let me love you. | matt sturniolo

two

I woke up to the smell of food. i heard the triplets talking so i just stayed still.

"So you liked it?" i heard chris say.

"Yeah he totally did." Nick agreed laughing.

"shut up jerks, i mean yeah kind of.. but she's my best friend. That won't work out and i'm not going to risk it."

"Dude she's wearing your shirt! That's gotta count for something." Chris nudged him.

"Hmm.. maybe because we told her she could instead of sleeping with jeans on stupid."

At this point, it was crystal clear they were talking about matt and i's kiss yesterday, and i didnt wanna hear the rest so i got up as they turned to me to say good morning.

"How'd you sleep?" Matt asked.

'Fine." i replied shortly.

I grabbed a piece of toast off of Nicks plate and shoved it into my mouth.

"I should probably get going. I'll see ya'll later." I said grabbing my jeans and sliding them on quickly before leaving.

Before i left i heard matt yell after me, "Whos driving you?"

I paused for a moment before yelling back, "I'll walk."

Feeling bad for blowing them off so fast, i began walking down the sidewalk. Honestly, i was upset.. and honestly i didn't know why. in the back of my mind, i knew Matt was right. the two of us wouldn't work, and if we didn't, it would ruin our friendship.. so id just have to push these deeper feelings back down where they came from.

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Nick

You good? You completely dipped as soon as you woke up.

Me

Im fine, just tired

I tried my best to watch what i said, trying not to sound suspicious in even the slightest. stuff  happens, and now i've gotta do my best to forget about it and pretend it didn't happen.

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for the next couple days i didn't hang out with the triplets. after hours and hours of trying to deny it.. i couldn't stop the feelings i had and i knew if i saw matt it would get worse.

when the four of us finally hung out i hung out in the backseat with Nick, and to be honest, it was crystal clear i was kind of avoiding matt. yes i felt bad, but i was outta luck and it was a lose lose situation.

we had gotten lunch and we're now at the mall shopping.

"what do you think of this shirt?" Matt asked me holding up a grey tee.

"it's cute." i replied, shrugging vaguely.

"What about this one?" Chris asked.

"Oh that's super cute where did you find that?" i said with more enthusiasm this time, not even purposely.

"it's a men's shirt." chris chuckled.

"your point?" i began walking to the mens shirt section when i felt matt pull me behind one of the isles.

"what the heck matt"

"what's wrong. why are you being rude and short with me?" he asked me, leaning against a wall with his arms crossed.

"i'm not!" i said defensively.

"what are you on, yes you are!" i could tell me being distant was bugging him and he was clearly irritated but i had no other choice.

"okay we'll i'm not trying to so get off me."

i began walking away when matt said, "is this about our kiss the other day."

i stopped dead in my tracks, tuned around, and said.. "what kiss?" before walking away.

I felt like a complete jerk snd i knew i shouldn't have been so mean.. but i really am in a tough situation right now.

i had a thing for him, a genuine feeling for him, and i wasn't going to let that mess up an almost thirteen year friendship.
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a/n sorry this is super short, i'm lacking motivation rn but i'm trying to upload decently enough for you guys. thank you for 100 reads<3