The Death of Me

House of Pain

((Courtney's POV))
      After dropping the Guns guys off at the airport we went home and I started working to occupy my mind. The week went by fast and soon it was Friday. Jason and Ronnie were at the house with me and the Crüe and we were all sitting around the tv waiting for our new song to play. Soon the hostess person came on and spoke.
"Alright this band is called The Clovers and members include Courtney Rose, Jason Newstead from Metallica, and Ronnie Star. Here's their new song, Satan's Child!."
This was the first time I would see the video all done and I was so excited. It started to play and I watched the screen as me, Duff, Steven, and Izzy appeared on the bed. Everything looked so cool.
"Look there I am!", Tommy yelled.
We all laughed and continued watching. I was watching the part of me and Axl and it looked so cool and then all the shots of me in the bed with everyone came on. I couldn't stop thinking about the shot with me and Steven cuddled up in the bed. We looked good together. Eventually the final scene was coming up and me and Jason looked at each other before looking back to the tv. It was great and you could clearly see the Metallica album burning in the background. It ended and we all clapped and celebrated before the host came back on.
"Wow. Well that was amazing! I can't wait to hear the album!", she said.
I smiled big at the tv and Jason and Ronnie pulled me into a hug. Soon I heard the phone ringing so I went and picked it up.
"Hello?", I asked.
"Holy shit we just watched the video and it's amazing!!", Steven exclaimed from the phone.
"Thank you Stevie.", I responded.
Soon all the guys came and were talking to me through the phone and then steven came back.
"I miss you Courtney", steven spoke.
"I miss you too Steven.", I responded.
"We'll we gotta go on stage but I love you.", Steven said.
"I love you too cutie.", I said.
We ended the phone call and I went back to the living room. Nikki was giving me a knowingly grin and I returned it. I sat down on the couch and we continued to watch the tv before we went to bed. Ronnie and Jason left and I told my guys goodnight before I went to my room and started writing. That's how I occupied my time now. I wrote song after song and between me and Jason we already had all the songs for the album. We just needed to record a few more and we were done. I fell asleep and before I knew it a new day was already starting. I occupied myself with meetings and band practices and studio time. Soon the days were all blurring together and weeks had passed by. I talked to the Guns guys everyday but I was always sad with them being gone. The Clovers played shows every week and it was amazing. We were starting to get popular and everything felt great with the music. I was sitting in my bed going through magazines and then I picked up a newer one. On the cover was a clip from my music video and it was the clip with me, Duff, Steven, and Izzy on the bed. I flipped to the article about us and I stared at all the paparazzi pictures. There was pictures of me and Duff, me and Steven, and me and Izzy.
"Which Guns n Roses member is Courtney going for?", the page read.
I rolled my eyes at it and continued looking at the pictures. My eyes landed on a picture of me and Steven. We were on the sidewalk and our lips were connected. I really miss Steven.
I decided to get up and get ready because the Clovers had an interview with MTV today. Our song Satan's Child had become really popular and our band was starting to get really popular at all the bars and clubs we played at. Eventually we were all walking into the MTV studio and we were met with a small lady.
"Hello! I'll be interviewing you guys today. You can follow me.", she spoke.
We all followed her out to where it would be filmed and took a seat. All three of us were on a couch they had set up and the lady was sitting beside us in a chair. Soon the interview started and the lady was asking question after question.
"So how's the album coming along?", she asked.
"It's coming along really quickly. We're actually almost finished with it.", Jason spoke.
"That's awesome. So Courtney, in the music video it shows you in the bed with some of the Guns n Roses members. What's your relationship with them?", she asked.
"Well I love them all so much and they're all my best friends. They flew off of tour to film the video with me and I couldn't be more grateful for them.", I spoke.
"Oh nice. There's rumors that your dating one of them?", she stated.
"Oh no, not yet", I spoke.
The interview smiled and continued asking questions about our music and whatnot and then the question we were waiting for.
"So Can you guys explain the last scene in the video?", she asked looking at me and Jason.
"Yeah so that was just a big fuck you to Metallica and James.", Jason spoke.
"Oh well what happened with them?", she asked.
This time I spoke up.
"Well I was dating James for a while and then he all of a sudden broke up with me for something I didn't do.", I said.
I continued to explain every little detail to the lady and I could tell she was happy with my response.
"But yeah fuck Metallica. Well except for Lars. I love you Lars!", I spoke.
I made a heart with my hands and held it up to the screen letting Lars know we still love him. He already knows that but still.
Soon the interview ended and we waved to the cameras before they cut off. We were all really happy and we made our way outside. Our manager came up and spoke.
"Album release date is two weeks from now.", he said.
