a month later.
i still wasn't over matt, even in the slightest bit. he was my best friend who has been there for me through it all. He was the breath of fresh air i desperately needed, he pulled me up when i left like i was drowning in everything going on. i've always loved him, and he loved me.. to a certain extent.
The four of us were all hanging out in my room, just listening to music and talking.
"y'all want something to eat?" Matt asked.
"Like.. from somewhere?" Nick asked.
Matt nodded his head and we all agreed, so since he was the only one who could drive the van, he drove and picked food up.
"I gotta go to the bathroom, i'll be back" Nick told us, before walking into the hall.
That took care of the two of them so now it was just Chris and i.
"Soo.. how's matt?" Chris asked, forcing an awkward smile.
"Good.. why do you ask?"
"Brin, you don't have to play dumb i already know." he assured me.
"Know what.?" i asked furrowing my brows, wondering if maybe there was some possibility he didn't actually know.
"About you and matt, i know you both like each other."
"He likes me?" i asked, genuinely surprised. I knew he did like me, but i didn't know if he still did after what he pulled that one night on my roof.
"Are you serious? i've never seen Matt this down bad about someone before. he's a mess, Brin. He really, really likes you, but he keeps trying to deny it to himself because he's scared as hell." Chris blurted at me like i was dumb.
"Scared of what, exactly?" i was just confused and didn't know what he could possibly be scared of.
"Scared of losing you. He loves you more than life itself, and so do Nick and i.. but his is on a much different level of love."
The words felt good to hear, like a relief and a sense of reassurance, but a different part of me felt even more sad.
"I tried Chris, i really truly did, but now i'm done trying. It's a lost cause. however i'm also not going to deny what went down, of course it happened, and there wasn't a way to go back and say it didn't." i breathed.
"Brin, he needs you. Nick and i have tried to cheer him up but he needs you. If you love him like you say you do, then you won't give up on trying." he promised, placing a hand on my shoulder.
I nodded my head. hopefully i'll have the courage to even try to talk to him.
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Later that night the triplets were at home and it was around Midnight, and i was exhausted so i figured i ought to get some rest.
I got into my pajamas and braided my hair before climbing into bed, snd dozing off.
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2:07am
i woke up practically jumping out of my skin, feeling like i was drowning. it felt like all the air had been sucked out of my lungs and out of the whole world. i tried breathing but i couldn't slow down. my dad.. i had a dream about my dad. A dream of where i found him, lying in the hospital bed, and the line going flat. Me screaming for a doctor, and being separated from him while they tried bringing him back to life.. but it didn't work. Tears started coming out of my eyes faster and faster, and my heart was beating quicker than ever before. I grabbed my slippers and tossed them on, grabbing my keys on the way out the door. i got into my car and started to drive. I pulled over on the side of the road just bawling my eyes out until they hurt. I miss my dad more than anything and i'd kill for him to
come back, for five more minutes.. just for one last hug.
matty:
night brin.
Just seeing his name pop up on my phone triggered an instant reaction to drive to his house.
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2:23am
i pulled into their driveway and went to open the door but it was locked. i started digging around in the small patch of garden next to the door, looking for the hidden key inside the fake rock. I found it and turned the lock right away, trying to muffle my now quieter cries as i walked up the stairs and my first thought was to walk to matt's room. He was already asleep by now, hence the fact he fell asleep quickly, i set my phone down and the keys on the table next to his bed and crawled under the covers as gently as i could, trying not to wake him. I snuggled up against him still crying, when he opened his eyes.
"what.." he started to say before he saw my state.
He turned to me and pulled me closer, holding my back and the back of my head. he asked no questions, and said nothing more before we drifted to sleep.
a/n~ THANK YOU for 400+ reads. i cant believe last night i was at 100. love you all. -liv <3
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