The Death of Me

Love You Red

((Courtney POV))
I want to be by Dave's side till the day I die but I want to be by James side as I'm dying.
"Love me forever". Those are the words James spoke to me last night before we fell asleep. That's the thing though. I will love him forever but I also want to love Dave for forever. I don't want to pick between the two of them and I don't want to hurt either of them. I could always have a relationship with one and a secret relationship with the other but I would feel bad. There's 3- way relationships but that wouldn't work with them. I don't know what to do but I know I have to make a decision soon.
I slowly got out of James embrace and stood up from the bed. I needed to talk to my best friend. I'm sure he would help me.
I made my way up to Kirks room and opened the door slowly. He was laying on his back sleeping with his hair covering his face. I slowly sat on the bed and pulled his head into my lap while brushing curls out of his face. After about 20 minutes he slowly opened his eyes
"Good morning love", he spoke.
"Good morning Kirky", I said back.
"You look upset what's wrong?", he questioned.
I explained everything to him and told him how I loved both of them.
"I wish you loved me as much as you loved them.", he spoke softly.
"What? Kirk I love you more than anyone in this world.", I said confused.
"It's not the same. You love me as a best friend and all I've ever wanted was to be the one you fall in love with.", he spoke.
A tear streamed down my face,
"You like me like that Kirk?"
"Of course I do. I was planing on trying to win you over months ago but then James swept in and stole your heart.", he said.
"Dammit Kirk why didn't you tell me this sooner. I've loved you since the day you invited me to come play with you and Izzy! I always wanted you. Throughout all this time it was you who I wanted!", I exclaimed with tears streaming down my face.
Kirk pulled me close to him before speaking,
" I love you Courtney. I really do but, for right now you need to pick between James and Dave. I promise I'll always be here for you and if one of them fucks up, I'll be here. I'll take you wherever you wanna go and I'll marry you."
I smiled up at him,
"Thank you. I love you Kirk."
He sweetly kissed my lips before laying me down on the bed and undressing me.
"Can we do this one last time?", Kirk asked.
I smiled at him before nodding my head yes.
An hour went by of me and Kirk having sweet sex before we both laid back on the bed.
"You'll never know, how much I really like you.", he whispered into my hair.
I kissed him one last time before getting up.
"You'll always be my best friend Kirk. And I'll always love you more than anyone.", I spoke before walking out the door.
((Nikki's POV))
This fucking sucks man. Yesterday Vince, Tommy, and I decided it would be a greatttt idea to put Dave to the test to see if he deserved Courtney back in his life. Let me tell you that fucking backfired. We all expected Dave to wow us and prove to us that we were wrong but it didn't go that way at all. In fact I almost killed him multiple times and if murder wasn't gonna get me life in prison I would have 1000% killed him. So anyways on to what happened, we started questioning him and his answers fucking sucked.
"Why do you want Courtney?"
His fucking answer was
"She's hot and sex is amazing."
Let me say, it only got worse from there.
He never really loved Courtney how we thought he did. It broke my heart because I knew she really loved him and to find out he didn't feel the same didn't make me feel good at all. But on top of everything I hated that I would be to one to have to break it to her. We told Dave to just fuck off and he did. The last words he said were,
"Tell Courtney she's a fucking worthless whore. The only good thing about her is her pussy."
As soon as those words fell out of his mouth Vince punched him and knocked him to the ground. He eventually got up and stumbled off and I put my head down in disbelief.
"I can't fucking believe him. How could he say that? Courtney's fucking amazing and anyone would be completely blessed to have her in their life!" I ranted.
The three of us decided to go back to our house for the night and plan out how we would tell her. Of course they decided that I would have to tell her so I prepared what I would say. I had to prepare to break her heart.
The next day we got up and headed over to the Metallica house. We walked in and saw Mick sitting on the couch watching tv.
"Hey how'd it go?", he asked.
We explained everything to him and I could see the anger rising in him.
"Where is she? I need to go tell her.", I spoke sadly.
He pointed towards her room so I began walking down the stairs. I slowly pushed open her door and saw her laying on the bed deep in her thoughts.
"Hey red", I spoke.
She looked up before giving me a small smile,
"Hey Nikki".
"Is Dave upstairs?", she asked.
I let out a sigh and sat on the bed.
"No red he's not."
I started to explain everything to her. Every tiny little detail, every word, every emotion. Once I finished she slowly looked up at me.
"I'm so sorry honey.", I spoke softly.
A small tear fell down her face,
"It's okay, I guess.", she spoke.
I pulled her close to me and held her in my arms as she softly cried.
"Well I didn't want it to end this way but at least I know who to pick now", she spoke softly.
"What do you mean?", I asked.
"I really love James, Nikki. I had to choose between Dave and James and it was killing me but now I know for sure who I'm picking.", she responded.
"So your not mad at me?", I spoke.
"Why would I be mad at you? You just saved me a lot of time and pain and I appreciate that so much. Thank you Nikki.", she said.
I smiled down at her,
"Love you red, now go get your man!"
"Haha love you too Sixx", she responded.