"That's great. We only have two more songs to record and we'll be done.", I spoke.
"Alright well you guys have a photo shoot tomorrow for the album cover and all that so be there at 1.", he spoke.
We all agreed and then the band decided we wanted to go to the studio and finish these songs. We got there and started working hard and by the time the sun was setting we had an album finished. I was so happy so I went over to the phone and dialed a number.
"Hello?", Steven spoke from the other end.
"Guess who just finished an album!", I spoke.
Steven got excited and we talked for about thirty minutes catching up on everything.
"Oh yeah by the way Duff has a girlfriend now apparently.", Steven spoke.
"Oh wow good for him.", I spoke.
"What about you?", I asked.
"My girl is in LA sitting in her studio on the phone with me.", he spoke softly.
I smiled big and blushed at his comment.
"I can't wait to see you again Stevie. I miss you. I miss your touch.", I said softly.
"God I miss you too baby. I can't wait to hold you again and kiss your sweet lips.", Steven spoke.
I smiled at his comment and eventually the phone call ended.
I was really glad Duff found a girl. That just made things a whole lot easier for me.
I went home and went to sleep and let my days continue to blur together. We did the photo shoot and the album cover looked really cool.
I hadn't had sex since the guys left and I was getting desperate. One night I was sitting in the living room with the Crüe guys and I decided to sit on Nikki's lap. I could feel him grow hard from under me so I knew I was gonna get what I wanted tonight. Eventually we went to his room and started making out. We were both needy and ripping each other's clothes off before Nikki slammed me on the bed and crawled on top of me. He roughly spread my legs open and pulled me to him before roughly sliding into me. Soon the room was filled with moans and I felt great. Nikki flipped me over and I arched my back before he slid into me from behind. We both were watching the mirror in front of us and I could see Nikki throwing his head back and groaning. I was clutching onto the bed sheets and screaming his name as he violently fucked me. Soon we both reached our highs and fell back onto the bed and went to sleep. My days started passing by fast again and soon it was the day of our album being released. We were playing a show for it at the Whiskey and we were all really excited. I had just got off the phone with the Guns guys and I started to finish getting ready. Soon we were walking out on stage and I was shocked by all the people there. All of my friends were there except the guns guys and Lars. We started the first song and the energy immediately went through the roof. People were banging their heads and flying around and I was running back and forths on stage. I looked down and I saw Jr from Meagdeth standing there banging his head. We looked at each other and I smiled while he returned it. Even though everything went to shit with Dave I was still friends with the rest of the guys.  We played song after song giving it all that we could and it was amazing. When we left the stage everyone was clapping and cheering for us. I was soon met by Mick pulling me into a big hug.
"That was amazing!", he said.
"Thank you Micky.", I responded.
Soon I was being embraced by all my friends and it felt amazing. I wish my guys were here but other than that everything was great.
We partied all night and then somehow made our way home and passed out. I knew I was with someone but I had no clue who.
   The next morning when I woke up my head was pounding. I looked around to find four other bodies in my bed. I started to panic but then I calmed down once I realized it was just the Crüe. Mick wrapped his arms around me and kissed the top of my head.
"Good morning party animal", he laughed quietly.
I rolled my eyes and responded to him before burying my head back into Tommy's side. Vince was cuddled up with one of my legs and Nikki was halfway laying on top of me. We were all tangled up so I just laid back and relaxed. We laid there a little longer and eventually we all woke up and got up. I went and took a shower and got lost in my thoughts. It had been almost two months since I've seen the Guns guys and I missed them all a lot. We talked on the phone every other day or so but we were all busy so we never got to talk for long. After releasing our album yesterday MTV started playing another one of our songs. It's called Illusions and it has more of a punk sound to it. We went and played another show that night and my days once again were blurring together. Almost two more weeks had passed and our new album was doing really good. We had three songs on the charts and one of them were top 5 on the charts. We were all so happy about this and we were hoping to have some type of tour soon.
Axl called me and we had a nice conversation catching up and then he spoke again.
"So our tour with Metallica is over and we need another band to do our South American tour with.", he said.
"Oh that's cool who do you think you guys are gonna get?", I asked.
"Well that's actually why I called. Will The Clovers join us for tour?", he asked.
I was overcome with happiness and I screamed yes.
"Do the other guys know about this?", I asked.
"Nope only me.", Axl responded.
"Well don't say anything. I wanna surprise them!.", I said.
Axl agreed and we hung up the phone. I made phone calls to Jason and Ronnie and then to my manager and from there he handled everything. I was so happy to be going on tour with my best friends. Not only do I get to go see them but I also get to spend everyday with them. I couldn't be happier right now.