaming from down stairs.
"I WILL NOT BE ACCEPTING SUCH A THING. WHO WOULD WANT TO HIRE HIM NOW, HE THINKS HE LIKES BOYS FOR GOODNESS SAKE!!!" She yelled. I can immediately tell this conversation is about me.
That made me really upset and I started crying. My broth- sister couldn't really help me seeing as she had already fallen asleep. I was alone, listening to my mom scream bad things about me while I cried.
I could not really hear what my dad said seeing as he spoke at a regular human volume.
This fight went on almost everyday and got worse when mom found out about Kohaku's gender.
Ugh, my family is going downhill and it's all my fault. If I never came out, maybe this would have never happened. If I just shut my mouth and let mom and dad enjoy their day, this would have never happened. Maybe...maybe, if I never me Tsukki, this would have never happened. I would probably be as straight as a stripper pole if I didn't meet Tsukki. It's all my fault.
It's all my fault
It's all my fault
It's all my fault
It's all my fault
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I'm finally back from a 2month hiatus and the first thing I post is angst💀
How wonderful :)
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Fanfic||DISCONTINUED|| People get suprised at Tsukishima showing emotions other than annoyance or anger. He questions how he is supposed to express himself when others find it weird for him to be happy He and his boyfriend (Yamaguchi) need to show people...