let me love you. | matt sturniolo

six

over the next couple of days i could tell matt was avoiding any and all contact with me. m

he was also being super short and dry when i would try to talk to him.

me:
hey

matty:
yo

me:
y'all gonna film tn?

matty:
yah nick wants u 2 be in it

me:
i'm down

matty:
k pick u up l8ter around 10.

me:
matt

matty:
ya

me:
r we good?

matty:
yeah y wouldn't we b
me:
nvm

i honestly can't even deny the fact that i was nervous to see him, sometimes i feel like i'm slowly getting over him little by little and then i see him and it all comes back.

the whole day i just tried to look my best for tonight, i braided my hair, washed my face, and did a ton of stuff just so i would be a stunner when i saw Matt.

I threw on a cute outfit and took out my braid. At about 9:45 the triplets pulled into my drive way.

i got into the van and buckled my seatbelt next to nick. "Hey guys"

"what's the video for today?" i asked, trying to break the silence. i could sense a vibe that everyone was s little but uncomfortable.

"This or that." Matt said.

i nodded my head pursing my lips together awkwardly.

"Okay let's just start." Chris said flipping the camera on.

"Is it on?" Nick bugged him.

"Yes, Nick. i just turned it on." he said shouting back.

Matt and i laughed, mine clearly more convincing than his.

"Okay first question.." Nick began, "pancakes or waffles."

"waffles." i stated without hesitating.

"Agreed." Matt said, nodding.

"Okay Next.. bagels or toast?" Nick asked, screen shotting the question so he could put it in the video after editing.

"Why are these all breakfast?" Chris asked laughing,"but imma have to go with toast."

"Yeah, same. bagels are good but toast always hits different." Matt said.

Nick chose bagels, always being the odd one out, but i agreed with Matt and Chris.

We Finished the video with matt giving the camera a gentle little kiss like he always does, before they dropped my off at my house.

"thank you guys for picking me up, love you." i said, smiling and opening the door.

"Let me walk you in." matt insisted, also getting out and walking besides me, up the stairs of my front door.

"I'm sorry brin.. for the way things ended the other day at lunch, and for being kinda dry." he said rubbing his neck.

"It's okay, it's always kind of awkward after.. but i meant everything i said the other day Matt. Think about it." I said giving him a quick peck on the cheek and walking inside, where i dropped my bag and took my shoes off. Before the door was completely shut i could hear Chris cheering from the car, and nick yelling.

I leaned against the door smiling, just imagining the look on matt's face right now after what the other boys did.

I didn't really try to talk to matt s lot tonight, i'm trying to give him his space, so he can figure things out without feeling trapped by me. did it suck having to stay kind of distant from my best friend? yeah. but hopefully it would be worth it. All i truly wanted was for matt to be happy, whether that was with or without me. I loved matt, i loved him as a best friend.. and as something more. hopefully he felt the same, now or in the future.

a/n- short chapter, thank you guys for 1.6k i love you all and thank you for choosing my story<33